Dedicated To All The "One & Doners" Out There
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: It's a Dry Heat, AZ.
Posts: 438
Dedicated To All The "One & Doners" Out There
Come on. Stop lurking around and looking over your shoulder. Join the group. Take a leap of faith. Seek sobriety. Find answers.
Breakdown
I breakdown in the middle and lose my thread.
No one can understand a word that I say.
When I breakdown just a little and lose my head,
Nothing I try to do can work the same way.
Any time it happened, I'd get over it
With a little help from all my friends.
Anybody else could see what's wrong with me,
But they walk away and just pretend...
When I breakdown.
I breakdown in the middle and lose my thread.
No one can understand a word that I say.
When I breakdown just a little and lose my head,
Nothing I try to do can work the same way.
Where are all the friends who used to talk to me?
All they ever told me was good news...
People that I've never seen are kind to me,
Is it any wonder I'm confused?
When I breakdown...When I breakdown...
Freedom, freedom, we will not obey.
Freedom, freedom, take the wall away.
Take the wall away.
Freedom, freedom, we will not obey.
Freedom, freedom, take the wall away.
Where are all my friends?
I'm so confused..
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© Alan Parsons Project, 1976
End the confusion. Drown your self-doubt amidst the comfort of the fellowship.
Luv,
~Midas
Breakdown
I breakdown in the middle and lose my thread.
No one can understand a word that I say.
When I breakdown just a little and lose my head,
Nothing I try to do can work the same way.
Any time it happened, I'd get over it
With a little help from all my friends.
Anybody else could see what's wrong with me,
But they walk away and just pretend...
When I breakdown.
I breakdown in the middle and lose my thread.
No one can understand a word that I say.
When I breakdown just a little and lose my head,
Nothing I try to do can work the same way.
Where are all the friends who used to talk to me?
All they ever told me was good news...
People that I've never seen are kind to me,
Is it any wonder I'm confused?
When I breakdown...When I breakdown...
Freedom, freedom, we will not obey.
Freedom, freedom, take the wall away.
Take the wall away.
Freedom, freedom, we will not obey.
Freedom, freedom, take the wall away.
Where are all my friends?
I'm so confused..
--------------------------------------------------------
© Alan Parsons Project, 1976
End the confusion. Drown your self-doubt amidst the comfort of the fellowship.
Luv,
~Midas
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Join Date: Jul 2007
Posts: 69
I have posted, and promise not to be a one and done. I also promise that if attempt at self-detox does not work, that I will go to a doctor, and that I will enlist trusted friends to help me.
I am excited to have this forum, and for the first time in a long time, I have a plan.
I am excited to have this forum, and for the first time in a long time, I have a plan.
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: It's a Dry Heat, AZ.
Posts: 438
I had my own "One & Done" experience some twenty years ago...when I went to my first AA meeting at an LDS church. I was drunk out of my gourd. We sat in a circle, which, needless to say, made me feel instantly uncomfortable. When it came for my turn, I vaguely recall taking sips of black coffee while saying "My name's Barry. I'll pass."
Pass out was more like it...I honestly don't think the other members knew what they were doing--including the chairperson. I was convinced that I wasn't ready to quit. I wish I had stopped sooner. But, back then I pretty much knew everything. I was master of my destiny.
Well, I'm a little older now, and I profess to know nothing about anything. I also have a right to be wrong, and a responsibility to admit it. Twenty years ago, I was a "None & Done" case. I wish I had really smelled the coffee at that first meeting.
Regardless, I can't go back and change the course of history. I just wasn't finished drinking at that point. I'm sorry I was 15 years late to my first real AA meeting.
I can never stress the point firmly enough, the importance of ministering to the newcomers. It's important to express what it was like, and in general terms, talk about what happened, and describe what it's like now.
So what is my life like now without alcohol? It's more uncertain now than it ever has been. However, I'm able to see through the ambiguity. I think I'm much more philosophical about the smallest details, yet able to appreciate the bigger picture.
Pass out was more like it...I honestly don't think the other members knew what they were doing--including the chairperson. I was convinced that I wasn't ready to quit. I wish I had stopped sooner. But, back then I pretty much knew everything. I was master of my destiny.
