Got the job, lost the boyfriend
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oh, mimi...how awful.....
i can't imagine......
stay strong......and remember, deal with today for now......you will face the past when you are ready, and stronger.......hopefully when you have a little sober time under your belt......
i really can't find the words to say to you, but know i am here and you are in my prayers and thoughts today......
i can't imagine......
stay strong......and remember, deal with today for now......you will face the past when you are ready, and stronger.......hopefully when you have a little sober time under your belt......
i really can't find the words to say to you, but know i am here and you are in my prayers and thoughts today......
What a terrible memory to have to go through life with. I dont know what to say either, except give you a hug. I'm so very sorry.
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I don't know what to say either sometimes.
I feel like I lost the whole 'point' when that happened. Not that I can ever remember having a point, but I do remember having feelings about stuff; silly stuff, being told off for not being home on time, told off for things I said/did.
I want a future, I want a family and I want to give back what was taken from me.
At the same time, I don't feel sorry for myself, I feel anger about the things that have happened, I hate myself and at times feel violence/hatred/anger and take it out on myself. This I am trying to change. Why do I beat myself up continuously?
M x
I feel like I lost the whole 'point' when that happened. Not that I can ever remember having a point, but I do remember having feelings about stuff; silly stuff, being told off for not being home on time, told off for things I said/did.
I want a future, I want a family and I want to give back what was taken from me.
At the same time, I don't feel sorry for myself, I feel anger about the things that have happened, I hate myself and at times feel violence/hatred/anger and take it out on myself. This I am trying to change. Why do I beat myself up continuously?
M x
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Originally Posted by mimi54321 
I don't know what to say either sometimes.
I feel like I lost the whole 'point' when that happened. Not that I can ever remember having a point, but I do remember having feelings about stuff; silly stuff, being told off for not being home on time, told off for things I said/did.
I want a future, I want a family and I want to give back what was taken from me.
At the same time, I don't feel sorry for myself, I feel anger about the things that have happened, I hate myself and at times feel violence/hatred/anger and take it out on myself. This I am trying to change. Why do I beat myself up continuously?
M x
I want a future, I want a family and I want to give back what was taken from me.
At the same time, I don't feel sorry for myself, I feel anger about the things that have happened, I hate myself and at times feel violence/hatred/anger and take it out on myself. This I am trying to change. Why do I beat myself up continuously?
M x
I think most of us would say a little from column A, a little from column B...the important thing to do is try and recognise this self-loathing crap and deal with it. How ? I'll let you know when I find out !!
Not running away from dealing with it - with a bottle - and coming here helps, though...
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Hey Mimi,
I wanted to recommend a book - a great read - it's fiction. Written by Marian Keyes, it's called Rachel's Holiday. The main character is from the UK and is a drug addict and alcoholic in her 20's. The 'holiday' referred to in the title is actually her stint in rehab. Because of the author's real-life struggles with addiction and depression, she was able to accurately portray what Rachel went through in her struggle to get clean and sober. It's an excellent book, and is very very funny. I thought you might like to read it - even my non-alcoholic friends really enjoyed it.
I hope you are having a better day.
I wanted to recommend a book - a great read - it's fiction. Written by Marian Keyes, it's called Rachel's Holiday. The main character is from the UK and is a drug addict and alcoholic in her 20's. The 'holiday' referred to in the title is actually her stint in rehab. Because of the author's real-life struggles with addiction and depression, she was able to accurately portray what Rachel went through in her struggle to get clean and sober. It's an excellent book, and is very very funny. I thought you might like to read it - even my non-alcoholic friends really enjoyed it.
I hope you are having a better day.
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