What's Going On With You Today Part 2
Thanks Anna for understanding....I guess thats
why i stick close to AA folks because u and they
understand....no questions....
The 2 older ladies....both are old enough to retire
and yet they dont want to stay at home which i
understand.....
Here i was at the bank job working with younger
than i and now im working with 2 older than i....lol
Give me a break...lol
My son is do to get married in Dec...on my birthday
and i havent decided on what to do for that....I
did talk to my daughter and she understands my
situation...
I know they wont bat an eye if im not there....
That would also be another awkward situation
to place myself in....
It is a happy occassion and here my husband
and i are separated....I will definitely feel like
a misfit or 3rd wheel there....
Anyway....thank u about my eye....i do hope it
continues to get better....its a scarry thought
thinking u have little to know sight to see....
Thanks for being here for me Anna.... I appreciate it.
why i stick close to AA folks because u and they
understand....no questions....
The 2 older ladies....both are old enough to retire
and yet they dont want to stay at home which i
understand.....
Here i was at the bank job working with younger
than i and now im working with 2 older than i....lol
Give me a break...lol
My son is do to get married in Dec...on my birthday
and i havent decided on what to do for that....I
did talk to my daughter and she understands my
situation...
I know they wont bat an eye if im not there....
That would also be another awkward situation
to place myself in....
It is a happy occassion and here my husband
and i are separated....I will definitely feel like
a misfit or 3rd wheel there....
Anyway....thank u about my eye....i do hope it
continues to get better....its a scarry thought
thinking u have little to know sight to see....
Thanks for being here for me Anna.... I appreciate it.
Hi there...my SR family....
Just felt like sharing here today....
Today was my day off from work and
I just returned from an eye appointment.
After telling them I was there I had a seat
in the waiting room with just one other
old couple. The place is quiet for awhile...
Must have been lunch time....
Anyway, as I sat on a long bench i glanced
down as say a penny....i was told that if
the head was up u can pick it up for
good luck....so i did.....I held it and began
to think....
I need some luck....then i began to wonder
why am i having so much trouble with
my eyes at my age....seems like ive been
having this all my life....
Could it be because my mom drank when she
was pregnant with me and hemmoraged? or
is it genetic....or is it because im an alcoholic?
Maybe Its punishment for being a sinner.
Anyway...i fought away the tears as i
watched older couples coming in....
I felt like a child...innocent child...
And sooo they called me in...dialated
my eyes and saw the doctor....He shined
this bright light in my eye and told me
its definitely getting better....
GREAT NEWS..! and wants to see me
back in a month. YEAH.
See....last week when i went for my visit
they stuck a needle in there to inject
medicine to dry up some fluid in the back
of my eye....for a week now i cant tell
if its getting better.....so todays news
was definitely good luck from that penny.
I went to a meeting last night....the first
time to venture out to one at night since
moving back home.
The meeting was filled with lots of young'uns
as well as some familiar faces from another
meeting i frequent.
It was a speaker meeting and i listened for
the message....
The message i gathered was....it doesnt
matter about all the "STUFF" u have in ur
life...the cars, the college education....the
highest standings u have in ur community
non of that matters if u dont follow the
principles set before us in ur everyday life....
What i learned in recovery is.....my primary
purpose in recovery is to stay sober and
help other alcoholic achieve sobriety by
sharing my own ESH with them....
This is not about me....its not about being
that important....its all about giving away
what was so freely given to me....
And so i shall continue embarking on my
journey helping others the way so many
have helped me and continue to help me
along the way.
I can't keep what i have if i dont give it
away....
Thanks for letting me share.
Just felt like sharing here today....
Today was my day off from work and
I just returned from an eye appointment.
After telling them I was there I had a seat
in the waiting room with just one other
old couple. The place is quiet for awhile...
Must have been lunch time....
Anyway, as I sat on a long bench i glanced
down as say a penny....i was told that if
the head was up u can pick it up for
good luck....so i did.....I held it and began
to think....
