AMAZAHN

75 Days sober and the road is not easy. I thought I had problems with the alcohol, my relationship with my boyfriend is now suffering. Things were great until we moved in together a mo. ago. I'm aware of my surroundings and the elements that make up my life, I just don't know where to go from here. I've been with him for almost 2 years. When I was abusing alcohol, I was abusing the relationship. I know this and now with a sober mind, I fear that there is total chaos. We both want this to work and I do not want to introduce alcohol back into my life. I think he felt like he could rescue me and now I'm making the neccesary steps to maintain my sobriety. I feel like I'm on my @ times and other times things are great. I'm going to an intense outpatient program and attending AA meetings (not as often as I should) and I feel really strong about the path I'm on. Most of the time I enjoy my sobriety and other times I wish I had more support from him. He's doing (I think) the best he can, @ least he says. Is it unfair for me to expect more after all that I've put him through?


- AMAZAHN

Aysha

Hi amazahn..Glad you are here.. There will be more along that can offer better insight than I can. Just wanted to say hi and welcome

Anna

Hi and Welcome!

Good for you with 75 days sober and I think the ups and downs you are feeling is pretty normal.

I think it's not possible for people who are not alcoholics to understand the difficulties we face. By the time I stopped drinking, my husband was totally frustrated with me and only wanted me to get better. He didn't want to talk about it, but just to move on. So, I come here for support and this is my lifeline.

If your b/f supports you, that's great, but remember you are doing this for yourself.

Rowan

Hi Amazahn,

Welcome to Sober Recovery - and well done on your sober time. I'm glad you're participating in IOP and AA meetings. Relationships can be both obstacles and opportunities, in my experience. You're sober now, so it's natural that the relationship is going to change. You're growing and changing, too. You said you should be getting to more meetings. Why don't you make that your focus? Do you have a sponsor, and are you connecting with other women in the fellowship? Doing that, and coming to this board regularly have been very helpful to my own recovery.

The ups and downs of recovery, especially early recovery, can be painful and frustrating. Don't give up when you've come so far. Just do your best to keep moving forward. I'm glad you found us!!

Rowan