I need your company
IO Storm
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Southern California
Posts: 18,436
Happy 37 Steph...
There seems to be an angst in the air..lots of folks sick here
too besides you and Nogie..
I'm sick too lately..horrible allergies....
I'll share a little story..
A few years back... I was on a run...speeding and gambling ..
it was day 3 and I was sitting in front of a Cleopatra slot
machine..when an aged black gentleman came down the aisle
and began to touch Casino patrons on their shoulders. I sensed he had
Altzheimer's or old age senility as he mumbled things about cooking too
long in the kitchen and how you had to boil the pot. I noticed he wore a
pale olive cardigan the same color my dad always wore..
The precious old guy touched me on the shoulder and I turned and looked
into his eyes..they were the brightest blue!
Just like my dad's who had passed a few years before.
He said with complete lucidity.."Honey..if you want to do
right and your life to be blessed..don't lie, don't steal, and don't
never hurt nobody, do what the good book tell you, and listen to
Jesus..you'll be alright."
Steph..I felt my dad was giving me a message that day, and I
was touched but didn't act on it. My addictions so powerful I continued
to go my own way, self will run riot, and did hurt myself and everyone
who cared ..lied, cheated, and stole.
How glad I am for second chances today.
Do the little mousies appearances mean something?
Maybe. But I do know this. Something good is happening
in your life Steph.
Your open and honest sharing tells it all.
Thanks for inspiring me tonite.
Love
IO
There seems to be an angst in the air..lots of folks sick here
too besides you and Nogie..
I'm sick too lately..horrible allergies....
I'll share a little story..
A few years back... I was on a run...speeding and gambling ..
it was day 3 and I was sitting in front of a Cleopatra slot
machine..when an aged black gentleman came down the aisle
and began to touch Casino patrons on their shoulders. I sensed he had
Altzheimer's or old age senility as he mumbled things about cooking too
long in the kitchen and how you had to boil the pot. I noticed he wore a
pale olive cardigan the same color my dad always wore..
The precious old guy touched me on the shoulder and I turned and looked
into his eyes..they were the brightest blue!
Just like my dad's who had passed a few years before.
He said with complete lucidity.."Honey..if you want to do
right and your life to be blessed..don't lie, don't steal, and don't
never hurt nobody, do what the good book tell you, and listen to
Jesus..you'll be alright."
Steph..I felt my dad was giving me a message that day, and I
was touched but didn't act on it. My addictions so powerful I continued
to go my own way, self will run riot, and did hurt myself and everyone
who cared ..lied, cheated, and stole.
How glad I am for second chances today.
Do the little mousies appearances mean something?
Maybe. But I do know this. Something good is happening
in your life Steph.
Your open and honest sharing tells it all.
Thanks for inspiring me tonite.
Love
IO
Mark B. - Teetotaler |R|
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Freeport Pennsylvania
Posts: 443
Originally Posted by Pilgrim 
Nice to meet you Mark and thanks for posting such a nice note. Good for you reaching out. I still find that very hard. I get all weird about getting home and finding messages on my phone. I panic a little bit.
We could stay in our rooms if we wanted and think we can tough it out. But it ain't that simple. In fact life is rarely that simple. And it's certainly not a spectator sport.
I have the same fears of coming home after work or a meeting and dealing with messages on my answering machine. And, yes, I tend to be very anxious at times. But after I pray on it and turn it all over I feel better and safe in the knowledge that things will work out. Nothing in God's plan happens by accident so it's better to follow that than to try to fight it.
It's nice to meet you. And I hope we both keep coming back. Life isn't the same without us.
Yours in Recovery, Mark B.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 1,622
Wow.
That was amazing to come home and read these messages.
Just wow.
When I first came to SR, I must have written thank you a thousand times in the first month. I felt strongly back then that the term thank you didn't even begin to cover my gratitude. I feel that again now.
Goodnight all.
That was amazing to come home and read these messages.
Just wow.
When I first came to SR, I must have written thank you a thousand times in the first month. I felt strongly back then that the term thank you didn't even begin to cover my gratitude. I feel that again now.
Goodnight all.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
Posts: 18,299
Good morning Stephie! No weather report today just keeping you company. 
I am feeling very mentally groggy, I hope I havent caught your cold via internat virus-I bet I am the first one ever to use that joke! 
I didnt realise your holiday was so near-you deserve a holiday and some sun!
I am feeling very mentally groggy, I hope I havent caught your cold via internat virus-I bet I am the first one ever to use that joke! I didnt realise your holiday was so near-you deserve a holiday and some sun!
Mark B. - Teetotaler |R|
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Freeport Pennsylvania
Posts: 443
Originally Posted by parentrecovers
hey kids! how's things over here? everyone making it a good day?
How was your day?
Yours in Recovery, Mark B.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 1,622
Day 38 log.
