TOPIC: What Kind Of Baggage Do You Carry? Is It Heavy, Bulky Or Is It Samsonite?
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TOPIC: What Kind Of Baggage Do You Carry? Is It Heavy, Bulky Or Is It Samsonite?
Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.
By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent had a
drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that and you I am truely grateful.
As you know all of us carry some sort
of baggage along with us thru life....
No,,,lol Not the designer kind or Samsonite...lol
But things we hang onto thru life that
we are afraid to let go of....
so we tote around this heavy "stuff"
or whatever you want to call it weighing
heavy on our shoulders.
Kinda like bolders...or weights....or garbage
bags....
Sooner or later they become to heavy
for us to bear or carry and the weight
wears us down....
It begins to take its toll on us mentally,
physically, emotionally, spiritually. Even
affecting relationships, work, school,
our personal lives.
Eventually we learn to either get rid of it or
continue to carry it around with us
till the end.
Do you still carry baggage around with
you or have you finally gotten rid of
it to make life easier for you.
Thanks for letting me share.
By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent had a
drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that and you I am truely grateful.
As you know all of us carry some sort
of baggage along with us thru life....
No,,,lol Not the designer kind or Samsonite...lol
But things we hang onto thru life that
we are afraid to let go of....
so we tote around this heavy "stuff"
or whatever you want to call it weighing
heavy on our shoulders.
Kinda like bolders...or weights....or garbage
bags....
Sooner or later they become to heavy
for us to bear or carry and the weight
wears us down....
It begins to take its toll on us mentally,
physically, emotionally, spiritually. Even
affecting relationships, work, school,
our personal lives.
Eventually we learn to either get rid of it or
continue to carry it around with us
till the end.
Do you still carry baggage around with
you or have you finally gotten rid of
it to make life easier for you.
Thanks for letting me share.
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Well, since I took my 4th and 5th steps, I no longer carry any resentment, anger, shame or guilt.
Prior to that, however, I carried a big bag of rocks on my back. It was a heavy bag of rocks too. But they were MY rocks, and I was proud to carry them. If someone asked to help me carry them, I (of course) declined because (don't you know) they're MY rocks and and I can carry them myself dammit !
I would also spend a lot of time complaining that they were too heavy to carry, and that is why I drank. I would also often wonder why others didn't have as many rocks, and some seemed to have none at all. (Even though I'm obviously smarter, harder working and better looking than they are).
I'll leave you with a quote by my favorite author, Stephen King. This is from his epic series, The Dark Tower
Prior to that, however, I carried a big bag of rocks on my back. It was a heavy bag of rocks too. But they were MY rocks, and I was proud to carry them. If someone asked to help me carry them, I (of course) declined because (don't you know) they're MY rocks and and I can carry them myself dammit !
I would also spend a lot of time complaining that they were too heavy to carry, and that is why I drank. I would also often wonder why others didn't have as many rocks, and some seemed to have none at all. (Even though I'm obviously smarter, harder working and better looking than they are).
I'll leave you with a quote by my favorite author, Stephen King. This is from his epic series, The Dark Tower
So do we pass the ghosts that haunt us later in our lives; they sit undramatically by the roadside like poor beggars, and we see them only from the corners of our eyes, if we see them at all. The idea that they have been waiting there for us rarely if ever crosses our minds. Yet they do wait, and when we have passed, they gather up their bundles of memory and fall in behind, treading in our footsteps and catching up, little by little.”
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Love this topic and I think it is an important one.
In the context you spoke of I travel very lightly.
The only impediments I carry along are illnesses of depression and anxiety that I can manage with medications but cannot be cured of.
Yes, I travel light...there was someone who once asked me if I had aids because I lived in the present and don't carry tomorrows worries with me today either.
However, when I am traveling I take a huge trunk that I load down with my collectibles, souveniers and etc to bring home as I love to collect and decorate and celebrate my adventures. But, when I take the suitcase on the way there is lightly loaded as there has to be plenty of room for the return trip.
Back to topic...afterthought.....I do hope I carry my lessons from mistakes and ESH.
But growth is also an easy thing to carry, even if we leave parts of it in storage at times.
I do attempt to remember to carry smiles, laughter, kindness and generosity....but these thing lift us up and make everything lighter...for us and others.
Thanks, Sharon!
In the context you spoke of I travel very lightly.
The only impediments I carry along are illnesses of depression and anxiety that I can manage with medications but cannot be cured of.
