65 days sober and clean!!! YAY!!!
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65 days sober and clean!!! YAY!!!
Hi all!, well I have not been in here for ages..... sorry.
Thought I would update you on my progress .....
Its been 65 days since my last drink ... yes I know, even I am shocked that I have come this far
5 years of fighting this terrible disease (well more than that but its definitely 5 years of drinking everyday)
I HAD to hit rock bottom to wake up and realize that my life was going NOWHERE!.
I left my co Dependant man, did a medical detox (7days) and saw a psychiatrist straight after to get on seroquel http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/sites/en..._uids=15349010
I have had a few therapy sessions and now I understand so much more about myself.
I was self medicating to 'cope" with life.
I was getting drunk to avoid life and my problems.
I was depressed and did not enjoy the life I had.
I needed help, but didn't know where to start
I felt like no one understood me (until I found this site that is!)
I felt so alone in the battle against the LIQUID HANDCUFFS
I was actually too scared to make any changes and I got so used to drinking that not only was I physically Dependant on it I was also mentally Dependant on it
I felt I couldn't do anything unless i had a few under my belt
~~ >>>> Basically my life was on HOLD.
Yes the first few weeks were difficult, but they were managable
I was terrified of the panic attack and anxiety coming back, but the medications definaetly helped me cope.
I am now on 200mgs of seroquel at night, I sleep so well and during the day I am able to handle most situations that come my way
I have lost weight, My skin is so clear and smooth. I have extra money to spend on myself and the kids. I am doing so much more in my life now its like living again! seeing life through sober eyes.
i have met a new man, he is totally supportive of my 'being on the wagon' I go for walks, movies, dinner. I have started work again. I have started to heal the relationship with my kids. My parents are very proud of me and i am proud of myself.
When I first told people that I was sober, I could feel their doubt .... "oh yeah, lets see how long this time lasts" I never made anyone any promises, all I said was ...
JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE!
I feel very empowered that I am sober, that I have proven everyone wrong and for once in my life I am LIVING!!!
I definately believe that if you decide to stop drinking then you have to replace it with something else. Or else you will end up going back to it. If you take something away from yourself it will create a vacumm and that place has to be filled. Many fill it with AA meetings, some with anther addiction or like me medicine.
if you feel that you will not cope with life when you stop drinking, I highly recommend talking to your doctor about it. Better a bit of medication than a belly full of alcohol.
Thank you all for your support and inspiration.
God Bless
misslisa
Thought I would update you on my progress .....
Its been 65 days since my last drink ... yes I know, even I am shocked that I have come this far
5 years of fighting this terrible disease (well more than that but its definitely 5 years of drinking everyday)
I HAD to hit rock bottom to wake up and realize that my life was going NOWHERE!.
I left my co Dependant man, did a medical detox (7days) and saw a psychiatrist straight after to get on seroquel http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/sites/en..._uids=15349010
I have had a few therapy sessions and now I understand so much more about myself.
I was self medicating to 'cope" with life.
I was getting drunk to avoid life and my problems.
I was depressed and did not enjoy the life I had.
I needed help, but didn't know where to start
I felt like no one understood me (until I found this site that is!)
I felt so alone in the battle against the LIQUID HANDCUFFS
I was actually too scared to make any changes and I got so used to drinking that not only was I physically Dependant on it I was also mentally Dependant on it
I felt I couldn't do anything unless i had a few under my belt
~~ >>>> Basically my life was on HOLD.
Yes the first few weeks were difficult, but they were managable
I was terrified of the panic attack and anxiety coming back, but the medications definaetly helped me cope.
I am now on 200mgs of seroquel at night, I sleep so well and during the day I am able to handle most situations that come my way
I have lost weight, My skin is so clear and smooth. I have extra money to spend on myself and the kids. I am doing so much more in my life now its like living again! seeing life through sober eyes.
i have met a new man, he is totally supportive of my 'being on the wagon' I go for walks, movies, dinner. I have started work again. I have started to heal the relationship with my kids. My parents are very proud of me and i am proud of myself.
When I first told people that I was sober, I could feel their doubt .... "oh yeah, lets see how long this time lasts" I never made anyone any promises, all I said was ...
JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE!
I feel very empowered that I am sober, that I have proven everyone wrong and for once in my life I am LIVING!!!
I definately believe that if you decide to stop drinking then you have to replace it with something else. Or else you will end up going back to it. If you take something away from yourself it will create a vacumm and that place has to be filled. Many fill it with AA meetings, some with anther addiction or like me medicine.
if you feel that you will not cope with life when you stop drinking, I highly recommend talking to your doctor about it. Better a bit of medication than a belly full of alcohol.
Thank you all for your support and inspiration.
God Bless
misslisa
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congratulations misslisa!
that is wonderful news.
The courage you're showing in making these changes
reveals how much strength you really possess.
And it takes a LOT of courage and strength to make
these big changes in your life.
Thanks very much for sharing all your insights during your 65 days.
There's lots in there i can relate to, and lots i can use myself.
that is wonderful news.
The courage you're showing in making these changes
reveals how much strength you really possess.
And it takes a LOT of courage and strength to make
these big changes in your life.
Thanks very much for sharing all your insights during your 65 days.
There's lots in there i can relate to, and lots i can use myself.
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