I worked really hard today. It's like a whole different life. I had this moment in a meeting. It was 4.30. I felt a twang of what it used to be like. About then I would be getting agitated and needing to stop and go and drink. I was so pleased not to have to worry about that today. I kept going and I left work when work finished - not when I needed a drink.
This evening I worked late. I had my boss in town and instead of seeing it as a burden, I appreciated the time with him to get to know what he wanted me to do in my job and to understand what he needs from me. We had a really good talk about the future direction of the company.
At my meeting last night we read step 11. My x abf read the paragraph with the long prayer in it. There were 30 people in the room and he has never believed in God. There he was reading this prayer and then he shared about how he felt he had had a spritual experience in his first AA meeting.
I keep wondering when the sky is going to fall. I can't believe that such good things will continue to happen. I have no plans to get back with him but I am happy that he has a chance to have a life. How can these things happen? I pray for God's will and the most unimagineable things happen. I could never have planned how life is nowadays if I had plotted for months.
I was hoping at last nights meeting that I would not get asked to share. I still feel silly and embarassed to admit that my HP is having such an effect in my life. I keep trying to find a different, more logical explanation.
It used to be that mostly my life was a struggle. Now it feels that it just unfolds and my hopes come true. Not hopes like winning lotto. Just things that make life easier to live in some happiness and with some peace of mind.
I am so tired. My eye is twitching again almost constantly at the moment. I am going to kick my dog out of my room tonight. He snores and if he hears a noise, he goes off barking and scares me out of my wits. He has emotional needs and gets depressed when the children leave and he needs lots of cuddles. But I need my sleep.
So today was hard work and satisfying. The only thing I would change is that I would have liked time to go to a meeting and more quiet "non thinking" time. I had a tiny wish for a glass of wine when I got home and I think the tired, busy no meeting day is the reason. I have a lunchtime meeting tomorrow and I will go and get an early night. Off to check the news with you all. xx
I worked really hard today. It's like a whole different life. I had this moment in a meeting. It was 4.30. I felt a twang of what it used to be like. About then I would be getting agitated and needing to stop and go and drink. I was so pleased not to have to worry about that today. I kept going and I left work when work finished - not when I needed a drink.
This evening I worked late. I had my boss in town and instead of seeing it as a burden, I appreciated the time with him to get to know what he wanted me to do in my job and to understand what he needs from me. We had a really good talk about the future direction of the company.
At my meeting last night we read step 11. My x abf read the paragraph with the long prayer in it. There were 30 people in the room and he has never believed in God. There he was reading this prayer and then he shared about how he felt he had had a spritual experience in his first AA meeting.
I keep wondering when the sky is going to fall. I can't believe that such good things will continue to happen. I have no plans to get back with him but I am happy that he has a chance to have a life. How can these things happen? I pray for God's will and the most unimagineable things happen. I could never have planned how life is nowadays if I had plotted for months.
I was hoping at last nights meeting that I would not get asked to share. I still feel silly and embarassed to admit that my HP is having such an effect in my life. I keep trying to find a different, more logical explanation.
It used to be that mostly my life was a struggle. Now it feels that it just unfolds and my hopes come true. Not hopes like winning lotto. Just things that make life easier to live in some happiness and with some peace of mind.
I am so tired. My eye is twitching again almost constantly at the moment. I am going to kick my dog out of my room tonight. He snores and if he hears a noise, he goes off barking and scares me out of my wits. He has emotional needs and gets depressed when the children leave and he needs lots of cuddles. But I need my sleep.
So today was hard work and satisfying. The only thing I would change is that I would have liked time to go to a meeting and more quiet "non thinking" time. I had a tiny wish for a glass of wine when I got home and I think the tired, busy no meeting day is the reason. I have a lunchtime meeting tomorrow and I will go and get an early night. Off to check the news with you all. xx
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 1,622
Hi Dee!! How's the not drinking going today? Do you have a day count?
Mark - are you lurking out there? Don't forget to keep reaching out Mate!
IO - I hope you can stop by again. Thanks so much for the story. I LOVE stories.
Rowan - Looks like you have been having fun today.
K - what's the matter? Can you tell me what's wrong? I worry.
Mark - are you lurking out there? Don't forget to keep reaching out Mate!
IO - I hope you can stop by again. Thanks so much for the story. I LOVE stories.
Rowan - Looks like you have been having fun today.
K - what's the matter? Can you tell me what's wrong? I worry.
Member
Join Date: Oct 2005
Location: Richmond, VA
Posts: 76
Steph,
38 days it awesome! Sobriety IS all that people tell you it iwill be I, too, cannot believe the peace and serenity that my HP has provided for me.
Life doesn't change, but we have the power to be happy, regardless.
Keep up the good work!
Love and hugs,
Carol
38 days it awesome! Sobriety IS all that people tell you it iwill be I, too, cannot believe the peace and serenity that my HP has provided for me.
Life doesn't change, but we have the power to be happy, regardless.
Keep up the good work!
Love and hugs,
Carol
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