On~Fire

This Morning was a bad morning. Of course due to my insatiable need to want to drink. But i cant give up. Always the morning after my out of controll behavior i wish i could escape my life. The life i have spent so many years creating a But hey, i see all of these people posting and staying clean. I know that i can do it. So im going to continue :Weightlif I was doing P90X for a few months when i was sober and i got in great shape. Since my relapse i have not worked out 1 day. But today is a new day. Even though im busy moving. I feel much better. I see people living these happy lives. Being creative. Giving to life. I feel like i am not contributing my part to this world. I am only taking and giving negative energy. So please dont give up on me just yet. I think i still have some fight left in me. I do want to be clean again. I want my sober life back. I want to love myself and other people and enjoy life and contribute to it. Ill get it right eventually. NOW, would be an idea time.

Aysha

Hi On fire..I have felt like crap myself lately. And I usually post alot..but havent for a few days or much at all really. I have just been reading mostly.
But I see a good change in your thinking today from some of your other posts.
So I had to tell you I am so happy to hear you say your not going to give up and keep fighting.
NEVER!!!!!! GIVE UP!!!!
I am thinking of you.
Stay positive!!

Anna

On Fire, as long as you never give up, you'll make it.

You can have the kind of life you want and you're not alone.

On~Fire

Thank You chynita, I heard it said best in these words. That the people in recovery are the ones who run straight at the cliff and dive off without a second thought. Earl H on Recovery Universe.com said that. I have only been rebelious. Someone in here said that to me and i didnt agree with them at the time. But now that i reflect on it. That is the case. Thats not real. I have jut been hurting myself. Well, not only me but the people who care about me as well. There are so many good people with so much information to pass on. I want to be able to give someone that same kind of hope with the way i live my life. I was not really happy sober. But its because i honestly did not have a real relationship with God. I was being rebellious.

GrouchoTheCat

I have relapsed many times, but I keep trying and I'm sober today.

Keep trying!

(but remember, if what you are doing isn't working, try something else!)

Ted

Octoman

Hi On Fire
good luck with your effort to find a sober life. I hope you succeed this time.
Like the others have said, they key is to keep trying and never give up.
Best Wishes
Oct