mimi54321

I've been awol for a while. I have moved flats and got a new job and haven't had internet at home and had no time at work to email.

I haven't had a great time recently. I went out last Friday and got trashed, pulled some random bloke, got him to drive me round to my ex's at 8am on sat morning to pick up some more of my stuff and found my ex passed out in bed with a female 'mate' of his. I lost it, caned the coke and booze all weekend and didn't go to work on Monday.

So tired, so pissed off, so hate myself...

GlassPrisoner

Welcome back.

I used to feel like that. I hated life. I found though, after I found some recovery through AA, that life wasn't my problem. I was. Through working the steps, I have found a way to cope with lifes ups and downs sans alcohol. And, the beauty of it is, I no longer think life sucks. I'm actually rather enjoying it.

2stop

You deserev to love life and to be happy, and most importantly FREE from addiction and abusiveness. There ARE programs to help you in achieving those goals.
I found I had to WANT it more than I needed it........and commit to it like my life depended on it.....because it does.

Sending Lots O' Love & Light your way............

********{Encouraging Hugs}}}}}

CarolD

((Hugs)))
So what is your new plan for health?

cali

I couldn't have said it better~
welcome home

Campergirl

I can't wait to get to the point of just enjoying life. I don't think I ever have.
mimi, I hope you can just put this behind you. :hugs

Pilgrim

Ouch. That would hurt me too. I think that's the one thing would make me drink. So there we go - that's how I know I am not yet recovered. I hope God gives me a couple more months before he throws something like that my way. You have my sympathy.

We do those crazy things because of the drinking. We don't drink because life sux. That's just the excuse. Life will suck bad like this as long as you keep drinking and using and running around hurting yourself and getting hurt. The hurt will continue.

Is you ex a too? Mine is. I can imagine how you feel.

Stop now. Make a plan. We are here to help with that part. We care.

Dee74

mimi,
you *gotta* get all your stuff out of the ex's flat..seems like trouble ensues everytime you're there...

OK I'm kinda joking, but seriously....no need to hate yourself...we always make mistakes - that's how we learn....so, learn from this....

you just need a plan...you know how certain things trigger you - you can't avoid triggers all the time, so you've got to try and stay on top of them and recognize that there's a part of you that will use this to get trashed...and leave you feeling like this.

take care - and forget about baldy ~!

D

mimi54321

You remembered !!

He is a fat little ******** that is going bald well before his time and he doesn't even know it yet. Hats all the way from now on and he's not the sort of guy that could get away with a shaved head - which I think looks great on most blokes - his head is way too ROUND!! lol

Sorry bit mean, but hey ho...

Thanks for all your support guys I'm pleased to be back.

M xxxxxxxxxx

SaTiT

i hear it say this is what alkis do..
we beat yourselfs up over the head...that sob..that sob.

cali

Good job Mimi-
~good to see you posting

parentrecovers

you can recover, mimi - it is possible. be kind and patient to yourself and others. blessings, k

Lollipop

(((((((Mimi))))))))

Welcome Back!!!! Congrats on the new flat and job!!! Stay strong!!

Rowan

Always good to see you, Mimi