citychick

Hi Guys,

My disease is biting me on the arse this last week. I don't think I'll actually pick up a drug or a drink, but I'm feel a sense of unease. This last week I've been around people who are actively using. And I've had thoughts of picking up myself. Nothing obsessive like before I quit, but where I haven't entertained the idea for 6 months, I find I am now.

I don't want to go back to THAT place! Maybe I'm not working my program well at the moment or something? Been going to meetings though......

Sheryl85

Perhaps what you are feeling is that it might be time to change your playground and playmates.

Don't hang around those slippery places too long...

citychick

Can't change the playground or the playmates, they're immediate family.

citychick

Sorry, it's only been bothering me this last week. At the moment I can't work out what the difference is.

Sheryl85

That makes it tough. Especially if you live under the same roof.

God was good to me (although I didn't see it like that at the time). I moved 200 miles away from mine. They are still having the same ol' problems, but that 200 miles seems to have helped a lot. It also helped take away that enabling thing that they'd do with me. I got to hit bottom on my on. No pillows to break the fall.

After all these years, I find that I still love them in spite of things. But for some of them it has to be from afar...

IO Storm

True for me also.....

I don't want to go to my sister's (10 miles away) because she has booze and benzo's

available. She wouldn't want me to do it, but I could talk her into it.

Sad. I'll go with other family members...

City..is there not one or two that would support you?


Love,

:

IO