A happy thread.
 

Well all..I have had the best few days in a long time.
I feel so much better and my confidence level i rising.
I am not getting angry so quick. Hell I am not getting angry at all.
Very mellow relaxed and calm.
I have my interview in the next 2 weeks.
I have found a different recovery program that I think I will more easily connect with.No stres..no aggravation.
I think I have hugged my grams more in the past few days then I have in a year.
Life is going good. And my attitude has really changed alot.
I am gonn gie this my all this time.
I swear my hand to whoever..if it kills me I will not F up again.
I cant because next time I will die.
I am not ready to die.
And I owe alot of it to all of you here. And my family.
Oh happy day.
Love you all and I am alwyays thinking of everyone of you,

I had to run and grab a hug for you! You deserve all the good that life has to offer!

Glad to hear that Chi!

Oh and I am going to change my avatar every week.
To how i feel.
This ne now Is me leeting all the negativity out and washing it away.
;)

hey...:

proud of you, and glad you are so happy today.

i'm also curious - how is it different this time?

blessings, k

Because my next extreme will be death.
I have never attempted or even came clost to attempting my life before.
I still cant believev I did that.
That is just freakin way insane.
There is no way I can put myself in that position again.
Never!
Plus the last time was nothing but a big long chase and it was far from fun.
I am just so over getting high.
It's too much complication and BS.
I have a great new opportunity coming up in July for this new job. And my ex boss/ friend has really put alot into getting me in this with him.
He was there when I started messing up way back in DEC.
And even though he does not know my addiction..He thinks I have anger issues...which is true.
He has really stood by me and I have never had anyone do that before putside my family.
He must see something in me.
He has been a great friend and is putting his reputaition on the line to offer me this great new start.
I have to succeed.
Plus it is a new start in a new company at ahigher position and pay.
I am blessed to have a friend like him and a family like mine.
I really have no problems.
I am just a spoiled brat thinking I can do what I want and get away with it like I always have.
Well it is not like that anymore.
And I need to cherish every freakin moment I have with my grams.
I think this is my time for real.
I have found new ways to cope with my addiction that I understand.
And I believe it is my time to start again freash and make it.

Chiynita,
I am so happy for you! YAY!!! Hold on to how good you feel today. You deserve it. Know that you deserve to feel this peace and happiness. You put a smile on my face, thank you. Really, you made me stop and think. Keep sharing about the good times and bad. You help not just yourself, but others, too. Keep on fighting the good fight and hugging your grams. I'm proud of you and happy for you!

******{Trish}}}}
I am so glad to see you are feeling happy today.
Feeling more confident and letting the anger go are two things I am starting to feel and it really helps.
I am so happy for you.

Keep it up girlfriend we love you and dont want to see anything bad happen to you.

I like the idea of changing your avitar to match how you feel. Digging the new one.

I think I might go ket some of my negativity go and hop right in the shower to wash it off. Sounds like a plan.

Its amazing how rejuvenating an attitude change is.