Hurt.
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Murrieta, Ca
Posts: 2,683
I didn't reach out for help until I was alone. I had no where to go, and no one to turn to.
I resigned myself to the fact that I'd "......finally have to go to AA....."
It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I resigned myself to the fact that I'd "......finally have to go to AA....."
It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Posts: 294
Hi, xX. You really are such a talented writer. I'm glad to hear that you didn't slip. Know that it's OK to feel not so great right now. I can only speak for myself, but I know I was a bit overwhelmed by the emotions for a while. Sometimes I go though mood swings. I think I (and maybe you) notice these feelings more because I am so used to having felt nothing but numbness for so long. It's gonna be OK, xX. You're doing really well. Be proud of yourself. Hugs!
JUST DO IT!!
Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: Here Or There
Posts: 7,612
If I could only get out of my self
Then I would know the word of wealth
I would be able to see some light
Rather than turning or putting up a fight
The thoughts that cloud our minds today
Could be turned over to the Son with Ray
The Ray of Power through our HP
Then this Power would actually save Me
Save me from my selfish self
That is where the there is true wealth.
Then I would know the word of wealth
I would be able to see some light
Rather than turning or putting up a fight
The thoughts that cloud our minds today
Could be turned over to the Son with Ray
The Ray of Power through our HP
Then this Power would actually save Me
Save me from my selfish self
That is where the there is true wealth.
tangled up in blue
Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: MA
Posts: 401
Thank you all so much for your kind messages.
Maybe I should come back to the boards when I'm read to not be an addict. I really feel like I can't live my life without these substances. I've tried to but it's not working. I'm sorry, I'm just so confused right now.
Maybe I should come back to the boards when I'm read to not be an addict. I really feel like I can't live my life without these substances. I've tried to but it's not working. I'm sorry, I'm just so confused right now.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,431
Sorry you're having a hard time BtB...I think there's always a place here for those who want to quit, or trying to quit...if I relapse I'll still be posting here.
Anyway, no matter what you decide to do, you can always PM me if you want to chat.
Hope you'll keep coming around here, if only to lurk
take care
D
Anyway, no matter what you decide to do, you can always PM me if you want to chat.
Hope you'll keep coming around here, if only to lurk
take care
D
tangled up in blue
Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: MA
Posts: 401
Thanks again for all the support. Actually, I'm really thankful because I haven't relapsed at all. For whatever reason, my mind has been in a really dark place but I have yet to actually drink. This forum has really helped me; I'm not sure why but these past few days, I've just felt like I can't face my demons.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,431
I was wondering if you had *actually* relapsed or not...thanks for clearing that up...sorry you're having such a hard time, I hope the clouds part soon, and I'm glad to see you back on the boards
take care
D
take care
D
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Mn
Posts: 48
Its so great to hear from you..The reason that I "assumed" you slipped is because you hadn't been here in a while.I didn't mean to judge you..I apologize if I offended you in assuming that you slipped.I related my sobriety with yours..I slipped and slipped and....You get the point..me
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