Blundering Blackout Blues
Blundering Blackout Blues
Wow I think I need to write a song with that title... Ha ha. I could definitely write something believible.
Anyway here goes... I am a 29 yr old married mother of 2. I love my children dearly and believe that they are the reason I am writing this in the first place. I have been drinking since I was about 12 or 13. During my teen years my alcohol abuse was definitely bad. I used marijuanna back then too. I stopped using marijuanna after I got in trouble for it. So I started drinking a lot more to "relieve stress" but I probably created more than I relieved lol. I always drank more than I should when I drank after what I call THE PARTY BUG bit me and on quiet nights at home I did occasionally but that got more and more too.
Anyway I have a problem. I am tired of appologizing for things I dont remember doing and feeling like mean idiot waking up the next morning. This is my second attempt to quit. Last time I quit was last year and I stayed sober for 2 months until the holidays hit.... Where I actually seemed to be "handling" my alcohol lol...But its progressive and a year later I am worse than when I quit last time. I would not say that I was drinking daily but it was headed there, and I occasionally participate in that lovely alcoholic tradition of "hair of the dog".
Anyway, I'm here and saying this to other people. I dealt with my addiction alone last time and we see how well that worked. I am done. Now I just need to learn new ways to have fun. Oh my last drink was Sunday.
Anyway here goes... I am a 29 yr old married mother of 2. I love my children dearly and believe that they are the reason I am writing this in the first place. I have been drinking since I was about 12 or 13. During my teen years my alcohol abuse was definitely bad. I used marijuanna back then too. I stopped using marijuanna after I got in trouble for it. So I started drinking a lot more to "relieve stress" but I probably created more than I relieved lol. I always drank more than I should when I drank after what I call THE PARTY BUG bit me and on quiet nights at home I did occasionally but that got more and more too.
Anyway I have a problem. I am tired of appologizing for things I dont remember doing and feeling like mean idiot waking up the next morning. This is my second attempt to quit. Last time I quit was last year and I stayed sober for 2 months until the holidays hit.... Where I actually seemed to be "handling" my alcohol lol...But its progressive and a year later I am worse than when I quit last time. I would not say that I was drinking daily but it was headed there, and I occasionally participate in that lovely alcoholic tradition of "hair of the dog".
Anyway, I'm here and saying this to other people. I dealt with my addiction alone last time and we see how well that worked. I am done. Now I just need to learn new ways to have fun. Oh my last drink was Sunday.
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Welcome, glad you're here. I'm another AA guy, after 27 years of daily drinking I've been given a life in sobriety beyond my wildest dreams. Get a meeting list for your area and check out a few.
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No I don't tell them, I take them with me! 2-5 meetings every week and they love going with me. It's not such a bad experience for kids, if anything it's leading by example. Besides, where else can you experience so many walks of life coming together for the same reason?
cool... The people I talked to told me I could but at this stage I dont feel comfortable bringing them. Plus they dont have any non smoking meetings . Though i smoke I know what happens when a room full of people are smoking... lol big fog maybe at some point that would be okay.
Hi and Welcome,
You've come to a great place to find support and inspiration. Alcoholism IS a progressive disease and can take over our lives before we know it. It sounds like you're already on your way! And, it does take a lot of work to stay sober. Coming here is always helpful for me.
You've come to a great place to find support and inspiration. Alcoholism IS a progressive disease and can take over our lives before we know it. It sounds like you're already on your way! And, it does take a lot of work to stay sober. Coming here is always helpful for me.
I made my first meeting tonight. It was interesting and helpful. I ended up staying after and getting a lady's #. I ended up getting my 24 hr chip. Well thanks for the advice I was struggling with whether I should go or not and I am glad I did.
Its wierd I feel kinda of freaked out today, like I was in a daze when I was telling people about myself. When I first got out of bed it was almost like "Did I really say those things" lol... I started reading the book last night and got to the end of How it works... I think I have a hard row to hoe with my spirituality. I think I have been searching for years on what my own concept of God is and I had actually givin up.. I guess I have been broken in that way. I thought I could just live my life with out dealing with my God issues lol... After reading I dont think I get to get around this one... Scary
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