barb dwyer

you know, an oldtimer told me when I came back to the Program ... put as much effort into your recovery as you did into your drinking ...
eleven months later - it's paid off.
And I'm still not doing anything else.

LOL

Yasmin1970

Hi,

Well it's Saturday (noon) here and I am feeling better today. Had a tough one yesterday, but a good nights sleep and some food did the trick.

AA is not as developed up here as in the US and other places. They have two meetings a week that I can attend (in my area) One on Wednesdays (closed) and one on Friday (open). In answer to your question Barb... don't have the option to go every day, well if I drive for 2-3 hours I could probably find one.

It has been almost a week since I had anything to drink and I am happy about that.

I am being open with my friends about this and I know that they mean well, but some of them are trying to tell me that I just shouldn't drink when I am emotional. It comes and goes with me. I have had a bumpy ride the six last years and in some ways I get what they are saying. The times I have gotten into situations with blackouts are when I have been emotionally drained and tired.

As I told my friend yesterday... I am getting a bit defensive about it all because it doesn't matter if I am emotional or tired. The problem is that I don't have the "alarm" that tells me when I should stay away from alcohol or not. My judgement is shot to h... !!!

I have reached a point where I feel that it's all or nothing. As long as I stay away from drinking I feel safe.... does that make sense ??? As someone wrote... it's not the 13 or 14 drink that is my problem... it's the 1 st one. That is the exact problem that I have. Once I have that first one... it's all downhill from there.

I know that my friends mean well, but everyone has a different perseption of what alcoholism is I suppose.

Thanks for listening and have a wonderful day !!! Good luck everyone !!

Peace and Hugs from
Yasmin

Hope

Rusty Zipper

thanks for the post yaz... were hear to listen too...

yep, for me... its the first drink that gets me in a blackout... lol

hey, maybe that two hour drive might be worth the trip...

i know i would have driven two hours for a bottle or a bag... might of been a little nerved up tho...

wishing you all the best yaz...

xxoo, rz

verity29

HI yasmin,

Please dont give up. i feel like doing the same but something keeps me coming back.

Please keep posting i need to hear from you.

Nicola.

verity29

Yasmin,

Oh God, you could be an (Irish) me. I feel exacxtly the way you do. Only beware. My friends are all heavy drinkers. I bet yours are too.

They keep telling me i don't have a problem. But i know i do. In fact they don't know half of the things i've done when drunk.

I hope you're feeling better. U can always talk to me.

Nicola.