I need some luck....then i began to wonder
why am i having so much trouble with
my eyes at my age....seems like ive been
having this all my life....
Could it be because my mom drank when she
was pregnant with me and hemmoraged? or
is it genetic....or is it because im an alcoholic?
Maybe Its punishment for being a sinner.
Anyway...i fought away the tears as i
watched older couples coming in....
I felt like a child...innocent child...
And sooo they called me in...dialated
my eyes and saw the doctor....He shined
this bright light in my eye and told me
its definitely getting better....
GREAT NEWS..! and wants to see me
back in a month. YEAH.
See....last week when i went for my visit
they stuck a needle in there to inject
medicine to dry up some fluid in the back
of my eye....for a week now i cant tell
if its getting better.....so todays news
was definitely good luck from that penny.
I went to a meeting last night....the first
time to venture out to one at night since
moving back home.
The meeting was filled with lots of young'uns
as well as some familiar faces from another
meeting i frequent.
It was a speaker meeting and i listened for
the message....
The message i gathered was....it doesnt
matter about all the "STUFF" u have in ur
life...the cars, the college education....the
highest standings u have in ur community
non of that matters if u dont follow the
principles set before us in ur everyday life....
What i learned in recovery is.....my primary
purpose in recovery is to stay sober and
help other alcoholic achieve sobriety by
sharing my own ESH with them....
This is not about me....its not about being
that important....its all about giving away
what was so freely given to me....
And so i shall continue embarking on my
journey helping others the way so many
have helped me and continue to help me
along the way.
I can't keep what i have if i dont give it
away....
Thanks for letting me share.
Hello SR...im here again....
It's taking me this long since Dec.
after moving back here to Baton Rouge
from living in Houston 10 yrs to begin
to settle in more comfortably.
What I mean is...im slowly making it
back to the many meetings i use to
go to before moving to Houston....
Im also getting the motivation back
to baking for my meetings....
I saw a recipe on tv by Mr. Food
about a Soda Pop Cake which will
be easy to make for my meetings...
I'll probably do that one after I make
sandwhiches first...Ive not done this
yet and now im kinda anxious to putting
them together....
Im learning how to put trays together
at my bakery job....and we do make
sandwhiches for emplyees and customers....
so i will make a try of ham sandwhiches....
I have my bread already frozen in which
i will cut the crust off then add some deli
ham slices a tad of mayo then cut into
4's ...ill set them on my pretty red
glass platter lined with wax paper cut'
into a circle with scallop edges...
Line the sanwhiches up and add Pringle
chips and Peppermint LifeSavors incircling
the tray....
I cant wait...lol
Then i will make the pop soda cake for
my next meeting. : )
It's taking me this long since Dec.
after moving back here to Baton Rouge
from living in Houston 10 yrs to begin
to settle in more comfortably.
What I mean is...im slowly making it
back to the many meetings i use to
go to before moving to Houston....
Im also getting the motivation back
to baking for my meetings....
I saw a recipe on tv by Mr. Food
about a Soda Pop Cake which will
be easy to make for my meetings...
I'll probably do that one after I make
sandwhiches first...Ive not done this
yet and now im kinda anxious to putting
them together....
Im learning how to put trays together
at my bakery job....and we do make
sandwhiches for emplyees and customers....
so i will make a try of ham sandwhiches....
I have my bread already frozen in which
i will cut the crust off then add some deli
ham slices a tad of mayo then cut into
4's ...ill set them on my pretty red
glass platter lined with wax paper cut'
into a circle with scallop edges...
Line the sanwhiches up and add Pringle
chips and Peppermint LifeSavors incircling
the tray....
I cant wait...lol
Then i will make the pop soda cake for
my next meeting. : )
Hi Sharon,
Wow, I am so, so glad to hear the good news about your eye. And, you know I've had those same kinds of feelings like you had in the drs office. When I get an ache or pain or whatever, I quickly think, I wonder if I did that to myself. That is such a bad way to think. We all do things to ourselves that are not good and we also do a lot of good things for our bodies. We are just human.
