read old threads and 2 years later Im in the same place
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im still on the merry-go-round.
im sitting here with an open beer. I want to go see my mom. I need rest. I need someone to just haul me off somewhere anywhere that I can just take a break.
When I was in rehab i became friends with one of the nurses. I have her cell # and Im going to call her when she gets out of work.
She might be able to help me. She is one of the only people I ever been able to talk to besides my friend lynn. I dont know what if anything she can do, but I know her hubby is in the program maybe he will be willing to take me to a meeting or just talk.
im sitting here with an open beer. I want to go see my mom. I need rest. I need someone to just haul me off somewhere anywhere that I can just take a break.
When I was in rehab i became friends with one of the nurses. I have her cell # and Im going to call her when she gets out of work.
She might be able to help me. She is one of the only people I ever been able to talk to besides my friend lynn. I dont know what if anything she can do, but I know her hubby is in the program maybe he will be willing to take me to a meeting or just talk.
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Anvilhead. I thnk I will make this the first and last beer for now.
I am looking into finding a meeting by my house for tonight.
The booze does nothing, but make me sick anymore.
I keep making the wrong decisions, but it doesnt have to keep being that way I guess. I have a bad head and I am letting it get the best of me.
I am looking into finding a meeting by my house for tonight.
The booze does nothing, but make me sick anymore.
I keep making the wrong decisions, but it doesnt have to keep being that way I guess. I have a bad head and I am letting it get the best of me.
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I went on th AA website and it doesnt post locations of meetings. i have to go do some investigating. I use to have a list I wrote up with all the meetings near me and the times, but I cant find it. Im panicking cause I know if I dont get there today I might not get there at all.
I neeed some #'s so I need to get to a meeting. I cant do this alone anymore.
I neeed some #'s so I need to get to a meeting. I cant do this alone anymore.
Beth I'm not an AA guy but I just found this page on the AA site...just call your nearby central office apparently..organised by state
http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/....cfm?PageID=29
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http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/....cfm?PageID=29
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Everytime I do go to a meeting I never say anything and walk away with no #'s. I have a pretty good case of social anxiety and Im not sure what I can do differently this time so I finally get some much needed help.
Meanwhile the meeting isnt that close and I have concerns about trying to ride my bike feeling the way I do in this heat.
Im not sure if Im making an excuse for myself or if I should wait till tommarrow when there is a meeting near my house.
I use to ride 12 miles every other day, but I havent put in any lenghty rides recently.
Meanwhile the meeting isnt that close and I have concerns about trying to ride my bike feeling the way I do in this heat.
Im not sure if Im making an excuse for myself or if I should wait till tommarrow when there is a meeting near my house.
I use to ride 12 miles every other day, but I havent put in any lenghty rides recently.
Well I think you should do something... anything but sit at home thinking about drinking/whatever.
I know for me, boredom and solitude are my worst enemies - I need to keep active to keep sober. How far is the meeting?
I know for me, boredom and solitude are my worst enemies - I need to keep active to keep sober. How far is the meeting?
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The meeting is 4 towns away, which doesnt sound like much if you have a ride.
I just found my meeting list and there is a meeting a block from my house if I can hold out till tommarrow.
Boredom has always been a trigger for me also. I cant take the quiet either it drives me nuts, or you might say it drives me to drink. I havent eaten and I am tired so im thinking I should eat and go to bed early. wake up tommarrow go to work and before I know it. it will be meeting time. I am just not sure what to do.
I just found my meeting list and there is a meeting a block from my house if I can hold out till tommarrow.
Boredom has always been a trigger for me also. I cant take the quiet either it drives me nuts, or you might say it drives me to drink. I havent eaten and I am tired so im thinking I should eat and go to bed early. wake up tommarrow go to work and before I know it. it will be meeting time. I am just not sure what to do.
You're east coast right? so I guess it's almost 8 - eating and going to bed would be a good choice, as long as you won't feel the urge to drink. When I drink I want it to be on an empty stomch (yea - i know its disgusting!) so if you get full maybe the urge will go away - it works for me.
Beth, at the beginning of the meeting, when they ask if it's anybody's first meeting after a drink, pipe up...you'll get a bunch of numbers from folks, at least that's how it is here. Maybe force yourself to stay afterwards, even just for a little bit and talk with somebody- even if it's just to say you don't reach out well and are isolating. I really hope you'll take a chance and talk with somebody. Hang in there, and good luck! I will be thinking of you.
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I decided to stay home tonight. NOT drink, eat something and try to sleep althoughthat is nearly impossible for me when I dont drink.
Im not giving up on the meeting I am just on delay since I found out there is a meeting a block from my house tommarrow night.
NAN07 thank you for the advice. I never say anything and now that I think about it I am usually late for everything and that includes the meetings so I neve get to tell anyone I am new.
i know the last meeting I was at they passed meeting books around for people to put #'s in but they only passed around the amount for the people that spoke up in the beginning. since I wasnt there I missed out and I was to shy to say anything about it. Just got on my bike and rode away.
Tommarrow I will make sure to atleast get there on time if not get there early.
Im not giving up on the meeting I am just on delay since I found out there is a meeting a block from my house tommarrow night.
NAN07 thank you for the advice. I never say anything and now that I think about it I am usually late for everything and that includes the meetings so I neve get to tell anyone I am new.
i know the last meeting I was at they passed meeting books around for people to put #'s in but they only passed around the amount for the people that spoke up in the beginning. since I wasnt there I missed out and I was to shy to say anything about it. Just got on my bike and rode away.
Tommarrow I will make sure to atleast get there on time if not get there early.
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