Sorry I haven't posted in a while, not sure if you'll remember me
 

But I've started drining again, so much for the confident approach eh? :(

F*cking hell, who am I trying to kid.

Karim Patim, serenitarium, Reubena... I hope you all still post here and are doing fine... :(

Hi RK,

Welcome back!

The main thing is to not give up.

We do understand.

Thanks 51, I'm really scared about my future just now... :(

Why? Has something happened that caused someone else to have control of your destiny?

My destiny has always been my own Pinkcuda. It's on the map like everything on Earth. There is little I can do to change that. We are all gods, but even gods have limits and weaknesses. :(

I never imagined that the highlight of my life would be defeating the challenge of addiction to alcohol, but despite all that I have managed to achieve in life, everything - absolutely everything - pales in comparison to the monster of this addiction.

If Ican beat him/her/it that I can die happy a man.

And to tell my grandchildren what? :(

I'm glad you made it back to us.

I am glad your here. Please keep posting.

RK,

You can tell your grandchildren how to be a good, whole, sober person.

:-)

Karen

"You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here."

How right you are about that, we are all formed from matter from the universe - we are all connected...

Sometimes thinking about the scale of real things makes my private struggle with addiction seem insignificant...

And then when I remember, it's only insignificant because I happen to be thinking of something else... :(