Sharon, please don't take this the wrong way. I know you have some issues with your family and I can understand the resentments that build due to family relationships, especially mixed with alcohol. But, do you really want to miss your son getting married? My son got married in 2005 and my daughter got married in 2006 and you know, those two occasions made everything seem worth the effort. Getting sober and staying sober is hard work and there is a lot of negativity in the guilt and shame, but weddings are so full of joy.
Wow, I am so, so glad to hear the good news about your eye. And, you know I've had those same kinds of feelings like you had in the drs office. When I get an ache or pain or whatever, I quickly think, I wonder if I did that to myself. That is such a bad way to think. We all do things to ourselves that are not good and we also do a lot of good things for our bodies. We are just human.
Sharon, please don't take this the wrong way. I know you have some issues with your family and I can understand the resentments that build due to family relationships, especially mixed with alcohol. But, do you really want to miss your son getting married? My son got married in 2005 and my daughter got married in 2006 and you know, those two occasions made everything seem worth the effort. Getting sober and staying sober is hard work and there is a lot of negativity in the guilt and shame, but weddings are so full of joy.
Yes I know they are...Im working on my feelings...
sorting them out...
I guess im realizin that I have been miserable most all
my life...esp in my marriage...i drank to numb all those
negative feelings i had.
Drank because i felt different, because i was lonely,
because no one understood me....and so on....
it wasnt anyones fault because of the way i felt all
those yrs....and i need to stop blaming folks....
My leaving is a sign of being healthy....If i stayed
in a miserable marriage is only because i allowed
myself to do so and fear kept me captive....
I still have time and work to continue to grow in
a more healthier way....
I remain teachable as always.....
And Anna,,,,i appreciate ur honesty with me....
sometime having another point out my defects when
im still blind to see them.... helps me out...
So anytime friend...
You Are Much Appreciated.
sorting them out...
I guess im realizin that I have been miserable most all
my life...esp in my marriage...i drank to numb all those
negative feelings i had.
Drank because i felt different, because i was lonely,
because no one understood me....and so on....
it wasnt anyones fault because of the way i felt all
those yrs....and i need to stop blaming folks....
My leaving is a sign of being healthy....If i stayed
in a miserable marriage is only because i allowed
myself to do so and fear kept me captive....
I still have time and work to continue to grow in
a more healthier way....
I remain teachable as always.....
And Anna,,,,i appreciate ur honesty with me....
sometime having another point out my defects when
im still blind to see them.... helps me out...
So anytime friend...
You Are Much Appreciated.
Sharon, I was not pointing our your defects! I really didn't want to offend you in any way. I just think that it's a big decision and one that you can never change once it's over.
wow great posts so far. today im back on track after drying out for a week or so. made a meeting saturday and today. had work/school all week and family memebers in town getting drunk which made me irritable, discontent, and ungrateful. starting feeling alone and thinking crazy. made my meetings and feel great again. holidays are done, school is only 4 more weeks so things are back to normal! yay for gratitude and contentment in sobriety!!!
Thanks Chicago for sharing....Im glad u r still hanging
in there with all that "stuff" going on around you....
The best place to be when I feel lonely, not
understood is with others in recovery....
Helping others like us gets us out of our
own selfish thinking....
Glad ur here for me and i for u.
in there with all that "stuff" going on around you....
The best place to be when I feel lonely, not
understood is with others in recovery....
Helping others like us gets us out of our
own selfish thinking....
Glad ur here for me and i for u.
Its been awhile since i last wrote....makes
me think back on when was it the last time
I went to Confession. Us Catholics know
about that....kinda similar to doing the 5 step
in recovery...Admitting to God Ourselves
and another human being the exact nature
of our wrongs.
Well this is not a confession....this is just
sharing whats been going on lately in my
life/day.
