aloneandinsane

i dont know what to do, i am tired yet i cant sleep, i see my buddy from where i am sitting and he has a beer in his hand and a joint in the other. i went to AA tonight and found out that thep person i was going to ask to be my sponser who had 3 years recovery, relapsed last night. what a blow, i feel so bad for her and a little annoyed with me because i got frusterated because she drank. but she is human too, and i will be the first to admit that i have had my shair of relapse over the last few months. i dont know, i guess i will just go watch a movie then go to bed, i mean what else can i do to stay clean and sober????

scaredykat

Hi alone, I haven't been sober very long myself. But that sounds like a plan to watch TV and then go to bed. Or you can read. Whatever. Or if you have phone #'s you can call someone from AA.

Sorry about your friend relapsing. Your right, she is only human. Plus this is a disease we have. Just hang in there and don't drink. Also keep reading and posting on here. It helps a lot.

Barb

CarolD

Hugs and Prayers as you continue to progress.

IO Storm

Hugs and prayers from me too...it seems as if you know some folks in

AA..if you have any phone numbers..this is the time to pull em' out and

use them.

stone

Hi alone, it is hard at times I know. I hope you find another person to be your sponsor soon.

indigo

Sending you positive thoughts for a good continuation.

Pilgrim

Hi and welcome to SR.

I found that when I put my sobriety first, I had to change buddies. Can you ask your buddy not to drink and smoke joints in the room you are in while you are so new to this? I hope the person understands. If they are a buddy they will.

Sorry about the sponsor thing. I know it takes a lot of courage to even think about asking someone. It sounds to me like you were saved at the last minute from choosing a sponsor who did not have good recovery yet.

Like IO and Carol - I pray for you and also for your would-be sponsor.

Keep posting.

Rusty Zipper

a&i, welcome to the gang!

as scaredy mentioned, read'n good... and theres loads on recovery...

all good wishes a&i

xxoo, rz

Jhana

welcome here,

this site has changed my life for the better many times, and if you hang in with the folks here and in AA, you will have begun a much better journey.

with you today,
Jhana

Aysha

I'm just shy of a week myself here. Although I dont see anyone around me doing my DOC...Thank Goodness..That would be the end of me. I live a good 30 mins away from my devil spot.
Just hang in there and try to do something...anything to stay busy. As hard as that sounds. I keep moving from one thing to another because I cant get comfortable trying to keep my mind occupied. But after awhile trying a million different things to keep my mind on better things..I get so tired I just end up laying down and watching tv too.
LOL...Oh well it works for now.
Hang in there.