SaTiT

lol..karmi,

the reason my ass fell off was becuase i was broken hearted.
I had just gone through a long term relationship break up..

so what did my sponsor tell me ?...."follow your heart".
It was confussing at first becuase i was hurt and broken hearted.
But he had to keep it very simple for me..becuase i felt like i was
going out of my mind and i loved my ex-gf very much and my world
and life had just truned upside down. I didn't think i would ever get
through it

"follow your heart"....i gave god my heart before my ex-gf ever came
into my life. I just had to trust in the process and stop figthing it.
i embraced my pain. waves of emotionals came like ties..for i was sober,
i felt everything. I surrender everything. I keep Faith in my heart and
follow her oneday at a time. if i needed to cry..i cired
if I was angery..i allowed myself to get angery. if felt i needed to pray
at any giving moment , i pray. if i need to go to a meeting , i went.
if i need to call my sponsor, i call.
I remember kneeling in a court yard in broad day light praying to
a statue of Saint Francis. I remember sitting in an empty church
crying my heart out as my friend sang and played the paino..
I don't go to church..lol The pain didn't go away overnight...

but ya know...how poeple say
"you gotta go to any length for your recovery"
oki doki..my sponsor actaully had to make me start dating.lol
I had to face those fears too...

indigo

We care and will continue to support you in your struggle.

indigo

Alive

((((Satit)))))

((((Indigo))))

Rusty Zipper

kari... more good energy head'n your way....

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzap!!!

all good wishes, and keep give'n that love...

rz

hope3

Kari, good morning sweetie..

I have to tell you about my somewhere around my

second month of sobriety..

My brain was so foggy that I would have to read a simple sentence

for 5 minutes sometimes before my foffy brain would comprehend

what it was saying, this was difficult to take because I go to college part time at

night, and I need my brain for my full time job as a teacher assistant..

Well, it got better...thank God....Sometimes I get a little foggy, but notheing like before..

Bless you Kari, hope3

Alive

Rusty and Hope thank you...I have been praying a lot....and starting all kinds of plans for my life. I was on and off sober for the last 2 months, i want it to last now!....I am feeling good today........Bought myself a new bible, in english, actually, and so good things are coming my way....taking some gingkgo biloba( good for brain)...it's a matter of time....Hope i sometimes feel exactly like you describe!like i have to read the same sentence over and over....thank you, because i thought nobody in the world understood what it is to have to try a great deal to concentrate while studying.....but it takes time...it will fall into place

take care!

p.s. feeling that good energy Rusty!

2ala2

Hey Karim,
Go to an NA meeting. We are all like you. Your life will change. Go today.
Love,
Magellan

Alive

thanks, i really don't have a specific addiction, you know...just a depression together with destructive behavior in general..not a specific thing...i've seen you're new here....welcome.....

i am looking for balance in a life that was in chaos..but by the grace of God and the grace of support and by my own personal strength everything will fall into place

take care 2ala2...i can't believe you get to live in Egypt...wow..i really want to go there one day....soon!

Rusty Zipper

kari ok kari, this ones from Big Foot (my sponser) "its ok to have a plan or plans... he says, you cant build a house without one... then he goes on to say... just dont expect the results..."

thats where plan B, C, D to Z, if need, come on in...

kari great, its called.. reaching out...

keep doing that next right thing my friend...

xxoo, rz