Topic: Who Are You? So Many Years Of Life In A Nut Shell. What Do You Know? Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic. By the Grace of my HP and people like you here in SR I havent found it necessary to take a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90. For that and you I am truely grateful. Who am I is the question I ask myself. I have been living for 48 yrs now and what do i know....What do I have to show for it. What knowledge have I aquired over the yrs. ???? Well....my little life is a small cocoon... As a child growing up i recall learning to do housework PERFECTLY. The physical, verbal and emotional abuse kept me very small. Meaning......top priority was to keep my parents house inside and out emmaculate. My world was mostly limited to that task under all that abuse. I finshed school hiding the truth of what my life was like at home. Lots of living in fear. At 18 i moved out of that enviroment and began my own life....sure i was independant...i learned to stand up for myself and formed a hard shell to prevent being hurt. I drank to numb all sorts of feelings thru the yrs till i was 30 and got sober as a result of a family intervention. So what knowledge have i aquired over the yrs....hmmmm....well.... what i learned growing up....how to keep a PERFECT house....With help and guidance from Above I manage to bring 2 AWESOME kids in the world who r now 23 and 20.... Both attending College.... How they ended up SO FINE was all due to the Man Upstairs. Getting sober while they were just 4 and 6 allowed them to know what recovery was all about.... And really thats what i know today.... Recovery has allowed me to face my demons and work thru difficulties in life....I also know how to work sucessfully with the public.....remarkable since i spent 16 yrs as a stay at home mom.... My little world isnt filled with book knowledge...and maybe that is one of the reasons why i possibly failed as a wife.....my husband comes from smart educated folks....and not to belittle my own family because my dad finished LSU as an Engineer and had AWESOME faith....A good father and husband. I just didnt get the brains or whatever it took to be studious. For me Im more of a physical person. ....i guess i learned to work, play and live hard in life. Anyway...i couldnt communicate with my spouse on that level of knowledge he had....it bored me to hear intillectual stuff....and with him, my small world of knowledge surely turned him off..... So what im saying is....all i know today after 48 yrs. is small....and I guess im still a work in progress..... And on that note, ill open the floor to u SR. Thanks for letting me share my small world of knowledge with you. |
I'm Scott, and I'm a sober and grateful member of AA. I'm the single father of two beautiful children, David (12) and Katie (9). I have a beautiful and very intelligent girlfriend. I've got so many hobbies, but most importantly I have my sobriety and a connection with a God of my understanding. I should also mention that I love being of service more than anything, it's made my life richer than I ever dreamed it could be. Beyond that, I have this moment only. The past is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet, so for now I'll just focus on going to bed sober tonight. Thanks as always for the brain food, Sharon! |
Hey ya`ll Dave alcoholic I`m 45 married, with 1 son he just turned 13 (ya a teenager) My last drink was 6-6-06 before I went to jail. After I got out I prayed to God to remove the obsesion to drink ( with all my heart & soul) He did!!!!!!! I walked around dry for a year before I came back into the rooms, I needed someone to talk to that would understand. Since then I have gotten a home group,sponsor & started working the steps. Just got my 90 day chip 8-7-07. I know I have along way to go, but I have a strong support group. So one day at a time in his time!!!! Would like to post more but its time for tues. f2f meeting. Peace & love |
Congrats on your 90 day chip, Dave, and welcome to SR! OK, back to sharon's topic.............. |
what do i know ? I know plenty...but it's still screwie..thou. lol strange... all of my partners are walking dictionaries.lol Some said they have picture perfect memories..on parper perhase.. I beg the differ.. Actaully i rebel agaisnt it...probably becuase my dad is a ceo..lol freaken throwing 8 silly-able words at a 8 year old kid instead of just loving him... Imagin that..wa, being attractive to women that has the same triats as my father. I know there's an easy spell check botton damn it... What make's me intelligent is that I can figure out what people are writing and saying when it's not perfect and in greek sometimes..lol I know growning up in a dysfunctional home, really, really mess me up. You might get an impression I grew up in a trailer park....Nnnope! On the westside , upper middle class. Everything all rosie on the outside, it was all f-up on the inside..Then again, my family wasn't any different from my childhood friend's family...becuase they pretty much lived and acted just like my family too. I thought is was normal and i had a normal childhood..lol and that's about how i felt before I got sober. All rosie on the outside and all f-up on the inside. Then when I got old enough to get away..i was hoping I out grew that crap.. but it didn't happened like that. Luckily I got sober at 22. I did manage to put 11 years together. After my relaped, I finally looked into ACOA...well, it was suggested that i attend acoa when I first got sober.. See what happends when I don't follow instructions.lol Digging up those old wounds totally sucked....I ran away from it all my life. well it came up and bit me in the arss..it happened on god's times i guess or maybe my HP deem it was time I healed enough to peel another layer away.lol I'm feeling more well than I've have ever been in my entire life but I don't wanna know anymore..lol becuase the more i know, the less i know... |
Hey satit...i heard that phrase yesterday at a meeting... "The more i know the less i know" Pretty cool huh? :) Thanks guys for sharing ur ESH with me and others. Much appreciated. |
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