The last day out there
 

Since I'm not having a particularly good day, I figured I would post a thread about the last day out there. It's been 21+ months since I drank or drugged and sobriety has been one long strange trip. I thought I'd put my day in perspective by thinking of my last day out there. On Jan 28th, 2006 (my last day out there) I was a degenerate. I stole powerbars from walgreens to survive. I had no money, no ID's, and no insurance. Hadn't had a job in many months. Was using heroin. Every night when I went to bed I prayed for death. My very first thought every morning was suicide. All day I wondered around the city bumming cigarettes and conning/manipulating people.

Today I have a wonderful, full life. Thank God for keeping me sober today. Thanks.

WOW Chicago...what a story! It is so awesome that you have over a year sober time. I am so glad your life has changed and you seem to feel very good and blessed about things now. That is terrific! Keep up the good work!

wow its been a long time for you on this sober bus! congrats on how far you have come- to look back at once was, and see how much better life is now for you must be totally cool

you rock!
hugs
maria

An inspiration. Thank you.
M x

Your story is amazing. Congratulations on your new life.

Well done on your clean time and for changing your life Chicago,and thanks for your inspirational story.

How inspiring thank you for your story, what a wonderful turn about you have made in your life. I applaud you.

indie

Great job on your sober time...

My last day out there felt utterly hopeless...

After my first DUI, I went on a two month bender that included Detox, mental institutions, and disappearing in harms way...For two months my family didn't know where I was. They called the police and filed a missing persons report...When I did return home I was an empty shell, with empty feelings...I drank to pass out and stayed isolated in my bedroom...:abcd:

I thought, surely death is better than this...

Then AA happened and slowly life was returning to the light...Almost four months later my life my life was changed.. I no longer have to dwell in that darkness of addiction.:ham4

Thanks for sharing your story and this is a great topic...

That's a great turnaround Chicago!

It reminds us that there is always hope.