Life Sucks
Life Sucks
I've been awol for a while. I have moved flats and got a new job and haven't had internet at home and had no time at work to email.
I haven't had a great time recently. I went out last Friday and got trashed, pulled some random bloke, got him to drive me round to my ex's at 8am on sat morning to pick up some more of my stuff and found my ex passed out in bed with a female 'mate' of his. I lost it, caned the coke and booze all weekend and didn't go to work on Monday.
So tired, so pissed off, so hate myself...
I haven't had a great time recently. I went out last Friday and got trashed, pulled some random bloke, got him to drive me round to my ex's at 8am on sat morning to pick up some more of my stuff and found my ex passed out in bed with a female 'mate' of his. I lost it, caned the coke and booze all weekend and didn't go to work on Monday.
So tired, so pissed off, so hate myself...
Welcome back.
I used to feel like that. I hated life. I found though, after I found some recovery through AA, that life wasn't my problem. I was. Through working the steps, I have found a way to cope with lifes ups and downs sans alcohol. And, the beauty of it is, I no longer think life sucks. I'm actually rather enjoying it.
I used to feel like that. I hated life. I found though, after I found some recovery through AA, that life wasn't my problem. I was. Through working the steps, I have found a way to cope with lifes ups and downs sans alcohol. And, the beauty of it is, I no longer think life sucks. I'm actually rather enjoying it.
You deserev to love life and to be happy, and most importantly FREE from addiction and abusiveness. There ARE programs to help you in achieving those goals.
I found I had to WANT it more than I needed it........and commit to it like my life depended on it.....because it does.
Sending Lots O' Love & Light your way............
********{Encouraging Hugs}}}}}
I found I had to WANT it more than I needed it........and commit to it like my life depended on it.....because it does.
Sending Lots O' Love & Light your way............
********{Encouraging Hugs}}}}}
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Welcome back.
I used to feel like that. I hated life. I found though, after I found some recovery through AA, that life wasn't my problem. I was. Through working the steps, I have found a way to cope with lifes ups and downs sans alcohol. And, the beauty of it is, I no longer think life sucks. I'm actually rather enjoying it.
I used to feel like that. I hated life. I found though, after I found some recovery through AA, that life wasn't my problem. I was. Through working the steps, I have found a way to cope with lifes ups and downs sans alcohol. And, the beauty of it is, I no longer think life sucks. I'm actually rather enjoying it.
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Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: New Zealand
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Ouch. That would hurt me too. I think that's the one thing would make me drink. So there we go - that's how I know I am not yet recovered. I hope God gives me a couple more months before he throws something like that my way. You have my sympathy.
We do those crazy things because of the drinking. We don't drink because life sux. That's just the excuse. Life will suck bad like this as long as you keep drinking and using and running around hurting yourself and getting hurt. The hurt will continue.
Is you ex a too? Mine is. I can imagine how you feel.
Stop now. Make a plan. We are here to help with that part. We care.
We do those crazy things because of the drinking. We don't drink because life sux. That's just the excuse. Life will suck bad like this as long as you keep drinking and using and running around hurting yourself and getting hurt. The hurt will continue.
Is you ex a too? Mine is. I can imagine how you feel.
Stop now. Make a plan. We are here to help with that part. We care.
mimi,
you *gotta* get all your stuff out of the ex's flat..seems like trouble ensues everytime you're there...
OK I'm kinda joking, but seriously....no need to hate yourself...we always make mistakes - that's how we learn....so, learn from this....
you just need a plan...you know how certain things trigger you - you can't avoid triggers all the time, so you've got to try and stay on top of them and recognize that there's a part of you that will use this to get trashed...and leave you feeling like this.
take care - and forget about baldy ~!
D
you *gotta* get all your stuff out of the ex's flat..seems like trouble ensues everytime you're there...
OK I'm kinda joking, but seriously....no need to hate yourself...we always make mistakes - that's how we learn....so, learn from this....
you just need a plan...you know how certain things trigger you - you can't avoid triggers all the time, so you've got to try and stay on top of them and recognize that there's a part of you that will use this to get trashed...and leave you feeling like this.
take care - and forget about baldy ~!
D
You remembered !!
He is a fat little ******** that is going bald well before his time and he doesn't even know it yet. Hats all the way from now on and he's not the sort of guy that could get away with a shaved head - which I think looks great on most blokes - his head is way too ROUND!! lol
Sorry bit mean, but hey ho...
Thanks for all your support guys I'm pleased to be back.
M xxxxxxxxxx
He is a fat little ******** that is going bald well before his time and he doesn't even know it yet. Hats all the way from now on and he's not the sort of guy that could get away with a shaved head - which I think looks great on most blokes - his head is way too ROUND!! lol
Sorry bit mean, but hey ho...
Thanks for all your support guys I'm pleased to be back.
M xxxxxxxxxx
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