thiskidknows

Well its been a while since I have been on SR ~ I don't remember if I posted before I ran off, apologises if I didn't.

I have cut down drinking, drink hardly anything now ~ maybe 1 or 2 glasses every other weekend and my psychiatrist is happy with that ~ I changed psychiatrist's as it was felt by the mental health team I needed long term support with my drink, drugs and depression...so I still see him every 6 weeks and have been taking my medication like a good girl. I am still seeing my therapist every week, and were hitting on some tough subjects..

Last week I started on the road to self discovery, I won't say its been easy, its the most difficult journey to date, I could have easily fallen back into the drinking everyday until I passed out, but I didn't want to have to fight that demon again.

I never thought their was any light at the end of the tunnerl....but now I can see a flicker, and cutting down from the 100+ units a week has allowed me to start to deal with the reasons I was drinking but without the hangover the next day...

I hope you all well.

TKK xxx formally Lost_child

Rowan

Welcome back it's good to see you.

parentrecovers

nice to see you on the boards, thiskid. i remember you! glad your therapy is helping you. keep posting, k

CarolD

Good to know you are making progress

Blessings

leeside

Glad your back! Maybe the informal you (thiskidknows) will stick around this time.

scaredykat

Hi Thiskidknows.

Welcome Back. I remember you too. I'm glad your back. Keep reading and posting.

Barb

calfritch

welcome!! keep up the good work!!

stone

Hi again TKK.

Pilgrim

Howdie stranger! Good to see you here and getting well.

Missymae737

Hi,

I remember you...I am happy you are doing better...

Keep posting...:ghug2

cyberwolf

Hi there

Glad you are well

Big HUGS:ghug

thiskidknows

aww bless ya guys..and thank you for welcoming me back.

Yes I defintely on the up, I wouldn't say I'm at the top and I still have many days were I wobble and fall but I've started climbing that mountain and hopefully have the tools to make it...I know they will be slip ups, I know I will fall but instead of fallen further, I will pick myself up and carry on.

I really hope your all doing well...and if they are any people I've not meet and you feel you can't make it......the last time I was here I didn't think I would either, I was in the darkest place, I was in the pitts, I was a binge drinker and quickly becoming realiant on drink and drugs to help me thru the day and nite...After a serious eye opener I had a decision to make, drink myself into an early grave or deal with it...many days and nites spent in hospital made me realise that there was more to life then drinking if I wanted there to be...so here I am now, I have the occassional drink with a meal and I don't touch drugs...I am by no means cured, as I still get the odd day, minute, hour where I want that drink and could quite easily go back to how I was...the fights not over I know..but I'm more willing to fight back when the demons attack.

anway, I have sooooooooooo gone on, apologises.

I hope everyone is ok and your looking out for each other.

wiscgirl30

Nice to meet you...and thank you for your post in my thread yesterday....
(((hugs)))

leeside

Glad to hear you wont touch drugs! Now if you would just apply that to the "other" drug.

I had a bit of a concern last night when I poured another sparkling grape juice after I had thought just one. ha ha I know you probably think that is a bit exxxxtreme and think I am just a control freak. I think it just serves as a reminder of how I was with the alcohol.

mike_mass

Welcome back.

Pilgrim

Hi again TKK. I can't imagine being bothered with just one.

Anna

Welcome back!

On~Fire

Hi Tkk,
I left and came back just yesterday myself. I was still partying and as expected of me and my alcoholic ways i made a mess of things. So im gonna jump on board and do this thing once more. So welcome back and i look forward to seeing you succeed.