1_day@_a_time

"I'll be tested again tonight as I'm going to a sports bar to watch the NCAA...."

WHY???

I'm a huge sprots fan, and bummed UCLA lost, why go there?

"My wife will never understand and that causes a big problem for us..."

Suggest: stay OUT of problem, WORK IN SOLUTION.

THERE IS ONE!!!!

Do YOUR part, the rest will follow..........

Macphisto

O.K, I've lost the battle once again... I was feeling a little bit "out of touch" so during lunch i went to grab a couple of beers.... My sick mind told me "people at work are going to smell the beer" so I got a large bottle og Grey Goose... Why did I do it?? Absolutely no idea. So now I sit here at work and have drank about half the bottel with some diet coke.. man do I fell like a looser, I had never really wanted or felt the desire to drink at work but after the first drink it jusk kept going..

Thank God that I've become so accustomed to drinking the my boss didn't notice when I was tlking to him earlier (at least that's my impression)... I think I may go home early and try to stop this.. For God's sake, my wife will be induced into labor Tommorrow and I don't need this..

Mostly I feel like such a failure.. Everything in my life seems to be good with the nice house, cars, and a good job that I'm really good at but I'm afraid it's all going to come crashing down if I continue..

I'm just not thinking straight but I do knoe even now I have the desire to stop... I realy hope Once I get through this binge I can do it..

What I keep thinking back on is how great I was feeling in weeks past without the booze and I want to kick myself for not being strong enough to keep it going..

thanks for listening...

SaTiT

mmm...if you don't drink. You can smell booze a mile away.
It's the same as cigg smoke.

For some reason those folks in AA told me to keep
coming back.
Then I'll hear "you don't have to it alone" over and over
again before I took notice to it.

Sometime in meetings, I'll hear stuff in details, how
alcoholism affects the alki. "we keep beating ourselve
over the head again and again when we fail in something
especailly when trying to stop drinking. The sense of
failure and shame pick up momentum. Then we start
thinking all this recovery crap is total non-sense and
a waste of time. Those feelings sucks....and wham
bam thak you mam...we're freanken drunk again.

The short version is...we set ourself up for a fall, but
for some reason..AA print these three words.
Cunning, baffleing and powerful.

1_day@_a_time

Carlos, so, in a matter of hours, feeling confident, you find ourself with a bottle. That's alcoholism, regardless of everything.

So, this, if NOTHING else MAY make it clear to you, you need to take a different path.

BTW, my drinking & using cost me my family. After 20 yrs of marriage. Two young children.

Done.

All of it........gone.

adoublelife

Sounds like you need some serious support-NO ONE CAN DO IT ALONE so don't get so down on yourself. Breaking bad habits is hard and it takes time. Your wife should support you, and be honest about needing her support. Good Luck, you can conquer this if you want to but it requires giving it your all!