Well, I'm a little older now, and I profess to know nothing about anything. I also have a right to be wrong, and a responsibility to admit it. Twenty years ago, I was a "None & Done" case. I wish I had really smelled the coffee at that first meeting.
Regardless, I can't go back and change the course of history. I just wasn't finished drinking at that point. I'm sorry I was 15 years late to my first real AA meeting.
I can never stress the point firmly enough, the importance of ministering to the newcomers. It's important to express what it was like, and in general terms, talk about what happened, and describe what it's like now.
So what is my life like now without alcohol? It's more uncertain now than it ever has been. However, I'm able to see through the ambiguity. I think I'm much more philosophical about the smallest details, yet able to appreciate the bigger picture.
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Upstate, N.Y.
Posts: 4,639
I love this forum. I feel so welcome even though I'm a screw-up. I have to start posting more on how I'm feeling instead of so much regular chit-chat. I liked your Breakdown poem Midas. It sounds like me. I promise i am going to try again. I've just been in a funk lately between my birthday and my husbands vacation. I know there just excuses. Just trying to explain myself.
Barb
Barb
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
What has happened to me since
I found sobriety?
I have gotten older and fatter and saggy.
Many former drinking buddies died
from unchecked alcoholism.
My addict son Ross has been missing
12+ years.
My addict daughter Anne went to prison twice
and is still not always sober.
My youngest Grandson Sean is fighting in Afghanistan.
I am a diabetic, arthritic old lady
with fading vision.
I can no longer work...my SS is way
below the poverty level.
And..
I am closer to my family.
I have a multitude of friends.
My comfy apartment is inexpensive
medical care free.
My bills are paid promptly.
I do volunteer work in my community.
I am active in AA.
I have a purpose in life and
joy in doing it.
I may be pocket poor but
I am spiritually rich...
You too can join me in this
totally awesome adventure of recovery.
Thanks for letting me share.
I found sobriety?
I have gotten older and fatter and saggy.
Many former drinking buddies died
from unchecked alcoholism.
My addict son Ross has been missing
12+ years.
My addict daughter Anne went to prison twice
and is still not always sober.
My youngest Grandson Sean is fighting in Afghanistan.
I am a diabetic, arthritic old lady
with fading vision.
I can no longer work...my SS is way
below the poverty level.
And..
I am closer to my family.
I have a multitude of friends.
My comfy apartment is inexpensive
medical care free.
My bills are paid promptly.
I do volunteer work in my community.
I am active in AA.
I have a purpose in life and
joy in doing it.
I may be pocket poor but
I am spiritually rich...
You too can join me in this
totally awesome adventure of recovery.
Thanks for letting me share.
Member
Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Sacramento, CA
Posts: 17
New.... again
Hi and Thank you for the warm welcome.
I'm back in the saddle after 16 years sober. New sobirety date 7/01/07! How did this happen? Day Quil Cold capsules, cough syrup and the herb kava kava No alchohol in any but dextramathorapham (sp) and psedenephrine (sp) in the OTC and the kava kava is a pretty potent opiate like herbal remedy.
With the OTC stuff, my system was pretty clean and I got a nice little buzz when I took some for my cold. Pretty soon I was taking it everyday and lying to myself like the old days.
To the rest of my Newbie friends..my 16 years of sobriety gave me a beautiful life. And my recovery "credits" are helping me get and stay sober before I really screw it up. You can do it and you deserve a good life.
I'm back in the saddle after 16 years sober. New sobirety date 7/01/07! How did this happen? Day Quil Cold capsules, cough syrup and the herb kava kava No alchohol in any but dextramathorapham (sp) and psedenephrine (sp) in the OTC and the kava kava is a pretty potent opiate like herbal remedy.
With the OTC stuff, my system was pretty clean and I got a nice little buzz when I took some for my cold. Pretty soon I was taking it everyday and lying to myself like the old days.
To the rest of my Newbie friends..my 16 years of sobriety gave me a beautiful life. And my recovery "credits" are helping me get and stay sober before I really screw it up. You can do it and you deserve a good life.
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