BaldHeadedJohn

Thanks all.
Came forward about this to my boss this morning. I gotta be honest with him about it. He's put up with my crap for a good many years now. Even told him that if they have to let me go, I wouldn't complain. I've got no right to complain about anything anymore. I don't think that'll happen over one slip, but I know I've ran out of second chances. I'm overdrawn on the Karma account as it is.

I'll call my sponsor this evening, maybe he'll meet me at a meeting tonight. I hope he doesn't fire me.

Thanks again all!

BHJ

medievalknievel

good luck

Emimily

you make my heart happy, bald headed john. your name sounds like a bluegrass band, and you seem like you're ready to re-assert yourself. good for you!!

Rowan

I'd be mighty surprised if your sponsor fired you, John.

You've got a desire to quit drinking, and that's the only requirement to be a member of AA.

BTW I think it's a fantastic idea to do 90 in 90.

BaldHeadedJohn

90 in 90 it is, then!

Rowan

That's the spirit!!

Debaucher

John it is ok to be upset about the work thing... you should be... if you were not I would think something was wrong with you... I have learned that you feel your feelings then let them go... ignoring them lets the fester... and failure to let them go is just as bad...

For me... alcohol was part of the repression or escape from my problems...

I also have this bad trait where I try to prove feelings irrational and there worthy of being ignored... So this setback is nothing compared to the wonderful gifts in your life... (that is perspective)... but it doesn't mean your feelings are invalid or you shouldn't be upset...

I find perspective or being grateful for what you do have helps me let go... but gets in the way of me accepting my feelings...

Oh well I hope I was able to help you... what you describe sounds exactly like it could have come from my mouth... I will keep you in my thoughts...

Rowan

Debaucher makes a good point about perspective - I agree, it helps me let go, but it gets in the way of me accepting my feelings. Still trying to wrap my head around this concept, but it makes a lot of sense to me.