hope3

God morning ((((((((((((((((((((hope4life))))))))))))))))))))

Hope3

parentrecovers

morning, hope4life. k

Hope

Hi everyone!!

Here's hugs to all of you:

Yesterday I went and sat on the porch with my sister and grandpa and it was so nice. There was a breeze and it felt so good. I feel like that was the first day since I got sober that I have really appreciated nature and the beauty of being able to experience it.

I have a chance to live today and not just exist. I was dead inside when I was drinking and using.

Even though I am going through a painful time and I am feeling the hurt, it means that I'm sober and can experience the full range of human emotions.

I can feel human again!!! Sadness, happiness and all!

Hope

We will all get through today sober too!

I am here with all of you. We are walking this road together.

jozran

Best wishes for you today and every day to follow!

Surlyredhead

Awww Hope4life, I am so sorry I wasn't here to give you support yesterday (very sick) I am so glad you were able to be so strong. It is so hard to do sometimes, I am also glad you posted as you were going throught the worst of the cravings, putting it out there kinda takes some of the power of the dark side away. Stay strong....Cathy

IO Storm

Hope4Life:

Hope U R still here with us.

Remember one thing.

We ALL have been exactly where you are right now.

Some are exactly where you are now, and you are

holding onto one another.

We love you. Ten months ago, I had no idea I could

ever have ten months! But I did, not by the months.

One minute, one hour, one day at a time.

Hugs.

Love,

:

Sherry

IO Storm

P.S to my dear friend Hope3:

I am so sorry, I didn't know.

Special hugs to you.

Sherry

hope3

Thankyou Sherry, I am fine, it's just what we go through.

Just knowing that it is'nt going to all be roses and sometimes there

are thorns is a tool to be able to pull out when things or our mines

go there.

Hope4life, everytime you face those feelings head on and defeat them,

you come closer to the true person you want to be. I really beleive that.

It's easy when we feel all happy and our pink cloud is hovering above, but just like life, poop happens, clean it up.

Love to all, and (((((((((((((((hope4life))))))))))))))

Hope3

IO Storm

Very true, I have to go out today and do something for

myself that involves going back to my workplace to

reinstate medical benefits while off work, and I just want to

hide under the covers. But I am going. For me. The fear

will leave.

Yep, Hope 4:

Life ain't a bed of Rosies, but handling problems is possible

without the bottle making it impossible.

Please come on back and talk with us. My gosh girl, I

relapsed 6 times. Just keep coming back.

Love,



Sherry

Hope

I am struggling tonight. I don't even know what triggered the craving. I'm trying to keep my mind on other positive stuff. I don't want to drink because tomorrow I have to go to my outpatient group and they ask us when our last use was and I don't want to say "yesterday". Been there one too many times and it's not fun.

Anna

Hi Hope,

You're doing great!

Keep reading and posting for awhile. I always find something here that inspires me.

Hope

I feel like crap today. Not craving wise but I am so exhausted. I am having sleep problems and I only slept for 3 hours. I finally got to sleep and then ended up missing my doctor's appointment this morning and didn't even wake up to cancel the appointment. I woke up a few hours later and barely had the energy to even get out of bed. I finally got up and took a shower but I had to force myself. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't have any energy. It wasn't like this yesterday but I feel like crap right now. 18th day sober.

parentrecovers

are you able to rescheduale the appt, maybe just let the doc know you're really struggling and want to get in asap? don't give up. 18 days is a big accomplishment. please don't lose hope. blessings, k

LeftBehind

Count me in!

Hey I just thought of something. Action creates reaction. Go somewhere alcohol isn't. Take a hike. Go shopping. Go to the library. Go anywhere alcohol isn't and do something in a pleasant but safe environment. I don't know, what do you think?

Dee74

Sorry you missed the appointment Hope4...I sympathise...I feel like I've been hit by a truck today...but reschedule it, it's important...

peace
D

Hope

No cravings today! I'm so glad to say that because you have all seen how much I have struggled over the last week.

This proves that the cravings do pass if we walk through them. Sometimes they do last for several days but they go away.

Basically I have done everything EXCEPT for pick up a drink or drug.

I am grateful to be sober. I'm not missing anything from that old lifestyle. It offers me nothing. The delusion may sometimes may it appear more exciting than it really is. What is so exciting about hangovers, humiliation, being broke, and losing control? The addictive thinking doesn't let you thinking about the negative. It romanticizes the so-called "good times" (but as time goes on there's less and less as addiction progresses. )

So I am kind of feeling sort of alright now. LOL, how's that for a description?? Could be better but could be worse.

Hope

Those thoughts are starting again. Had an ok day... but now I am thinking that I was to "have just one" or drink "just one more time".

Wanting to drink "one more time" is the main thought that is terrorizing my mind. Of course, it is never one more.... one more is never enough. It is endless.
I still hate having these thoughs. They come from time to time but I have to work through them and be that much stronger in the end.

My wrist and tooth is in pain. I feel like crap from the pain. But "this too shall pass" but I want it to pass RIGHT NOW.

Pilgrim

Hi there Hope4life. I was just wondering what support you are using in the non cyber world? Here's a hug to help you through.

((((((((((((Hope4life)))))))))))))

noprob

I really thank you from the bottom of my heart for your sharing.
I have not been in the best of places lately (mind wise) to much thinking these past few days and well it reminds me where I have came from and where I am at now and where I could be.
Thx. alot Hope.

KOKO