Let's see...at work one of the ladies quit
a few weeks ago....she had taken me to the
office and as i let her tattle and i kept quiet,
the owners told her that the bakery wasnt
a babysitting service and gave her a few days
to decide if she wanted to stay or leave,,,,
Well as far as i know she left....
Now for more wonderful news...
Yesterday i was shopping down an
isle at the grocery store when 2 ladies
aknowledged each other....i couldnt
help but eves drop because they were
kinda loud....
Anyway,,,,i listened a moment as they
talked about hiring new people at their
job....the job was at a hospital i had put
my application in not too long ago....
I wanted to say something, but didnt as
i was thinking they will probably hire students
that r training to become nurses or RN'S
So i quietly walked away and put it behind
me....
Today is Monday and its my day off...i was
planning to make my tray of goodies and head
to a noon meeting....well...as i was getting ready
the phone rang.....Hello i answered and u will
never guess who it was....
The lady from Human Resources at the hospital
i over heard those 2 ladies talking about....she was
calling to set up an appointment with me for an
interview for this coming Thursday....
CAN U BELIEVE THAT...
So this morning after the elated news, i got
in my car and took a trial drive to the hospital
to the HR office to introduce myself....
The lady was busy at the time so i left
but will return on Thursday,,,,
Since the trial drive didnt take long, i had
enough time to go home , get my tray of
goodies and head off to a noon meeting in
the pouring rain....
Now for that, just like how i did when drinking....
id go to any lengths to drink and so it goes
for staying sober....ill go to any lengths even in the
rain to get to a meeting.
And that's how it works for me.
me think back on when was it the last time
I went to Confession. Us Catholics know
about that....kinda similar to doing the 5 step
in recovery...Admitting to God Ourselves
and another human being the exact nature
of our wrongs.
Well this is not a confession....this is just
sharing whats been going on lately in my
life/day.
Let's see...at work one of the ladies quit
a few weeks ago....she had taken me to the
office and as i let her tattle and i kept quiet,
the owners told her that the bakery wasnt
a babysitting service and gave her a few days
to decide if she wanted to stay or leave,,,,
Well as far as i know she left....
Now for more wonderful news...
Yesterday i was shopping down an
isle at the grocery store when 2 ladies
aknowledged each other....i couldnt
help but eves drop because they were
kinda loud....
Anyway,,,,i listened a moment as they
talked about hiring new people at their
job....the job was at a hospital i had put
my application in not too long ago....
I wanted to say something, but didnt as
i was thinking they will probably hire students
that r training to become nurses or RN'S
So i quietly walked away and put it behind
me....
Today is Monday and its my day off...i was
planning to make my tray of goodies and head
to a noon meeting....well...as i was getting ready
the phone rang.....Hello i answered and u will
never guess who it was....
The lady from Human Resources at the hospital
i over heard those 2 ladies talking about....she was
calling to set up an appointment with me for an
interview for this coming Thursday....
CAN U BELIEVE THAT...
So this morning after the elated news, i got
in my car and took a trial drive to the hospital
to the HR office to introduce myself....
The lady was busy at the time so i left
but will return on Thursday,,,,
Since the trial drive didnt take long, i had
enough time to go home , get my tray of
goodies and head off to a noon meeting in
the pouring rain....
Now for that, just like how i did when drinking....
id go to any lengths to drink and so it goes
for staying sober....ill go to any lengths even in the
rain to get to a meeting.
And that's how it works for me.
Sharon,
Read your entire post and found it quite inspirational. I was gonna break down and drink tonite after a victorious 6 days of sobriety, but decided to log onto SR first. I forgot all about drinking after the first 10 min or reading. In fact, your posts have given me a renewed drive to keep up the sobriety.
Thanks,
You've saved a life tonite.
Introvrtd1
Read your entire post and found it quite inspirational. I was gonna break down and drink tonite after a victorious 6 days of sobriety, but decided to log onto SR first. I forgot all about drinking after the first 10 min or reading. In fact, your posts have given me a renewed drive to keep up the sobriety.
Thanks,
You've saved a life tonite.
