Rusty Zipper

good for you paisanno,

un giorno alla volta

Captain Kirk

857 Days no drinking
3 or 4 months no gambling (I'm not counting the days, I don't know why)

I'm seriously unhappy.
I'm caught in a weird dimension somwhere between being alive and being dead.
I'm so ******* lonely. I can't remember the last time I had a significant conversation with anyone.
I don't go out much (where can one go on their own?) but when I'm out and about I do try (I say "try" because it's difficult for me to talk to strangers) to talk to people everyday but it's always the same story: the weather, sports, news. ect.

What the **** is wrong with me??? It was better when I was drinking, at least I talked with strangers. I used to make loads of acquaintences too when I was drinking.
I have about 2 friends left. They never call or ask me to hang out with them or anything.
If I have to be so unhappy, what's the point of living like this? I'm already dead....

Even when I was on the Xanax my social life was much better. I don't know why. Maybe I was just looser and more relaxed or something.
I'd like to go back on the Xanax but the last time (857 Days ago) I only took them for 2 or 3 days and had terrible withdrawl symptoms for a week. I thought I was dying! I'm affraid to try them again because I dont' want to get addicted again and I'm ssooo scared of the withdrawl symptoms.

There's no solution to my problems.
Very very very unhappy.

p.s.: on the plus side, I'm getting quite good with the guitar

least

Good for you for not gambling recently and congrats on getting good on the guitar!

artsoul

hi aldo - I'm sorry to hear things are so hard for you right now. I'm wondering if you've ever considered seeing a psychiatrist to ascertain whether you might have an underlying depression? It might also help just to talk about what's going on with you.

It's great that you're playing guitar - is there anyone you know who would like to get together and play with you? If you're looking for ways to be around people again, perhaps a class or group would be one thing to consider. Do you go to any meetings?

Dee74

Ever thought of counselling Aldo?
The band idea is pretty good too

Congratulations on keeping the drinking and other demons at bay - that's an achievement

Welcome back
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Rusty Zipper

aldo, have you ever tried any support or recovery groups?

what worked for me was the mind change,

ala my reaction to myself, and towards life...

strike up the band aldo!

Che la Luna, Che la Luna!

Dee74

500+ posts
You to get to move to the daily forum now Aldo...

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html

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