Walking on egg shells
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: my room in ct.
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chiy it gets exausting...
at that point, for me... i said... "I'm Done!"
such wonderfull growth ms. big mouth! lol
xxoo, blesings & recovery chiy!
xxoo, FSB... lol
I am so sick of starting over all the time and playing catch up and being broke and feeling like a big piece of crap with no purpose in life.
at that point, for me... i said... "I'm Done!"
such wonderfull growth ms. big mouth! lol
xxoo, blesings & recovery chiy!
xxoo, FSB... lol
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Join Date: Feb 2006
Location: FL
Posts: 14,246
Trish,
I'm so happy to see you doing so well! To answer your question:
In my recovery...yes I feel like that too. Over time it does have some fluctuations and by that I mean I have to be on guard all the time but the intensity isn't always the same. It does get better and the fact that you are thinking and asking about this topic is just one more sign of your fantastic progress! Three key things that measure my progress in recovery are my: Acceptance, Awareness and Action.
Keep up the good work!
I'm so happy to see you doing so well! To answer your question:
Does anyone else feel like they have to be on high red alert alot with every aspect of recovery?
Keep up the good work!
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Join Date: Mar 2006
Location: FRIENDSWOOD, TEXAS
Posts: 500
I also feel like I have to keep my guard up at all times also, I have 51 days and I still think about drinking or using xanax sometimes but then the thoughts go away, I try to keep my mind occupied with other things and my last day in outpatient therapy is Monday and I am kind of nervous about leaving cause it has helped me a lot.
Looking For Myself...Sober
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
I start outpatient Mon. I had to wait 3 weeks. But I made it.
Feel pretty good. But I also strted working again last week.
I get my first paycheck Tues.
That is going to the true test of it all.
I am pretty much ok if I stay out of that city or dont have large amounts of money on me.
I am kinda nervous. But I am pretty sure I will make it.
My guard is going up and getting locked down then.
Feel pretty good. But I also strted working again last week.
I get my first paycheck Tues.
That is going to the true test of it all.
I am pretty much ok if I stay out of that city or dont have large amounts of money on me.
I am kinda nervous. But I am pretty sure I will make it.
My guard is going up and getting locked down then.
trying to get it..
Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: California
Posts: 286
I was dreaming ....I had 47 days and bang....but I have to pick myself up...thinking abut drinking...i didn’t even hesitate when I picked it up again...vigilance is a must ..at least for me every minute..... cunning, baffling, powerful....
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Join Date: Dec 2003
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Trish,
You know your triggers by now. Money is one of them. The city is another. You know what you need to do to keep yourself safe - if you start telling yourself different, or justifying why a trip to the city would be okay, or to hang on to a few bucks, I hope you get your a** to a meeting (in fact, I hope you get to a meeting anyway) and share what's going on with you.
You've been blessed with second chances again and again - someone up there wants you to make it. Remember those affirmations you told me about. Believe that you are capable of making different choices. It is possible. I'm living proof.
PM me anytime. Stay close to others in recovery.
Row
You know your triggers by now. Money is one of them. The city is another. You know what you need to do to keep yourself safe - if you start telling yourself different, or justifying why a trip to the city would be okay, or to hang on to a few bucks, I hope you get your a** to a meeting (in fact, I hope you get to a meeting anyway) and share what's going on with you.
You've been blessed with second chances again and again - someone up there wants you to make it. Remember those affirmations you told me about. Believe that you are capable of making different choices. It is possible. I'm living proof.
PM me anytime. Stay close to others in recovery.
Row
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