I relapsed...
I relapsed...
Just wanted to put that out there. I'm not asking for anything except to say that it is critical to go to meetings. This board is really really supportive and I'm realizing that I can't work a program of recovery on my computer. I'll visit this forum as an adjunct to recovery. I didn't have enough recovery tools when I saw my dad over the weekend. There's a grief that goes unspoken.....
Wishing you all wisdom, courage and peace.
Wishing you all wisdom, courage and peace.
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Happy to see you LFP...not everyone is so fortunate.
It takes a lot to admit when we've screwed up; but, you ratted on yourself without wasting precious time getting back to basics.
Humility:
'Perfect humility,' Bill Wilson wrote, 'would be a full willingness, in all times and places, to find and to do the will of God.' 'Without some degree of humility, no alcoholic can stay sober at all. Nearly all AA's have found, too, that unless they develop much more of this precious quality than may be required just for sobriety, they still haven't much chance of becoming truly happy.'
'Perfect humility,' Bill Wilson wrote, 'would be a full willingness, in all times and places, to find and to do the will of God.' 'Without some degree of humility, no alcoholic can stay sober at all. Nearly all AA's have found, too, that unless they develop much more of this precious quality than may be required just for sobriety, they still haven't much chance of becoming truly happy.'
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Hi Longing. I had a one night stand with alcohol on the last day of June. Otherwise I would be coming up to my 90 days. It was like getting back with an old boyfriend and we had moved on. It didn't work. I went straight back into my programme thank goodness. I have some organ damage from my drinking so a relapse wouldn't be pretty.
I am proud of you for learning the lesson and coming straight back to the programme. It shows that you are making progress. I agree that SR is a lovely add on to face to face meetings. Thanks for the reminder. You have helped me today.
I am proud of you for learning the lesson and coming straight back to the programme. It shows that you are making progress. I agree that SR is a lovely add on to face to face meetings. Thanks for the reminder. You have helped me today.
Thanks for those of you who responded. It's kind of moving that there is still acceptance. I'm still trying and not giving up. I'm trying to get that 24 hours back. I'm looking for a sponser who will kick my butt and call me on stuff.
i relapsed many times before last year. i used this board, aa, psychologist, reading everything i can about alcoholism, and substituted lemonade for wine, good behavior for bad, stayed home from parties and places that would trigger me...gather everything you can in your arsenal. addiction is your enemy and there is no way to overprepare to fight for the most important battle of your life.
today is a new day. every day is a new day. you can do this.
today is a new day. every day is a new day. you can do this.
I am in the same situation. Just coming back from a relapse, and looking for a sponsor who will be honest, no matter how it makes me feel. This is our lives we're talking about. Give me some of that tough love! Keep your head up. It gets better. I had it once before. I am determined to have it again.
Sherry
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