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Old 07-19-2007, 11:46 AM
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Day 1

I'm back to day one. I've been away from the site for a while because i was trying to convince myself that I could drink when I wanted. I could control it...yeah, that was a big lie. So, here I go, I'm giving sobriety another go. I wanted to thank everyone for the support I have recieved from this site. Thank you.
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Old 07-19-2007, 11:49 AM
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Hi mps,

Welcome back. It took me a few tries at controlling my drinking before I surrendered, so I understand where you are coming from.
Please continue to post - I'm glad you're here.

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Old 07-19-2007, 11:51 AM
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Welcome back !

So, are you starting to understand "powerless " ?
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Old 07-19-2007, 11:56 AM
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Oh yes...and as much as I hate it I know that if I accept it there is so much more to life...
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Old 07-19-2007, 11:58 AM
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i'm always so proud of people who come back and are honest. job well done, mps - a good bit of experience to share. blessings, k
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:01 PM
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Hang in there mps, you can do it!! I'm on day 3 and feeling a whole lot better already. One day at a time!!

Are you going to go to AA? Or another program?
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:05 PM
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I was doing some AA and stopped about the time I stopped posting here and realize that, for me, it's a really important part of recovery.
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:07 PM
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Originally Posted by mps101 View Post
I was doing some AA and stopped about the time I stopped posting here and realize that, for me, it's a really important part of recovery.
Me too

It works, it really does.

Try it again. Consider this a lesson.
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:08 PM
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Mine too mps! It's good to get face to face with people in our shoes. Although this site is a great place to be too! Many, Many "veterans" (if you will) that give out some very sound advice.
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:12 PM
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I totally agree. I found it's important to talk with people who have walked in "our shoes" because it breaks down the isolation and the idea that somehow "I'm the only person dealing with this"--not by a long shot! So, yeah, I had really good experiences and will hopefully be getting myself to a meeting tonight.
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:30 PM
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because it breaks down the isolation and the idea that somehow "I'm the only person dealing with this"--
I remember when I first realized that. I was sooooo elated. This was, like, a week ago BTW
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Old 07-19-2007, 12:35 PM
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Eat lots, drink tons of water & go to meetings

oh and of course post here lots & lots!!
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Old 07-19-2007, 03:22 PM
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Welcome back mps! I am glad you found the courage and wisdom to know that you were fighting a losing battle. I hope you are able to find recovery here
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Old 07-19-2007, 04:57 PM
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Welcome back Mps..I too am giving it another go.
You can do it. Just keep trying and never ever give up!!
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Old 07-19-2007, 08:15 PM
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Hi, MPS.
Sorry to get here so late. I'm rooting for you! Hope you got to your meeting.

Keep posting and let us know how it's going for you. We're all in this together!

Blessings to you.

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how you doing, mps?
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Old 07-20-2007, 06:39 AM
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Hi mps,

How are you doing today?

I hope things are going well.
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Old 07-20-2007, 03:15 PM
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Hey I'm doing well today in terms that I'm not craving alcohol.

I did just get an email from my best friend saying how she feels like we're completely growing apart and that she's trying to do stuff with me that doesn't revolve around drinking but that I'm always busy or want to go to sleep. She also said that she feels like she's lost the two most important people to her (she broke up with her boyfriend a month a go) and that I haven't been caring for her like a such good friend. She says she's doing a lot to stop that (us growing apart) but feels helpless.

I don't know how to respond. It was incredibly painful for me to read. I'm really confused about a lot of stuff and am focusing a lot on me. I love her but also know I'm not being as thoughtful of her as I used to be. I'm just really tired all the time...

So, that turned into a long post. That's where I am today.

Thank you guys for all your support.
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really confused about a lot of stuff and am focusing a lot on me.
Continue to do that. Your relationship will most likely heal. Or it won't. Focus on your recovery, and everything else falls in line.
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Hey I'm doing well today in terms that I'm not craving alcohol.

I did just get an email from my best friend saying how she feels like we're completely growing apart and that she's trying to do stuff with me that doesn't revolve around drinking but that I'm always busy or want to go to sleep. She also said that she feels like she's lost the two most important people to her (she broke up with her boyfriend a month a go) and that I haven't been caring for her like a such good friend. She says she's doing a lot to stop that (us growing apart) but feels helpless.

I don't know how to respond. It was incredibly painful for me to read. I'm really confused about a lot of stuff and am focusing a lot on me. I love her but also know I'm not being as thoughtful of her as I used to be. I'm just really tired all the time...

So, that turned into a long post. That's where I am today.

Thank you guys for all your support.

Hiya mps!!

so good to hear you are doing good! Ok now listen up. You need to work on YOU right now, because you are worth fighting for. And who knows? Maybe she will miss you bad enough to quit herself?? One of my friends did. After she knew that I wasnt going to be drinking, she did it! It's awesome.
DON'T let her drag you back into it for her friendship. If she truly loves you as a best friend, she will adjust. Either let you do your thing or join you. So long as she doesnt drink in front of you or try to steer you away from sobriety. Be careful with that one!!
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