A Newbie
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Join Date: Nov 2007
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A newbie, I never thought I would be saying that again. Like many of you, I was two weeks shy of 9 years clean and sober, and then I thought I would try the marijuana maintenance program. Eight years later, I have find myself in the same ugly mess. Hating myself in the mornings and swearing I am stopping, then the weekend comes, and I have garnered my strength back, yet to fall again into the abyss of drunkenness, and the most ugly world of all, cocaine.
I must make this work this time, I will be attending my first AA meeting in the next two hours. I used to attend regularly eight years ago, but my self-centered thinking told me, "I'm different, I don't need these stupid meetings". Well I do need these meetings, and I need the people that are there to nurture and guide me once again.
I am glad I searched and found this website. I have read a good deal of the posts since this morning, and I hear my story in many of you. This is only my second day sober, but I am making a commitment and promise to myself, I will stay sober, no matter what it takes. Thank you all for being here.
I must make this work this time, I will be attending my first AA meeting in the next two hours. I used to attend regularly eight years ago, but my self-centered thinking told me, "I'm different, I don't need these stupid meetings". Well I do need these meetings, and I need the people that are there to nurture and guide me once again.
I am glad I searched and found this website. I have read a good deal of the posts since this morning, and I hear my story in many of you. This is only my second day sober, but I am making a commitment and promise to myself, I will stay sober, no matter what it takes. Thank you all for being here.
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Welcome. I'm glad you posted. It's funny, this bond we have with other addicts and alcoholics. We need eachother. Together, we cheer eachother on. Let us know how the meeting goes, and please continue to reach out here.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
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Welcome Maze, :comfort
You are in the right place for getting experience, strength, & hope from all of us. You already know how the AA Program works so that will be a big bonus for you.
Keep coming back with posts of how you are doing & for support in your endeavor to stay clean & sober. :ghug2
kelsh
You are in the right place for getting experience, strength, & hope from all of us. You already know how the AA Program works so that will be a big bonus for you.
Keep coming back with posts of how you are doing & for support in your endeavor to stay clean & sober. :ghug2
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maze, glad you stumbled upon us...
and a big thank you...
youv'e help'd to keep my buit'n in forget'r from forget'n...
and my terminaly uniqueism, into wasism!!! yikes!
pick up those pieces maze...
you made it back!
alll good wishes maze...
xxoo
rz
and a big thank you...
youv'e help'd to keep my buit'n in forget'r from forget'n...
and my terminaly uniqueism, into wasism!!! yikes!
pick up those pieces maze...
you made it back!
alll good wishes maze...
xxoo
rz
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Sacramento, California
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My meeting last night met with getting lost, and by the time I found it, being that late, I was too embarrassed to go in. But I know where it is now and I will be back again tonight. They seem to sometimes have meetings in the most obscure places. I thought I gave myself plenty of time to get there, obviously I didn't.
Thank you all for the kind reception, I will keep coming back and posting. The one thing that I thought of my 8+ years of sobriety, was the fact that I never wanted to help anyone but myself. I never sponsored anyone or even reached out when I could see there was a need. I see now there is a reason to help others, because in doing that, you are actually helping yourself.
Day 3 now starting, but I must confess, these first few days are easy for me, because of being angry at myself and depressed, my enthusiasm to stop is overwhelming. I must recognize this and continue to post and go to meetings. The pitfall of many addicts is getting too comfortable with themselves and dropping their guard.
I must get ready for work now, I will be back.
Thank you all for the kind reception, I will keep coming back and posting. The one thing that I thought of my 8+ years of sobriety, was the fact that I never wanted to help anyone but myself. I never sponsored anyone or even reached out when I could see there was a need. I see now there is a reason to help others, because in doing that, you are actually helping yourself.
Day 3 now starting, but I must confess, these first few days are easy for me, because of being angry at myself and depressed, my enthusiasm to stop is overwhelming. I must recognize this and continue to post and go to meetings. The pitfall of many addicts is getting too comfortable with themselves and dropping their guard.
I must get ready for work now, I will be back.
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Yes, I agree, we come here to help each other and to help ourselves.
And, I used to get stuck on Day 3 for a long time, too. It was a tough one for me because I started to think I had some control again. Oh boy! Hang in there and you'll get through it.
And, I used to get stuck on Day 3 for a long time, too. It was a tough one for me because I started to think I had some control again. Oh boy! Hang in there and you'll get through it.
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Originally Posted by maze51 
Thank you all for the kind reception, I will keep coming back and posting. The one thing that I thought of my 8+ years of sobriety, was the fact that I never wanted to help anyone but myself. I never sponsored anyone or even reached out when I could see there was a need. I see now there is a reason to help others, because in doing that, you are actually helping yourself.
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