Introvrtd1
Im glad u didnt drink....and see maybe someone will
read what u wrote and be inspired by ur determination
to go to any lengths to stay sober or clean. Now all u
need to do is share with others how u stayed sober today.
And do that each day...Soon u will find uve collected
a number of one days at a time sober....
By sharing what happeed to me when i was drinking,
how i got sober and where i am now or my experiences,
strengths and hopes with others allows me to stay sober
myself,,,,,Im not only helping u but im helping myself too.
Im here for anyone who needs me.
read what u wrote and be inspired by ur determination
to go to any lengths to stay sober or clean. Now all u
need to do is share with others how u stayed sober today.
And do that each day...Soon u will find uve collected
a number of one days at a time sober....
By sharing what happeed to me when i was drinking,
how i got sober and where i am now or my experiences,
strengths and hopes with others allows me to stay sober
myself,,,,,Im not only helping u but im helping myself too.
Im here for anyone who needs me.
Ok Folks...Good news...That I hope will be...
I went to my interview today at 3 at the hospital. The
lady was very nice as we chatted about my bakery job
and the hospital job application.
We had a very pleasant chat as she asked me different
questions about myself and what i was looking for in the
job i was applying for....
They have a position open for a Hostess job which would
be filling patiant food orders and delivering them to their
rooms....being a people person....showing compassion
and understanding towards them....this seems like
a rewarding position to have if given the opportunity.
I was then sent to the hospital close to where i live to
interview there....the lady there was also very nice as
we chatted about different things....the hospital is opening
up a new cafeteria next week and a Hostess position is
available,,,,,
Tomorrow they will finish up their interviews and if i am
chosen then they will let me know come Monday....
Soooooooo.....i shall wait to find out the news....
in the meantime i will work at my bakery and be patiant.
Whatever will be will be.... As i believe it is ultimately His
Will with whatever happens to me.
I went to my interview today at 3 at the hospital. The
lady was very nice as we chatted about my bakery job
and the hospital job application.
We had a very pleasant chat as she asked me different
questions about myself and what i was looking for in the
job i was applying for....
They have a position open for a Hostess job which would
be filling patiant food orders and delivering them to their
rooms....being a people person....showing compassion
and understanding towards them....this seems like
a rewarding position to have if given the opportunity.
I was then sent to the hospital close to where i live to
interview there....the lady there was also very nice as
we chatted about different things....the hospital is opening
up a new cafeteria next week and a Hostess position is
available,,,,,
Tomorrow they will finish up their interviews and if i am
chosen then they will let me know come Monday....
Soooooooo.....i shall wait to find out the news....
in the meantime i will work at my bakery and be patiant.
Whatever will be will be.... As i believe it is ultimately His
Will with whatever happens to me.
((((Sharon))))
That is just wonderful news and the thing about it is that this would really be a great position in which you can show the community how recovery really shines when someone works such a wonderful program. I will keep ya in my thoughts and yes like you said "God's will not mine be done."
That is just wonderful news and the thing about it is that this would really be a great position in which you can show the community how recovery really shines when someone works such a wonderful program. I will keep ya in my thoughts and yes like you said "God's will not mine be done."
Wow! Sharon, that is terrific news!
I know that you were aiming for that type of work for a long time and I am so glad that things are coming your way.
It sounds like it would be a great job for you.
What kind of hours would it be - daytime, I guess?
I know that you were aiming for that type of work for a long time and I am so glad that things are coming your way.
It sounds like it would be a great job for you.
What kind of hours would it be - daytime, I guess?
Thanks Anna....Im trying not to get over excited
or anxious about what could or may happen....
Reason why is,,,i had gone to an interview several
months ago at another hospital thinking i did well
with my interview and come to find out they thought
i was to anxious for the type of job i was applying for,,,,
Which was working in rehab with patiants....
I could see that just because i have been sober
16 yrs and i know what i need to do to stay sober....
However....when working with patiants its important not
tell them how to stay sober or clean....
you cant tell someone what to do....and what may
work for me may not necessarily work for someone else.
