Surrender63

This is my history with the drink problem and AA. I'll get 60-90 days sober go to alot of meetings and then drink again. It will be ok for awhile...few weeks/months,but then the insanity begins all over again. Self-pity,remorse,isoltation,etc. I'm too embarrassed to go to my meetings again with this same story,ditto with calling my sponser and others in the program. Sick of the cycle this turns out to be. Expecting it to be different. Perhaps, I should try a new meeting where no one knows me. Any suggestions?

Rowan

Hi confused. I'd call your sponsor and go back to your regular meetings, pick up a desire chip. Recognize that the 60-90 day mark is a trigger for you and share that with your sponsor and others. Don't let pride keep you from doing the next right thing for your recovery. You can do this.

Tazman53

Hi cofused in Denver, I agree with Rowan to a point, if you have good relationships and support from the meetings you were going to then go to them again, if not then switch the meetings you are having issues at. You daid you have a sponsor, are you actively working the steps with your sponsor? For me there was so much more to staying sober then having a sponsor and doing meetings.

Funny you should mention 90 days, I was doing pretty good right up until around 90 days, but my sponsor (A good man) was to busy traveling with his job to work the steps with me, I found another one that could and did work them with me. This made all thr difference in the world for me.

parentrecovers

my daughter relapsed at about 90 days. she got too confident, thought she could handle "just a few". i hear that alot at that time.

whatever you decide, confused. just don't quit trying.

blessings, k

simplysober

HI confused

you are doing a great job at going the distance with all those days- and you have the courage to tell us all here, as well as going back to your meetings- i admire you for that.

Im on day 15 and i still havent even gotten up the nerve to walk into a meeting- so KUDOS to you

hang in there- these great people on this site are so supportive

hugs
maria

CarolD

I was in and out of AA too.
It took me 5 years to earn my 1 year medallion!

This link is to the book that finally convinced me to quit.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

I do so hope you too will find it beneficial.

I did stay with my home group because that's
where my sober friends were. I needed and
received their cheerful support.

Keep us posted...k?

SaTiT

I can relate, becuase i did basically the samething.
Generally, i can put 60-90 days other before AA to begin with anyways.

there were a lot of other issues that I bacailly did the same.
Such as owning an automobile for only a year, or a the same job
for a couple of years or being in a relationship for a couple of years.
I did an inventory about my life which helped me a great deal to reconize
these patterns that developed over time. For some reason i go into
self dystruction or self sabatage mode.

Back to the finding myself smashed after 90 days again and again.
For me anyways, I ponder about step #1 for a bit.
yeap, I don't lack will power...my will power gose for about 90days.
I actaully gave up on the entire idea of trying to stop drinking all together.
But for some reason i remain sober and stayed sober, after i gave up the
fight with alcoholism. i didn't beliving in a HP and I still don't beliving in god
half of the time...Never the less i still let go, surrender, stopped figthing it.
It didn't matter what meeting i went to. No matter where i go, there i am.

It actaully blew my mind beyound all logic.
I actaully also ended up owning my automobile for 7 years, which I came
into recovery with, it was only 6 months old at that time. when the 1 years
time came around for that automoblie, i applied the samething.lol
That z28 has so much sentimental value to me, but I gave it away to another
recovery alcoholic that needed a ride. A new mustange landed on my lap a couple of weeks
later thou..lol