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Old 06-28-2007, 06:46 AM
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Day four.

well its day 4..no pills or drink! Its been difficult (understatement)..the shakes haven't eases, the feelings of sickness have eased slightly, the headaches have eased and I'm losing weight (yay)..I've wanted a drink, i've wanted to take some pills..and the thing that has kept me going is something that i've read quite a few times here.."one day at a time", I never knew what was meant by it. and also, something my counsellor told me the other day "emotions won't kill u" BUT "reactions to those feelings will"...blunt but true.

Well anyway, I'm willin and ready to fight.. i've got to speak about the past on friday, my counsellor is bringing the soap powder, i'm taking the dirty washing and for the first time I'm hoping to say the words..I know I have to, or I will end up back where I was...

well that's enough gabble from me...

I hope everyone's ok?

CW and want2bgreat how's it going - i hope all is well with u both?

Thank you to everyone

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Old 06-28-2007, 06:48 AM
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you're doing great, thiskid....sending support, k
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Old 06-28-2007, 06:55 AM
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Congrats on making it to day 4. You can do this!!!! Good Luck..
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Old 06-28-2007, 07:00 AM
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Great work!

I was controlled by my emotions too. By that, I mean, whatever I felt would sweep me away - sadness, depression, joy. But, I would be overwhelmed with feelings. I learned that I can 'feel' the feelings and accept them, and then let them go. That was huge for me.
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Way to Go!!!!!

You sound so good!

I like what you said about tomorrow's appmt. That's a cute way of putting it.
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Well done!! Keep moving forward!
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Old 06-28-2007, 12:22 PM
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I am SOOOOOO pleased for you J.

That is immense for you!

Please add this to the things you like about yourself thread as this is just brilliant.

Reading this has given me a lift, struggling a bit myself but if we struggle together we can help each other up to the very very top.

I really am proud of you J

Much love and hugs

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Old 06-28-2007, 01:09 PM
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love that soap powder analogy J. Made me smile and not much does at pre-sun up !
take care. I'm very pleased to hear from you

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Old 06-28-2007, 01:13 PM
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((TKK)) I'm proud of you!! Thank you for asking, I'm hanging in, day 6 and feeling okay. Doing some good things. Keep up the good work!!!
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You are the right track...

Remember..

FEAR=

Face

Everything

And

Recover

This is exactly how I made it one day at a time...

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Old 06-29-2007, 06:36 AM
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I blew it, I couldn't talk I was in the room 5 minutes and my counsellor said that when our session ended on Tuesday, she felt uncomfortable and unsure that talking right now is the best thing for me as she doesn't feel i'm ready and it might push me too far...and I agreed..the last few days I've had panic attacks about speaking...so I feel I've let myself down.. instead we spoke about how I see myself and life...I told her I hate everything about me and my life...and that drinking is the only time I have any confidence, drinking is the only time i can talk to people, relate to people. I got home a couple of hours ago and I've brought a litre bottle of vodka, I just want to numb out, forget everything. i'm not feeling too good today. sorry.
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Old 06-29-2007, 06:44 AM
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Just take it one day (or hour, minute) at a time. Put the vodka away. Take a walk, take a nap, just don't take a drink. It sounds like you've been doing alright so far. You'll talk when you're ready. The most important thing now is not drinking. I'm posting from work, so I can't stay too long.

I wish you best, I do. Hang in there.

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