Sportster

I was two weeks into sobriety and had a three day sales meeting to go to with all the free booze one could want. I felt great, had no problem sticking with the cranberry juice and still managed to socialize with my co workers and had a good time.
The other day I was riding my bike, doing about twety miles, (into the fitness thing) and started to think about the weekend. I was thinking maybe we get together with Seth and his wife on Sunday afternoon. Nice people who like a little wine and cheese with some good music. Wouldn't you know that was just enough for me to get home with my bike take a shower and start into the wine. Sure enough next morning I felt like crap, depressed and wondering why I can't just be done with this drinking. I'm thinking maybe more than once a week to AA meetings might help. I've been fighting this for forty years and maybe the miracle is just around the corner so I'm not giving up.
john

Surlyredhead

That's the way!!! Don't ever give up!!!!

Cathy

Aysha

Glad to hear it. Never give up.
Good luck.

~Troy~

In my opinion, the lesson learned here is to stay in today. Start projecting beyond today and this cunning, baffing, and powerful illness we share rears it's ugly head.

More times than not, we drink over simple things, simple thoughts. In crisis' and events such as you mentioned with the sales meeting, we tend to keep sobriety in the forefront. Simple thoughts that seem tame on the surface really can play tricks on us if we allow them to.

The miracle is always there for the taking, as long as we are receptive of said miracle at every given moment........and never give up.

Aducksdelight

That's happened to me before too. At parties, where I know there will be drugs and alcohol around, I do okay. I drink my 7Up and I'm fine. But I'll be talking on the phone and I'll start drinking or using again, just like that. it seems ridiculous that this happens, but it does. Hang in there. It'll come for you!

hector

Hi John,

I like the fact that you're not giving up. You really want to be done with booze forever. If you've been fighting it for forty years it's going to take a serious change in your life. I suggest you read "Living Sober", an AA book. It helped me. I also suggest lots of AA meetings. One a week isn't enough for me either.

I've been sober over 18 1/2 years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.

CarolD

Hi John...

Here is a link full of information
excerpts from the book that convinced me to quit drinking

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

I stay quit with God and AA.

Forward we go...

parentrecovers

recovery is possible, don't quit trying - k

SaTiT

i relapsed in early recovery on my way to a meeting.
It was a wake up call...
I had to consider if the AA people were just talking
BS or telling me the truth.

I took more notice to such words
as cunning, baffling and powerful in stead of it
just going one ear and out the other. Or i took
more notice to the readings in the beging of
a meeting, which I found boring as heck.
Or when I read those words..i ponder about
them..why was it so impotant that we read those
literature..why the same message over and over again ?
But my mind was so rampant with thoughts..I still had
a hard time focusing or staying in the moment. Or
to process anything without my preconcieved conclusions.

oh..but that BB sitting at the bottom of my trunk
was still at the bottom of my trunk..
What would motivate me to gig out that book and read it ?

Glade you're not giving up
keep coming back no matter what

Grateful Heart

Don't give up ever. Try going to the meetings more often. Keep coming to SR, reading and posting. Best wishes to you.