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Old 06-13-2007, 05:01 PM
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Unhappy Hello I just joined

I was sober for 22 years. I went to treatment in 83 and then wondered after all that time if I was truly an alcoholic.

What a mistake I made. I've had 2 DUIs in the last couple of years.

I've quit twice for 6 months, once for 4 months and many quitting in between with short bouts of drinking.

It's been a month now since I drank but for some reason today I'm having a real problem. It actually started seeping into my brain yesterday.

I don't have a license currently, will get it back in 3 weeks. I was going to call a cab to go get vodka.

I just called my husband and asked him to come home an hour early.

I'm crying, I have felt so strong for the past month and now I'm weak again.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:08 PM
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welcome home
did you go to meetings during your long term sobriety?
For me it's the only thing that keeps me sober and I've been "aroung" the rooms nearly as long as you were sober. Lots of "yets" out there too....I know the next thing on my yet list will be killing some poor innocent soul....there is NO way I could live after that.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:16 PM
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you will be stronger again....start right away...now is always the best time...
welcome ...there is so much info and support in SR...stay strong!
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:19 PM
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Originally Posted by cali View Post
welcome home
did you go to meetings during your long term sobriety?
For me it's the only thing that keeps me sober and I've been "aroung" the rooms nearly as long as you were sober. Lots of "yets" out there too....I know the next thing on my yet list will be killing some poor innocent soul....there is NO way I could live after that.
keep coming back

No I didn't go to meetings. I went the first year and then didn't go. I can't go now because I don't have a license and when I did go I didn't make friends enough to feel like bothering them, plus I've lost their phone numbers.

Not sure how I stayed sober, I went through some terrible, horrifying things (my son's foot getting cut off with a riding lawn mower) one month after I got out of treatment and didn't drink. I was 27 and am now 51.

I've been to AA quite a bit in the last 2 years since I relapsed but I think I'm going to get counseling from another source this time...... maybe a church.

Sorry I keep editing. I feel so thankful that I didn't hurt anyone during my DUIs. Thank God.

Originally Posted by karimpatim View Post
you will be stronger again....start right away...now is always the best time...
welcome ...there is so much info and support in SR...stay strong!
I was feeling so high and spiritual and it's dissipated.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:20 PM
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Hi glad you are here.
There is alot of support and info here.
If you have done it before..Surely you can do it again.
All the best to you and i hope to see you posting more.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:24 PM
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Welcome to SR!
You were sober for 22 years so I know you can do this. We all have our bad days, God knows Ive shed many a tear the days i feel like drinking and just wished I didnt feel that way.
I hope you didnt call that cab, but if you did thier is no written law saying you have to drink what you buy. Just dump it!!
Im hoping your hubby came home early and you were able to hold off on the drink.
The people here are amazing and had a great part in saving my life, so keep posting Im sure you will find SR very helpful.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:36 PM
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Originally Posted by bfree4u View Post
Welcome to SR!
You were sober for 22 years so I know you can do this. We all have our bad days, God knows Ive shed many a tear the days i feel like drinking and just wished I didnt feel that way.
I hope you didnt call that cab, but if you did thier is no written law saying you have to drink what you buy. Just dump it!!
Im hoping your hubby came home early and you were able to hold off on the drink.
The people here are amazing and had a great part in saving my life, so keep posting Im sure you will find SR very helpful.

He did come early and I didn't buy the alcohol. I'm trying but it's so hard.

Thank you all for the wonderful welcome.

I'll bet you all have seen so many people come in here and say what I've said. It must get old.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:40 PM
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Every case is a case..and every person has a future..that's the most important...allow yourself to live your future now....ok?
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:54 PM
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Originally Posted by HereIGoAgain View Post
I'll bet you all have seen so many people come in here and say what I've said. It must get old.

I really don't think you will find anyone here who say's "it gets old". Most of us have started here with similar posts. Good job reaching out for help. Take care.
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Old 06-13-2007, 05:57 PM
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Welcome! There are many wise and kind people here who are a big help.
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Old 06-13-2007, 06:05 PM
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hi HIGA,

welcome ! I think you'll find this is a great place - lots of help and support
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Old 06-13-2007, 06:09 PM
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Welcome! I'm so glad that you decided to join us. It never gets old - we are here to support one another through good times and bad.
Calling your husband, coming here, and not drinking are huge accomplishments. It's about change, and being willing to take action when we are in such pain.
22 years is a miracle - denial can be pretty powerful stuff after so long without a drink. That's one of the wonderful things about this site - I'm reminded every day why I can't drink. Left to my own devices, and without the support of other alcoholics, I would soon be back out there.
Please keep reading and posting - and know that you have found a good place. We care.

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Old 06-13-2007, 06:29 PM
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I have wanted to drink so bad starting at about 5:00 that I feel like Pavlov's dog.

I have gotten past that strong feeling only a few times without giving in.

How have you people gotten past that absolute overwhelming urge to drink?

I had lost that urge when I quit the first time years ago.
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Old 06-13-2007, 10:46 PM
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Well I happily made it through this day without drinking, just to let anyone know. *****! I hope this urge gets better again, it's been easy other than the last 2 days.
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Old 06-13-2007, 10:54 PM
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Welcome !

I don't have a license currently, will get it back in 3 weeks. I was going to call a cab to go get vodka.
Makes sense to me !

Anyway, the urge was lifted for me while working the steps. Right around the 3rd, actually.
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Old 06-13-2007, 11:08 PM
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Originally Posted by GlassPrisoner View Post
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Makes sense to me !

Anyway, the urge was lifted for me while working the steps. Right around the 3rd, actually.

I spent $30 for a cab once to buy alcohol. STUPID!!!!!!!!
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Old 06-14-2007, 03:15 AM
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Welcome and Hello....

Blessings to you in your struggle
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