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This is new... I am far from complaining. But usually when I relapse I lay around for weeks and feel sorry for myself and am depressed. Beat myself up and so on. So why is it I am not even close to that this time? Sure I was disappointed at first but it has been 3 days since I got home and I am up and energetic and ready to start fighting again like nothing happened. I am happy..positive and eager to get myself going again. Very strange. Am I setting myself up again? |
Originally Posted by chiynita
(Post 1406300)
Very strange. Am I setting myself up again? |
Hi Chiy! Sounds like your doing well today. Good for you. BHJ |
Maybe its your higher power if you have one that's giving you peace. I don't know. But its good that you feel good. Keep fighting. Barb |
You're probably still de-toxing. There may even still be drugs in your system. I don't know what your DOC is, but I remember "go fast" would still kick in days after I last smoked it. Give it some time. Let your body find it's equilibrium, BTW, I'm glad you're optomistic, and not trying to drag you down. I'm just pointing out that the fog most likely hasn't lifted yet. I wouldn't trust anything your head tells you. Good OR bad. |
Don't know the extent of your "relapse"; but, if I were you, I'd just be so grateful to be back, I wouldn't question it...not everyone makes it back, as you well know! Whatever you did before to get/stay clean and sober, double time it...think recovery, recovery, recovery...you don't have to keep "testing the waters" to reinforce the fact that you're not going to get any better at it. Embrace the fact that you've been given another chance...for all you know, it could be your last chance...don't throw it away. |
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