Yes, I travel light...there was someone who once asked me if I had aids because I lived in the present and don't carry tomorrows worries with me today either.
However, when I am traveling I take a huge trunk that I load down with my collectibles, souveniers and etc to bring home as I love to collect and decorate and celebrate my adventures. But, when I take the suitcase on the way there is lightly loaded as there has to be plenty of room for the return trip.
Back to topic...afterthought.....I do hope I carry my lessons from mistakes and ESH.
But growth is also an easy thing to carry, even if we leave parts of it in storage at times.
I do attempt to remember to carry smiles, laughter, kindness and generosity....but these thing lift us up and make everything lighter...for us and others.
Thanks, Sharon!
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Be prepared for a really bad pun...
"heavy on our shoulders.Kinda like bolders...or weights.."
Do you mean an over the shoulder boulder holder?
Yeah Iave a few of those!
Seriously..I think we all have differing amounts of baggage, if not we would be immediately
translated into heaven like the prophet Elijah! that would be perfection.
Then trick is to grow spirituality , and for me that IS recovery...
And progress..is continually letting go of baggage..
Love,
:
IO
"heavy on our shoulders.Kinda like bolders...or weights.."
Do you mean an over the shoulder boulder holder?
Yeah Iave a few of those!
Seriously..I think we all have differing amounts of baggage, if not we would be immediately
translated into heaven like the prophet Elijah! that would be perfection.
Then trick is to grow spirituality , and for me that IS recovery...
And progress..is continually letting go of baggage..
Love,
:IO
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As I sat in the waiting room today with my eyes
dilated, thoughts of this topic was running thru my
mind....
You know when u begin to think about dating someone
down the road in recovery....thoughts of what kind of
"crap" or "baggage" do u have with urself that ull be bringing
into the relationship....
No one of us is perfect and many of us have been thru
enough "crap" that it naturally follows with us everywhere
we go.....
So thoughts of my past are still bundled up and tied at the
end of a pole....sort of like the little boy running away from
home with his belongings tied in a bundle at the end of
his pole....
So what all is in that bag....
Maybe resentments ive held toward family and friend
or school mates...maybe just a whole bunch of people
that have caused me grief thru out my entire life...
People that laughed at me, ridiculed me, tattled on me,
abused me, used me....
Then what about all the stuff i did when i was drinking...
the lieing, stealing, cheating, and a list a mile long....
Maye the biggest thing was the not being truthful and
honest in my marriage...,maybe not being truthful
to myself much less anyone else.
I think im seeing where i cant be trustworthy to
anyone if i cant be that way with me first.
If i cant trust myself then how is anyone gonna
trust me in anything.
I am truthful to say that im not perfect nor want to
be....to be perfect would mean to be wearing the
Big Man's shoes upstairs....and no thank you...thats
a pair of shoes to BIG for me to fill.
Well....if anyone was interested in dating me...beware
of the packed bags by the door....i do think however
that as long as i stay sober....those bags will eventually
become light enough to not even notice they r there.
Im remaining teachable.
dilated, thoughts of this topic was running thru my
mind....
You know when u begin to think about dating someone
down the road in recovery....thoughts of what kind of
"crap" or "baggage" do u have with urself that ull be bringing
into the relationship....
No one of us is perfect and many of us have been thru
enough "crap" that it naturally follows with us everywhere
we go.....
So thoughts of my past are still bundled up and tied at the
end of a pole....sort of like the little boy running away from
home with his belongings tied in a bundle at the end of
his pole....
So what all is in that bag....
Maybe resentments ive held toward family and friend
or school mates...maybe just a whole bunch of people
that have caused me grief thru out my entire life...
People that laughed at me, ridiculed me, tattled on me,
abused me, used me....
Then what about all the stuff i did when i was drinking...
the lieing, stealing, cheating, and a list a mile long....
Maye the biggest thing was the not being truthful and
honest in my marriage...,maybe not being truthful
to myself much less anyone else.
I think im seeing where i cant be trustworthy to
anyone if i cant be that way with me first.
If i cant trust myself then how is anyone gonna
trust me in anything.
I am truthful to say that im not perfect nor want to
be....to be perfect would mean to be wearing the
Big Man's shoes upstairs....and no thank you...thats
a pair of shoes to BIG for me to fill.
Well....if anyone was interested in dating me...beware
of the packed bags by the door....i do think however
that as long as i stay sober....those bags will eventually
become light enough to not even notice they r there.
Im remaining teachable.
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