norcalman

Hi All...

My first post and hello.

After lurking for a couple of weeks, I've gained a lot of inspiration from reading the various threads of others. My alcoholism may not be as deep as others, but "it's" there.

My M.O.
I've relocated to a home office (8 months ago) and taken my group virtual (in the web business), although being in that realm, this is the first forum I've ever joined.

The problem... I can now drink unmonitored. My drugs of choice... (during the day) a bottle or two of wine supplemented by periodic hits of pot. I've been a functioning alcoholic for 25 years. No dui's, no embarrassments to family, but certainly ongoing physical harm (and lies) to myself.

Really hoping to now try and clean things up. I look forward to being involved in the community and moving forward.

Captain Kirk

Hi!
Welcome aboard! I'm new here myself (Day 6 today) but I can already tell you that you'll be in good company here. Everybody's so supportive and has such good advice to share. They're really great people here.
Let us know how you're doing.
Good luck.

Rowan

Hi Norcalman,

Welcome to our recovery community. I understand your fear now that you can drink and use without being monitored by anyone. You were wise to recognize this. Please continue to read and post - others will be along to welcome you soon.

Rowan

CarolD

Hi....I am glad to see you de lurked!

Do you have a plan of action
to begin a healthier future?

Perhaps a medical check up to see
where you are physically and what needs
to be quickly treated?

Welcome to SR!

nogard

hi and welcome in from the lurking There are plenty of people at SR and in programs that you will have a story like ours. Its not about the amount or where it took us but its effect on our lives.

Good to see you here we work in the same industry I believe.

Hope to see lots more of you.

Kevin

Anna

Hi Norcalman,

I'm glad you posted and know that you are not alone.

norcalman

Thanks so much for the responses.

Fortunately all alone this evening, so I can wash the sheets, make the bed and open another bottle of wine...all can appear normal when my wife and daughter return tonight at 10:00 pm.

Sunday will be a social and light consumption day.

Monday morning may be another story.

nogard

so do something different then, like don't drink the booze, post here instead. look up the local programs and ring one or more.

Kevin

skigirl

Jeez- You are so not speaking up.... What's up? This cagey kinda talk. Please - open your heart and soul.. You can save yourself - you just need a little prodding, no??

norcalman

Thanks Nogad and Skigirl...

I'm looking for a good slap in the face, and as I mentioned at the outset, I'm a newbie at posting.

Actually coming off replacing the pint of gin with wine. I've learned here that is called a "step-down". Sure, sure... good luck.

Best to you both.

nogard

I had no problems talking to anyone and everyone after 10,000 gallons of wine but it took some practice speaking up and asking for help when I stopped drinking.

Don't be too hard on yourself and check out the local prgrams.

Kevin

norcalman

Thanks Nogad

...as I consume my 10,001th.

norcalman

Sorry for the typo nogard....

... and thanks for the reply

nogard

ah well, maybe put it down and hit the sack then there is always tomorrow.

Kevin

norcalman

Not a bad idea...

Although on our time, might have to hold out for Saturday Night LIVE.

.... sorry though 'bout the Presidents Cup destruction.

Thanks again for the communique.

nogard

Sat night live here is a late night AA meeting that attaracts a huge crowd and everyone has to keep their share to 5 mins its great fun.

Kevin

Max.J.Milton

Well done for taking the first step, very brave =)

Love,
Max x

NOMOMERLOTMAMMA

Hi Norcal,

Glad that you decided to post! Welcome

Karen

Pinkster

Hey Max.J.-

I figure we are about at the same point. I was on another site, and today is my first here, but I need to do the sober thing again. I am trying to moderate, but it isn't so easy. I definitely agree that I need to go AF (alcohol free --- noticed you guys don't use that acronymn here---"AF") for at least a month before trying.

I made it 10 days last month, but I don't want to try again until Monday. Are you planning AF then? (No alcohol). I could use a buddy,...

Anyway, congrats for making this step and best of luck to you!!! :o)

Pinkcuda

AF? Is there any other way? I, as well as every other Alcoholic tried to moderate it. There is just no way. Quitting is so much easier than trying to control it.
Saying no that first drink is difficult. Saying no to the second drink is out of the question.