Broke the people, places and things rule... back on day one again
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your strong and brave.. and u know what u need stayin away from him is a big step for u ... i belive with time u will be able to see urself diff out of the same situation u were in with him.
letting go is hard... but its so nesscary for growth i feel... i will pray for u. drugs drinking do not have to destroy u..
take it one day at a time... and dont be so hard on urself.
letting go is hard... but its so nesscary for growth i feel... i will pray for u. drugs drinking do not have to destroy u..
take it one day at a time... and dont be so hard on urself.
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suicide is the bottom. everything else is upward as bad as the day might be. Really sorry if i'm not seeing this clearly and that your "goodbye notes" mean something else, like if your moving somewhere else instead and staying alive and saying goodbye to the relatives. Mental hospital or rehab. Gotta give those two a chance before becoming worm food.
hope i'm totally wrong and you laugh at my post the next time you post that i'm so completely off in what you were trying to say. take care.
hope i'm totally wrong and you laugh at my post the next time you post that i'm so completely off in what you were trying to say. take care.
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msh I didnt mean I would intentionally kill myself. I am just not feeling that well and Ive ben drinking and druggung anyone seeemingky incapable of stopping so IF something were to happen to me in the near future I had a few things to say to some of the people in my life.
I would never commit suicide, but drinking and drugging the way I have been cant be adding years to my life.
Today is a new day and I still feel crappy and depressed, but back in the ring I go.
How is evryone else feeling today?
I would never commit suicide, but drinking and drugging the way I have been cant be adding years to my life.
Today is a new day and I still feel crappy and depressed, but back in the ring I go.
How is evryone else feeling today?
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oh boy Anvilhead I wish I was onlly doing this once, but im on god knows how many day 1's.
Last time this year I was in rehab in much worse shape than Im in now. I didnt even weigh 100lbs. Im a wopping 137 now.
I am sitting here waiting for the meeting now its starts in an hour and Im thinking I should leave early to make sure Im on time and get some #'s.
Dont worry your not a nag. I kinda need a little push. Im already chickening out.
Jimmy just called hes coming home before jobs and said he wants to get together so now I feel like im gonna **** my pants Im so damn nervous. Saying no to him once he is home is going to be extremely hard for me. So Im thinking I better get some meetings under my belt before he gets here.
Last time this year I was in rehab in much worse shape than Im in now. I didnt even weigh 100lbs. Im a wopping 137 now.
I am sitting here waiting for the meeting now its starts in an hour and Im thinking I should leave early to make sure Im on time and get some #'s.
Dont worry your not a nag. I kinda need a little push. Im already chickening out.
Jimmy just called hes coming home before jobs and said he wants to get together so now I feel like im gonna **** my pants Im so damn nervous. Saying no to him once he is home is going to be extremely hard for me. So Im thinking I better get some meetings under my belt before he gets here.
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Im going Im going!!
Roomie is totally against it tho and I dont know why. All of a sudden he wants me to cook. I never friggin cook.
I can barely pop popcorn in the microwave.
I burn everything and havent cooked anything for him in like a year. Now all of a sudden Ive become master chef.
Get the hell out of here.
Wel Im gonna cook, but if it isnt done by the time im ready to go hes on his own.
If I do finish cooking hes on his own when he has to go to the ER for food poisoning.
I know Im not gonna eat what I make.
Ill order out thank you. LOL
Roomie is totally against it tho and I dont know why. All of a sudden he wants me to cook. I never friggin cook.
I can barely pop popcorn in the microwave.
I burn everything and havent cooked anything for him in like a year. Now all of a sudden Ive become master chef.
Get the hell out of here.
Wel Im gonna cook, but if it isnt done by the time im ready to go hes on his own.
If I do finish cooking hes on his own when he has to go to the ER for food poisoning.
I know Im not gonna eat what I make.
Ill order out thank you. LOL
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The meeting turned out to have been changed to Mondays. tonight was a bible study meeting instead.
I figure everything happens for a reason so with the help of the influential pastors wife I decided to stay.
AT first I didnt know what the hell I was doing there, but after 20 min. I felt like it was the right place to be.
Iam having such a hard time with the principle of a higher power and I think tonight helped bring me closer to an understanding.
TRhey sent me home with a book about the 12 steps and a recovery for life bible.
All in all it went well. They went out of their way to make me feel comfortable.. I told them I would be back on Mpnday for the AA ,meeting and probably be back Wed. for anotyher bible study meeting.
I feel pretty good about the whole thing.
My friggin roomate is driving me nuts. I dont know why he is being such a baby about the meeting thing.
Let me go see what big baby wants now.
Jeez I cooked him dinner you think he would have gotten food poisoning by now. since I am a great cook and all. NOT!!!
I figure everything happens for a reason so with the help of the influential pastors wife I decided to stay.
AT first I didnt know what the hell I was doing there, but after 20 min. I felt like it was the right place to be.
Iam having such a hard time with the principle of a higher power and I think tonight helped bring me closer to an understanding.
TRhey sent me home with a book about the 12 steps and a recovery for life bible.
All in all it went well. They went out of their way to make me feel comfortable.. I told them I would be back on Mpnday for the AA ,meeting and probably be back Wed. for anotyher bible study meeting.
I feel pretty good about the whole thing.
My friggin roomate is driving me nuts. I dont know why he is being such a baby about the meeting thing.
Let me go see what big baby wants now.
Jeez I cooked him dinner you think he would have gotten food poisoning by now. since I am a great cook and all. NOT!!!
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I also think that everything happens for a reason and you were meant to learn something tonight and it sounds like you did. I'm really glad you feel good about it, Beth.
I hope you keep trying to figure some way to get out your living situation, but one thing at a time.
I hope you keep trying to figure some way to get out your living situation, but one thing at a time.
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I think I would like to go to a meeting tommarrow. I feel like tonight doesnt count.
There is an NA meeting tommarrow that I know about, but i cant find my AA book.
you can call for info, but the people manning the phones dont necessarily know the surrounding towns when trying to help find a meeting.
Does anyone with multiple addictions have any opinion on AA V.S NA?
There is an NA meeting tommarrow that I know about, but i cant find my AA book.
you can call for info, but the people manning the phones dont necessarily know the surrounding towns when trying to help find a meeting.
Does anyone with multiple addictions have any opinion on AA V.S NA?
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i visited with one of my neighbors last night, he was in town visiting his parents who live next door. he has started a free clinic that offers services to folks with addiction and mental health issues.
it has taken him 23 years to have 12 years of sobriety. (or something like that...)
it is possible.
blessings, k
it has taken him 23 years to have 12 years of sobriety. (or something like that...)
it is possible.
blessings, k
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