Finally putting the past to rest
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Finally putting the past to rest
After being sober for awhile and beingon vacation has giveing me the time to think and put my past to rest. It has taken along time but right now I am at peace. With all of the prayers and my friends and family routeing for me I have to do what I need to do so I dont let them down. I spoke to one of my friends this past weekend and he stated to me that he didnt think that I would make it and be in trouble again. When we were talking he then stated that he has seen such a change in me from months ago. Now he knows that I am going to make it. I will keep working my programs and going to counseling.
I know that at times complacement my try to set and when that comes it only means that i am going to work harder and use all my resources to get rid of that feeling and keep moveing forward. This is going to be alot of work but I dont want to spiral backwards. So what it may take to become healthier and live a peacefull and fullfilled life it is going to mean work. I am ready and will except the work with open arms.:ghug
I know that at times complacement my try to set and when that comes it only means that i am going to work harder and use all my resources to get rid of that feeling and keep moveing forward. This is going to be alot of work but I dont want to spiral backwards. So what it may take to become healthier and live a peacefull and fullfilled life it is going to mean work. I am ready and will except the work with open arms.:ghug
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I was't suppost to make it either, but Oh well...i like proving people wrong
anywho.lol Defient, onary,rebiliouse..call it what you will.
Onething i have notice over the decades is that people that's seems like
they're not going to make it, do. The poeple that falls on their ass,
strugles, whine, doing it all wrong, break downs.... becuase recovery is
a SOB. I guess they're keeping it real. Becuase if my only problem was
not to pick up or use...i belive, i would had graduated aeons ago.
They keep coming back no matter what and do service work.
anywho.lol Defient, onary,rebiliouse..call it what you will.
Onething i have notice over the decades is that people that's seems like
they're not going to make it, do. The poeple that falls on their ass,
strugles, whine, doing it all wrong, break downs.... becuase recovery is
a SOB. I guess they're keeping it real. Becuase if my only problem was
not to pick up or use...i belive, i would had graduated aeons ago.
They keep coming back no matter what and do service work.
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This probably sounds like a stupid question, but how does one put the past to rest? Do you just have to accept it for what it was or what? And then is it best to think about it or when things from the past creep into you're mind would it be best to think of something else?
Sorry if I sound stupid.
Sorry if I sound stupid.
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No
Putting your past to rest is that you have execpted what you have done and you are ok with it. It is one of the most hardest things to do. Cause you have to look inside yourself and admit your wrongs. This does not come over night and will take time. yes does it creep up on you at times, yes it does. Being able to say i am sorry and i am ready to forgive myself for what I have done, and just keep going and not dwell on it learn from it. We all make mistakes and the ones who can learn and grow from them are the ones are willing to do the work of sobriety.
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hey shemp - i'm happy for you to be able to do that. i am wrestling with that right now and it definitely is hard to not look back and say 'if i only did this different, or that....' but i am confident i can one day put it all to bed. 
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