levia

hi my name is levia
i have been drink free for 2 years now but am startiing to stuggle again
feeling the need to drink but i havent stepped over to drinking
am feel scared that i may
my husband also have had drink problems and he not longer drink it been 1 year and a half for him
not sure what else to say am about to go and have a bath to see if it helps me

levia

Surlyredhead

I was told by another recovering alcoholic, that we go through "changes" every anniversary. He said that sometimes we don't realize what is happening, we just feel different, or possibly, out of control. I thought that was odd...until I hit an anniversary, then it dawned on me...I WAS going through changes, however, being aware, I was able to come back to earth and regain my composure. I hope this is all you are feeling, anxiety possibly...due to the fact that you may be close to a sobriety anniversary. Two years sober is a fantastic accomplishment, you deserve to be happy, we no longer need to sabotage things for an excuse to drink....you have a great foundation, enjoy sober living....this disease is in fact...cunning, baffling and powerful.....it hates to lose...what a perfect time to call us back out...just when we think we are safe. I suppose I am saying, it is a good thing that you are aware of what is going on...tell everyone you know in recovery what you are feeling. I think you will be surprised to find how similar others stories will be.

Good luck....Cathy

Astro

My first thought was do you attend AA meetings, when was the last time you went?

Life goes on, changes happened like Cathy explained, and I need to decide whether I want to move along with the rest of the universe. AA gives me the tools to wade through the difficulties that life throws at me so that I can emerge on the other side feeling free and peaceful.

And yes, "anniversary anxiety" can bring up some fears too.

Anna

Hi Levia,

I am sorry that you're struggling at this point in your recovery.

I hope that you take a look around here and keep reading and posting. You'll find lots of support.

levia

i have never been to AA meeting at all i did it with a friends help and the fact i was so ill at the time as well ( i riped the lining in my stomack )
but i feel i may contact them

Rowan

Hi Levia,

I'm sorry you're struggling - but I'm grateful that you're reaching out here.

Thank you for joining our recovery community.

Stick around - and let us get to know you a little better.

Hang in there - and don't drink, just for today.

Rowan