I am a total loser.........
Hope3
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Upstate, NY
Posts: 2,155
Originally Posted by KC1 
OK. I dumped the third glass down the drain and am going to bed. I still feel like a total loser and a total a$$hole. What the fu** is wrong with me? I feel like I can beat this one moment and the next I am falling off the wagon so bad, I can't see straight. I hate this right now. But I just can't stop. The wine is screaming my name. ONe more won't hurt. Just try one more. You can do it. God tells me you have all been there, done that. But how on earth did you stop? I do not want to end up 6 feet under because of booze!!!
One is too much, and one hundred is not enough. God help me and thank you all for your support. I will try to NEVER let you down again. Your pathetic friend,
KC
One is too much, and one hundred is not enough. God help me and thank you all for your support. I will try to NEVER let you down again. Your pathetic friend,
KC
much longer I can take this. I really feel this is going to end our 17 year
relationship. I knew my lover was dead serious and dead right.
I know if it wasn't for that I'd still be drinking. So, thats my story.
Bless you KC, you are worth it, you can do it, seek outside help if you think it will help. But, please don't give up on you.
hugs, hope3
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Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: SAN DIEGO, CA
Posts: 379
KC -
I've read your posts. You are a good person with a fantastic sense of humor. You have a lot to give and a lot to live for. Stay strong and keep trying. Giving up is just not an option!
TinLizzy
I've read your posts. You are a good person with a fantastic sense of humor. You have a lot to give and a lot to live for. Stay strong and keep trying. Giving up is just not an option!
TinLizzy
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Murrieta, Ca
Posts: 2,683
We've all been there. It's not a fun place to be. Normies think we're having fun. "Hah !", if only they knew.
Like you, I kept on trying. But, it wasn't until I gave up that my disease was arrested.
Like you, I kept on trying. But, it wasn't until I gave up that my disease was arrested.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Canada
Posts: 4
Hi KC
I have tried and tried to quit since Oct 2005 - this time I'm on day 21 and doing good. This time I sat down with my husband and explained a few things to him - we were drinkers together - every night we would drink - difference being he can stop after one or two, not me - I have to rid that bottle of wine (or two if I happen to open a second one). He always used to tell me "all you have to do is cut back"; prove that I have control by going without it for a bit .. etc etc...this is because he didn't/doesn't have a problem with it. I finally explained to him on this quit that I felt I had a problem with it - regardless of what he thought, I didn't like me when I was drinking - that when I took that first glass I would drink to excess and I needed to stop that. He understood and has stood behind me ever since. I just stay away from that first glass, the rest takes care of itself.
And I have quit about 100 times since October 2005...persevere - you'll do it.
Take care.
I have tried and tried to quit since Oct 2005 - this time I'm on day 21 and doing good. This time I sat down with my husband and explained a few things to him - we were drinkers together - every night we would drink - difference being he can stop after one or two, not me - I have to rid that bottle of wine (or two if I happen to open a second one). He always used to tell me "all you have to do is cut back"; prove that I have control by going without it for a bit .. etc etc...this is because he didn't/doesn't have a problem with it. I finally explained to him on this quit that I felt I had a problem with it - regardless of what he thought, I didn't like me when I was drinking - that when I took that first glass I would drink to excess and I needed to stop that. He understood and has stood behind me ever since. I just stay away from that first glass, the rest takes care of itself.
And I have quit about 100 times since October 2005...persevere - you'll do it.
Take care.
let it grow!
Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: USA
Posts: 15,540
everyday that my daughter is clean and sober is a blessing - for her and us (her family). i feel grateful for every day one. it's one more day that she is safe and taking good care of herself. blessings, k
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