...Trashed my room...
 

I don't know why I am so angry. I trashed my room and threw things everywhere. I feel like I'm losing it or something. dasdfldksajfdklsdsljk;fajdksl UGH.

sorry you're feeling so angry and frustrated...seems to be fairly common today...count me in I guess...:( but hey at least we're not alone !!

:hug:

D

Hi there....

This is a good place to come to to let
out ur frustrations and anger....its
better than drinking or using because
of it....

share with us why u r so angry....

Did trashing ur room solve ur anger?

Probably not....doing dectruction doesnt
solve our problems....because after all
that ur room is still there and now its
a mess.... :(

Just like for us drinking or using...
we do that to numb ourselves so
we dont have to feel...yet when
its all said and done...not only
do we feel like crap with a
hangover and such....the
problem is still there....

There is a solution for our
problems...seek and u shall
find them...

We r here to help u.

AA taught me to "pause when agitated". I'm not very good at it, but it gives me something to strive for in sobriety.

((((BacktoBlack))))

Must be something in the air. I didn't trash my room, but I've felt like I could. I'm going to an AA meeting tonite, that I really don't feel like going to, but I don't really ever feel like going to one. It's never really been my thing, but I figure I should give it a shot. Hope you're feeling better. Take care.

And the AA Big Books DARES to call us childish. Sheesh.

I've noticed when I'm irratable, 9 times out of 10 it's because I didn't get my way.

Sorry you're angry B2B. I know it's not fun being there right now.

And

Yes

This too shall pass ;)

Start Writing your 4th Step!... It will releave alot of the Anger you need to process that is backed up from years of abusive behavior to the mind, body and soul... It works, only if you work it! Trust in God, Clean House and Help Others!

Hey.know what, i changed my whole room today....i put paintings on the wall, changed my bedsheets, because i smoke this cuban cigar..my God...had not smoke in 8 years...in a way i missed smoking...i have to be strong...i don't want another addiction...i felt like i was 15 years old again...it was awful...i realized that it coincided since i went into a minor depression i stopped smoking...just a coincidence...but i really can't smoke again...oh damn it! aaahhh...it reminded me i haven't really lived ever since...i haven't enjoyed most of my life...but i will enjoy the future...and you too B2B.

take care...sometimes releasing the anger is good.have you tried sports or so?

Hey sweetie,

Better out than in I say.Anger builds up and for me-if I let it-I turn it inwards on myself and that's somehow worse.Seems like a few of us are feeling like crap today.I'm with you and understand.Sending you big hugs,

Rosexox

If I had the strength and energy I probably would have trashed my whole house after the past few days I have had.
If it made you feel better. Than good.
Not that it solved anything.
But sometimes you just need to let it out some way or another.
As long as you didnt hurt yourself or anyone else.
Let it out.
I agree with the above.'
You are definately not alone.
I cant say I have ever seen so much struggle in a short period of time from so many different ones on here at once.
Must be something in the stars or something.
So know you are not alone.

must be global, I have had a few bad days and one day of rage (well a couple of hours anyway) turns out I can feel that and not use and not hurt myself or anyone else.

Phew.

Kevin

I agree with Chiy and Kevin...lots of angst...not only here but elsewhere as well....must be a moon or stars thing or something...but we can get through anything if we stick together, I reckon

D

Thank you you guys, I'm so sorry but I am having a glass of wine, I just needed it to get through this day

I fear this may p*** you off, but remembering where we are I *need* to say it...I know you've had a crappy day, and I'm sorry for it, but we both know that whatever it is you need to get through today, wine just don't cut it.

c'mon BtB...

D

D,

Don't fear about pissing me off, it didn't. I know what you mean

yeah however bad it is for us, get blasted only makes it worse. Put it down and go sleep byes.

Kevin

somehow I seem to have gone from where using was an option but not going to happen to its a possibility. I am told this is all part of healing in recovery and to just keep on doing what I am doing and don't pick up, so how about you join me.

It can't be as rough as it was using.

Kevin

Thanks for the support, im sorry I dont mean to make excuses for anything ive done. i know that i've ****** up. once i start drinking its a neverending story

BBXX...You trashed your room..so what?

It's your room...

You asked for help and started drinking less than 3 hours later.

What is it that you really want?

Your signature says I dont wanna drink i only want a friend...

You have friends...

Now, do you want sobriety?

I agree with with Glass....

9 times out of 10 a rage is because we do not get our own way...

Sorry to be harsh,,but this is my truth as well.

So I'll be honest with you.

So now you have friends that care..

And you are having your wine...

and your friends can't jump in there and knock it out of your hand...

Love,

IO

BBXX....you really need someone to talk to tonight and the next couple of days.......you are in the right place.................So you trashed your room....WE ALL HAVE BEEN THERE AND SO IT IS OK.....Just for today....................

Today ....trash the room.......

Tomarrow.......get to AA......

Take that first step and look at yourself in the mirror...........tell yourself you are ok and that life will get better............

You can do this.....even if it means you call someone to take you to an AA meeting..............don't be alone.............Cry on a friends shoulder................................

Sending Hugs your way and praying that you will get past this.................just for today....................

I have a special teddy bear to talk to when no one else is around...........at one point I Hugged Him so tight that my tears made Him Cry..........What a bear.................

Little Penguin