I dont belong here for now
believer
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Europe
Posts: 2,411
Hey....you know you will always be accepted...It's not about you being a loser, you aren't, this is a disease, i'ts just a matter of time, you will find your peace....do not think for a minute you are a loser...we both know the truth: you're a survivor....
we love you....you know better now
we love you....you know better now
Nature Girl
Join Date: Mar 2002
Location: By The Lake
Posts: 60,328
Beth, not one of us here is a loser, we're all just sick people trying to get well.
Losers don't reach out, losers give up and winners learn from their mistakes and reach out for help when they cannot help themselves.
You're a winner in my books, Beth, just reach out the same way each one of us has had to when times get tough. We're here and we care.
Hugs
Losers don't reach out, losers give up and winners learn from their mistakes and reach out for help when they cannot help themselves.
You're a winner in my books, Beth, just reach out the same way each one of us has had to when times get tough. We're here and we care.
Hugs
~Author of My Life~
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't....
Posts: 4,796
******************{Beth}}}}}}}}}}}}
You're NOt a loser, BuT YOU will have to believe that my friend. There is a special, sacred part of YOU that even when messing up, falling down feeling like a loser refuses to let go of it's most sacred treasure...YOU..WE can run away from IT, but IT is within US all the times...come back hom Beth....it is when you're down that you need the most support. I have no judgments for you. I DO have unconditional love......and support....You ARE a good and decent and awesome person Beth.............the drugs make that hard to see, they are depressants.they will color every part of your life dark and black and lonesom.you do NOT have to be alone Beth.......Youre 'higher' self, your sacred self hasnt left you not at all..I believe it is we who go away from it.........and the drugs makeit eevnharder because then we add shame and intoxication.....and fear, more and more fear.........love, encouragement, honesty.all these are anti fears.fear cannot reign long where unconditional love and acceptance and support and encouragement are.....please come back home Beth.....you DESERVE help.......I fell many many times......
I will continue to belive in YOU Beth, until you can believe in yourself.....and I will still go on believin in ya, and cheerin you on!
**************{Warmest, tightest HUGS EVER!}}}}}}}}
YOU ARE LOVED.......................
You're NOt a loser, BuT YOU will have to believe that my friend. There is a special, sacred part of YOU that even when messing up, falling down feeling like a loser refuses to let go of it's most sacred treasure...YOU..WE can run away from IT, but IT is within US all the times...come back hom Beth....it is when you're down that you need the most support. I have no judgments for you. I DO have unconditional love......and support....You ARE a good and decent and awesome person Beth.............the drugs make that hard to see, they are depressants.they will color every part of your life dark and black and lonesom.you do NOT have to be alone Beth.......Youre 'higher' self, your sacred self hasnt left you not at all..I believe it is we who go away from it.........and the drugs makeit eevnharder because then we add shame and intoxication.....and fear, more and more fear.........love, encouragement, honesty.all these are anti fears.fear cannot reign long where unconditional love and acceptance and support and encouragement are.....please come back home Beth.....you DESERVE help.......I fell many many times......
I will continue to belive in YOU Beth, until you can believe in yourself.....and I will still go on believin in ya, and cheerin you on!
**************{Warmest, tightest HUGS EVER!}}}}}}}}
YOU ARE LOVED.......................
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: wherever my feet take me
Posts: 1,314
I know why I got so fd up cause I am worried about probation sending me to jail because of a dirt test. i dont remember posting last night I was pretty looped.
I thought I could just wipe away the stress for a little while, but waking up was really stressful cause I cant remember a damn thing. Im getting ready for work and hopefully when get out I will use better judgement. OK im scaird im gonna get in touble ,but using isnt gonna change that and I need to remember that.
Sorry
I thought I could just wipe away the stress for a little while, but waking up was really stressful cause I cant remember a damn thing. Im getting ready for work and hopefully when get out I will use better judgement. OK im scaird im gonna get in touble ,but using isnt gonna change that and I need to remember that.
Sorry
came-came to-came to believe
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: east coast
Posts: 1,116
Hope you make some calls today-reach out. When I wasn't staying sober,
the "on line" thing was not helping me much at all...I needed to get out and be with people face to face. Hiding is what I did best. Hope you feel better today
the "on line" thing was not helping me much at all...I needed to get out and be with people face to face. Hiding is what I did best. Hope you feel better today
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family!
Posts: 23,033
Originally Posted by bfree4u 
Loser, loser, loser
~Author of My Life~
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't....
Posts: 4,796
**************{Beth}}}}}}}}}
Big breath's, and baby steps.........
Sending all the Love & Light I can.............
**************{Warmest, encouraging HUGs ever}}}}}}}}}}
Big breath's, and baby steps.........
Sending all the Love & Light I can.............
**************{Warmest, encouraging HUGs ever}}}}}}}}}}
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: wherever my feet take me
Posts: 1,314
I am home early thank God work was slow cause the pills have in me left me severly sluggish.
Today I am feeling scaird, lonely, disgusting, guilt, and dissappointd. I know a lot of the negativity is coming from the plls I took so Im goin to lay down for a nap and hope I will feel better if I sleep it off
I just feel like I lost the headway I was making and it makes me sad. I was feeling strong and happy, and now Im back to feeling weak and very unhappy.
SR is my home I cant imagine how my life would be without.
Thanks evryone for showing the very much needed love.
Hugs,
Beth
Today I am feeling scaird, lonely, disgusting, guilt, and dissappointd. I know a lot of the negativity is coming from the plls I took so Im goin to lay down for a nap and hope I will feel better if I sleep it off
I just feel like I lost the headway I was making and it makes me sad. I was feeling strong and happy, and now Im back to feeling weak and very unhappy.
SR is my home I cant imagine how my life would be without.
Thanks evryone for showing the very much needed love.
Hugs,
Beth
Member
Join Date: Feb 2006
Location: Recovery
Posts: 3,229
Beth,
You are my friend and I love you. You used, you feel like crap. But put down that 2x4 and don't beat yourself up. You are still breathing and you have a whole life ahead of you. You can pick yourself back up and I believe you are going to do this. I will never give up on you. Ever.
Lots of hugs going out to you. You need me, you know I'm here.
You are my friend and I love you. You used, you feel like crap. But put down that 2x4 and don't beat yourself up. You are still breathing and you have a whole life ahead of you. You can pick yourself back up and I believe you are going to do this. I will never give up on you. Ever.
Lots of hugs going out to you. You need me, you know I'm here.
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