I Caved!!!!!!
Looking For Myself...Sober
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
Awww..Thank all you so much. Once again you all have brought tears of joy to my eyes.
I know I can do it.
I just gotta stop falling back into that pattern of..Hey it use to be fun and letting myself get bored.
Or whatever it is that makes me feel like I want to get high.
I struggled big time All day Fri and Sat. Until about 1 pm. Then I had it. I let it get me.
I was sick of feeling the anxiety. The anticipation.
I think alot has to do with..It was alot of fun and I miss those days of care free...Hanging out..doing what I wanted with no responsibility.
It will never be that way again. EVER!!
I need to accept that.
Now all it does is cause me stress..problems..grief and just chasing it for days.
I hate that.
Never satisfied.
Well..It definately was a stupid move. And it was far from any enjoyment.
I will relive that let down everytime I feel like I want to go again.
Again thank you all soooooo much..Love you all.
I know I can do it.
I just gotta stop falling back into that pattern of..Hey it use to be fun and letting myself get bored.
Or whatever it is that makes me feel like I want to get high.
I struggled big time All day Fri and Sat. Until about 1 pm. Then I had it. I let it get me.
I was sick of feeling the anxiety. The anticipation.
I think alot has to do with..It was alot of fun and I miss those days of care free...Hanging out..doing what I wanted with no responsibility.
It will never be that way again. EVER!!
I need to accept that.
Now all it does is cause me stress..problems..grief and just chasing it for days.
I hate that.
Never satisfied.
Well..It definately was a stupid move. And it was far from any enjoyment.
I will relive that let down everytime I feel like I want to go again.
Again thank you all soooooo much..Love you all.
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
Posts: 18,299
Originally Posted by paulmh 
We took personal responsibility for our condition. We stopped counting, and just accepted - "this is the way it is, from now on. I drink, I suffer. So today, I don't pick up that first drink". And for people like me, that meant reaching a crisis where I was forced to surrender to the fact - I can't drink and expect it to be ok. It never will be.
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