Questioning or denial
Questioning or denial
I'm new to all this, I stopped drinking 74 days ago when my AHusband went into rehab. I knew I had to do it for him but I had been wanting to quit drinking for along time. I've been questioning if I had a problem for a couple years now. I had no problems quitting as far as any withdrawls went unless they were maske by my depression of my AH gone for 28 days.(I don't know) I had a couple urges to drink before parties so I've gone to two meetings. Then the other day I had myself convinced that now that my eyes have been opened and our lives were no longer a partying mess that maybe just maybe I could drink and only have a few. I almost did it(selfishly not supporting my AH) luckily I had time to stop and think. Earlier that day I tasted a drug that I had a phase with and hated 7 years ago and at dinner I smelt another one. Even though what I wanted to do was drink. Was my brain reaching out for anything, I don't know but it scared the sh*! out of me enought not to drink. I really really don't want to be a alcoholic. I've labeled myself borderline. Now reading through this forum I'm not so sure. I've never been able to stop at one, and for the past few years I would have big gaping holes in the night. Couldn't remember for the life of me. Although I never had any alcohol hidden around the house or lost my job, got DUI's anything like that.
Anyhow that was long sorry, what I intended to ask was is there cases where people are alcoholics and don't have high tolerance? When I drink I fall all over the place, my words slure and my eyes cross.
Thankyou for putting up with my babble.
Anyhow that was long sorry, what I intended to ask was is there cases where people are alcoholics and don't have high tolerance? When I drink I fall all over the place, my words slure and my eyes cross.
Thankyou for putting up with my babble.
Repeated blackouts are supposed to be a big sign of alcoholism. I don't know. I'm about where you're at now. On the fence about labels and where I think I'm at.
Glad to see you here. Welcome.
There will be people with much more help in a few, I'm sure.
Glad to see you here. Welcome.
There will be people with much more help in a few, I'm sure.
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yeah..my gf.. a couple of beers and she's a goner.
she didn't even started drinking until in her 30's
I would have to drink a bottle of jack for me to be in that shape.
It's not how much you drink, It's what drinking dose to you.
she didn't even started drinking until in her 30's
I would have to drink a bottle of jack for me to be in that shape.
It's not how much you drink, It's what drinking dose to you.
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If you read this.... post #35 explains blackouts
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
I do hope you and your husband continue
to be sober and healthy
elcome to SR!
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
I do hope you and your husband continue
to be sober and healthy
elcome to SR!
AMF13....
My eyes were opened when I went to Alanon for help for me dealing with my ex's
alocoholism...and I would go home and get drunk!
At work the day after one of these "nervous drinking" blackouts..a dear friend
in AA/Alanon looked at me and said..."Maybe..you're in the wrong program?"
It scared the crap out of me and sure didn't stop my slide into alcoholism myself..
but it took away the joy of drinking..a seed was planted that day.
I pray your seeds will bring forth the insights you need.
Keep posting.
Love,
IO
My eyes were opened when I went to Alanon for help for me dealing with my ex's
alocoholism...and I would go home and get drunk!
At work the day after one of these "nervous drinking" blackouts..a dear friend
in AA/Alanon looked at me and said..."Maybe..you're in the wrong program?"
It scared the crap out of me and sure didn't stop my slide into alcoholism myself..
but it took away the joy of drinking..a seed was planted that day.
I pray your seeds will bring forth the insights you need.
Keep posting.
Love,
IO
Actually low tolerance is also an alcoholic symptom, only more advanced. As alcoholism progresses and your liver is damaged, it is less and less able to metabolize alcohol. As a result alcohol stays in your blood longer, you get and stay drunk longer - with a relatively smaller qty of booze - take longer to recover, etc.
I have heard people say that their kidneys get rid of the alcohol. This is not true, kidneys get rid of excess water. After I quit drinking, I had a social event where everybody was drinking and I drank iced tea. I went to the bathroom as much as the heaviest drinker there.
Alcohol is about 99% dependent on your liver to get rid of it, the other 1% is breath and perspiration.
I have heard people say that their kidneys get rid of the alcohol. This is not true, kidneys get rid of excess water. After I quit drinking, I had a social event where everybody was drinking and I drank iced tea. I went to the bathroom as much as the heaviest drinker there.
Alcohol is about 99% dependent on your liver to get rid of it, the other 1% is breath and perspiration.
Hi AMF,
Welcome, I can relate to the confusion, there are so many signs and so much of us not wanting to come to the realization it is easy to say but i didn't do that or that.
What I came to realize is that alcoholism is a progressive diseases and little by little I was adding thingd I did do to the list... like only for about year was I hiding bottles and for only about two had I drank in the morning... little by little what started out 30 years ago as just getting too drunk too often was progressing to being out of control.
Go with your first instincts don't second guess your rational self.
Welcome, I can relate to the confusion, there are so many signs and so much of us not wanting to come to the realization it is easy to say but i didn't do that or that.
What I came to realize is that alcoholism is a progressive diseases and little by little I was adding thingd I did do to the list... like only for about year was I hiding bottles and for only about two had I drank in the morning... little by little what started out 30 years ago as just getting too drunk too often was progressing to being out of control.
Go with your first instincts don't second guess your rational self.
Nope not Asian, now that I look back I guess I did use to be able to consume more and not get too drunk. It's only been the last few years that i've been getting sloppy every time. As my AH pointed out to me last night most females my size couldn't drink as much as I did, guess I was just comparing myself to how much he drank.
I guess that's one more thing off my justification list for not being a alcoholic.
Darn it!!!!!
I guess that's one more thing off my justification list for not being a alcoholic.
Darn it!!!!!
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