just words...sorry
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just words...sorry
why is it that things never go right
why does everything have to be a fight
no matter how hard u try u never forget
to me they always be a threat
those who say we have won
how can that be, when I was outdone
I didn't even think it was wrong
that's just sick, god I just don't belong
It may have stopped, but it still lives within
I feel them under my skin
the memories the pain I live thru each day
I just wish it would all just go away.
The past is now controlling my present
adds to my life, all this torment.
will it ever ease and stop
Or do I have to fall and drop.
I've crashed and burned
all those years have now returned
I can't relive 27 years like this
no longer do I want to exist.
I would rather hand my cards ins
and say goodnite u win.
why does everything have to be a fight
no matter how hard u try u never forget
to me they always be a threat
those who say we have won
how can that be, when I was outdone
I didn't even think it was wrong
that's just sick, god I just don't belong
It may have stopped, but it still lives within
I feel them under my skin
the memories the pain I live thru each day
I just wish it would all just go away.
The past is now controlling my present
adds to my life, all this torment.
will it ever ease and stop
Or do I have to fall and drop.
I've crashed and burned
all those years have now returned
I can't relive 27 years like this
no longer do I want to exist.
I would rather hand my cards ins
and say goodnite u win.
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Location: England
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strugglin to find an exit
when will nite turn into day
when will the feelings go away.
when you open ur eyes and its still all there
i pray please not again, not today.
the curtains remain closed.
I don't want to be exposed
I fight to hide the pain,
look and find other ways, I'm going insane
the bottle screamin at me,
I can help take it all away, I don't disagree
I will give you the energy to be relaxed and free
free from pain, free from you, from from all those memories.
The pills are staring at me, we can help take it away
I've look for other ways
but i still end up with the same old feelings.
so now i drink to ease the pain, take the tablets to make it all gone.
I'm covered in blood where the razor one.
Look at me, this is what they done.
well now, all i can say is u won.
my life is over, I rest my soul.
when will the feelings go away.
when you open ur eyes and its still all there
i pray please not again, not today.
the curtains remain closed.
I don't want to be exposed
I fight to hide the pain,
look and find other ways, I'm going insane
the bottle screamin at me,
I can help take it all away, I don't disagree
I will give you the energy to be relaxed and free
free from pain, free from you, from from all those memories.
The pills are staring at me, we can help take it away
I've look for other ways
but i still end up with the same old feelings.
so now i drink to ease the pain, take the tablets to make it all gone.
I'm covered in blood where the razor one.
Look at me, this is what they done.
well now, all i can say is u won.
my life is over, I rest my soul.
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Suicide is not an easy way out, either. I've had many of the same feelings you have right now. It seemed very bleak.
I still have suicidal thoughts now and again, but my life has so much more meaning to it. My worst sober days are far, far better than my best days when I was inebriated.
Don't give up. Keep writing. It's good for you. You're good with words, too.
I still have suicidal thoughts now and again, but my life has so much more meaning to it. My worst sober days are far, far better than my best days when I was inebriated.
Don't give up. Keep writing. It's good for you. You're good with words, too.
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lost child,
You express yourself so beautifully in your poetry. I hope you are doing all right, you seem so sad. You talk about quitting and handing your cards in. Please don't give up on yourself. You are a talented young woman. If you don't believe in yourself right now, know that I believe in you. I hope to read some of your poetry about the joys of sobriety in the near future. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
You express yourself so beautifully in your poetry. I hope you are doing all right, you seem so sad. You talk about quitting and handing your cards in. Please don't give up on yourself. You are a talented young woman. If you don't believe in yourself right now, know that I believe in you. I hope to read some of your poetry about the joys of sobriety in the near future. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: MA
Posts: 401
You have a way with expressing yourself, lost child. Unfortunately, I have also experienced feelings of depression, loneliness, and confusion. Quite frankly, I'm experiencing them right now. I want you to know that you're not alone.
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