Rusty Zipper

steph... dopey slogan time...

Pilgrim

This day was not great. I am emotionally exhausted. This stuff happens when we get sober and have to clean house.

You know that saying about turning out backs on drowning love and hearing the splashing as we walk away? I have his life preserver as well. It is not a good feeling my friends.

stone

((((((Steph))))))

Dee74

we can't save everyone Steph, especially if they just don't want to be saved...
it's a REALLY REALLY hard lesson to learn but you have to, or you'll go mad

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stone

Hi steph!

HereIGoAgain

This is such a wonderful thread.

You people rock big time and I'm so glad I joined today.

Dee74

great pic, Here I Go Again !!
hmmm..got to get you a more concise nickname...'HIGA' makes you sound swedish !

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Pilgrim

Welcome to SR Holga! Hehe. I am pleased you found us.

What brings you here???

xx

Steph

Dee74

OK...sorry to go all on yer !

how you doin for the rest of today Steph ?

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HereIGoAgain

I am half Swedish actually, my dad was full. You can call me HIGA. LOL


Well I don't have a driver's license until 3 weeks from now so I am putting off either AA or counseling and I went on a hunt for a forum like this.

I'm here because I have dropped all of my friends IRL (in real life) because they're druggies or alchies. I now know if I sleep with dogs I'll eventually get fleas. HARDY HAR!

I've had lots of experience with sobriety but I got lax about it and hung out with the wrong people and decided to experiment to see if I was REALLY an alcoholic and boy am I!! I've been trying for 2 years (since I relapsed) to stop again and it's a struggle this time, unlike the first time I didn't drink for 22 years.

Pilgrim

Hey Dee and HIGA

I am sober still so I guess it's a really really great day. I was completely sure I would go and drink today. I miss it so much when I am at work and all stressy. I have a feeling I am already too far gone in my head not to relapse. I want to party. I think I am in pretty big trouble.

Then an old drinking buddy rang all drunk at 5.30pm. He is a very unhappy person. So....maybe not today after all. Ick. Hard.

Dee74

Oh you know as well as I do Steph that drinking never really solves anything - it just makes things worse in the long run...

there are other ways to unwind and to have fun and to party

don't let the little voice beat ya !

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Dee74

er...not that there's anything wrong with being swedish...HIGA it is!

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HereIGoAgain

I was positive I was going to drink today so I joined this place. Finally the urge has gone away. I've only gone through that super-strong feeling a few times in the last 2 years and NOT drank.

I had an Aunt named Hilda........so it's not far off.

Dee74

That's really great HIGA...I can't think of one time before I came here and (hopefully) quit for good that I was able not to give in...it is super strong isn't it ? I'm very impressed by the 22 years too...my 70 days doesn't look so good ! Ok...joke...seriously they've been the best 70 days I can remember and the great folks around here have had a lot to do with that

sorry - gotta go but I'll see you round ?
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ps nice lookin' brood you've got too !

IO Storm

Steph...

Blessing someone does not mean taking care of their needs...and sometimes

letting go is the blessing. By attempting to save your ex from the discomfort

of losing a job and possibly "drinking himself to death"...you may be prolonging

his chance at seeing his true condition and reaching out for recovery. And

working closely with another active alcoholic that you have enotional ties with

is tough to handle. I used to relapse when my ex did because I wanted to "share

in his pain"...

This not a requirement and never works.

You might try letting go and truly blessing this dear man by allowing his HP to

bring him to his own path of recovery.

I'm not an expert Steph..just been there!

All my love,

Sherry

HereIGoAgain

Well 70 days sounds great to me right now as much trouble as I've had the last couple of years.

But yes when I compare it to what I did before, my mere 29 days now seem like nothing but I can't think that way, it doesn't help me to minimize my accomplishment each time I've quit in the last 2 years.

Thanks for the compliment on my brood. I changed my sig because no one else here has pics of their family it seems.

Dee74

I used to be a 24/7 drunk basically...one day sober was amazing to me...29 was just incredible...70 is...inconceivable. But I've done it, and I hope to do another 70, and another....

it's the ol' One Day at a time trick and, for me, trying to discover why I drank, and learning different ways to deal with things.

just a nod to the dangers of the Internet I guess...sad but wise I 'spose...
but SR is the best place I've ever been in, cyberwise, and I've been in a few !

love the new sig anyway - I think Abe had a soft spot for drunks !
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HereIGoAgain

Dee,

That's the way I drank when I was in my 20s, before I quit the first time, now I don't drink in the morning when I drink, nor do I drink daily but I drink enough to get DUIs and car wrecks and fall down stairs and break bones. I am a worse drunk than in my 20s. It does get worse, as they say in AA, when you quit and start again, as if I never quit. I black-out constantly, which I never did in my 20s.

When I was in my 20s, I drank one day, hung-over the next, drunk the next day etc....

I never went more than a day in between.

22 years goes by so fast, as does life. I want to be like I was before. I was the only person I knew that didn't drink or do drugs, I hung out with the wrong people. I thought I had become omnipotent from staying sober through so many things that happened to me when I got out of treatment. One month after I got out of treatment my youngest son (2 year old then) son's foot was cut off by a riding lawn mower, his dad accidentally backed over him. I had to retrieve the foot from under the lawn mower and put it on ice. I didn't drink ONLY because I thought about it and decided to JUST try not to. My son's foot couldn't be reconnected but he's a wonderful 26 year old now.

I have 3 sons ranging in ages from 32 to 26.

Dee74

yeah, I hear ya HIGA...I just got worse and worse over 15 years or so...I fell down a lot too, which had a lot to do with me stopping in the end

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