Anyway....remaining, calm, positive, compassionate, ....
And so that job opportunity from what ive gathered
wasnt for me.....
After that i began working at the bakery....a place
i didnt think id really want to or think about doing
at that time....however it has been a cool job and
another learning opportunity.
Im ok working there otherwise except for an old kogger.
"old fart" this man is a retired mess hall army man i guess...
Anyway,,,he's belittling employees.....and why dont they
get rid of him....well they must think he's got something
to contribute....yeah a pain in the butt....lol
He and i r butting heads because he wants to TELL me
what to do and im not liking it....since he's running into
a brick wall with me...he wants me out....
Like today i went to check on a cake and he wanted
me out in the front....he got pist or something...and from
what i heard from others...he said "she needs to go"...
Right ...u jack-azz...lol
Anyway...i havent said anything to anyone except one of
the owners sons...about me having an interview...i didnt
give him an up date yet on how it went.....
So....whatever happens Monday ...well...we shall see...
I know i have no growing room at the bakery....I mean
im glad to have gotten some training there and to see
that there will always be some jack-azz who will try to
cause trouble for me....or is it me?
Every job ive had.... there has been someone i cant get
along with....someone who wants to TELL ME what to do....
Other than that i get along well with others and peope will tell u i
am a good person to work with....
ok Anna, im rambling... if i should get this job position
then my hours will vary...one week i think will be early
hours....and the next evening till 9....weekends....
But u know....its just me i need to take care of....i mean
i dont want to work myself to death..i just need to be
finacally secure.....
No kids, husband, ....just me myself and I.
I think this would be a rewarding opportunity to
help others who need help....
Only the Man Upstairs knows for sure tho....
His Will not mine with whatever happens.
or anxious about what could or may happen....
Reason why is,,,i had gone to an interview several
months ago at another hospital thinking i did well
with my interview and come to find out they thought
i was to anxious for the type of job i was applying for,,,,
Which was working in rehab with patiants....
I could see that just because i have been sober
16 yrs and i know what i need to do to stay sober....
However....when working with patiants its important not
tell them how to stay sober or clean....
you cant tell someone what to do....and what may
work for me may not necessarily work for someone else.
Anyway....remaining, calm, positive, compassionate, ....
And so that job opportunity from what ive gathered
wasnt for me.....
After that i began working at the bakery....a place
i didnt think id really want to or think about doing
at that time....however it has been a cool job and
another learning opportunity.
Im ok working there otherwise except for an old kogger.
"old fart" this man is a retired mess hall army man i guess...
Anyway,,,he's belittling employees.....and why dont they
get rid of him....well they must think he's got something
to contribute....yeah a pain in the butt....lol
He and i r butting heads because he wants to TELL me
what to do and im not liking it....since he's running into
a brick wall with me...he wants me out....
Like today i went to check on a cake and he wanted
me out in the front....he got pist or something...and from
what i heard from others...he said "she needs to go"...
Right ...u jack-azz...lol
Anyway...i havent said anything to anyone except one of
the owners sons...about me having an interview...i didnt
give him an up date yet on how it went.....
So....whatever happens Monday ...well...we shall see...
I know i have no growing room at the bakery....I mean
im glad to have gotten some training there and to see
that there will always be some jack-azz who will try to
cause trouble for me....or is it me?
Every job ive had.... there has been someone i cant get
along with....someone who wants to TELL ME what to do....
Other than that i get along well with others and peope will tell u i
am a good person to work with....
ok Anna, im rambling... if i should get this job position
then my hours will vary...one week i think will be early
hours....and the next evening till 9....weekends....
But u know....its just me i need to take care of....i mean
i dont want to work myself to death..i just need to be
finacally secure.....
No kids, husband, ....just me myself and I.
I think this would be a rewarding opportunity to
help others who need help....
Only the Man Upstairs knows for sure tho....
His Will not mine with whatever happens.
Well here it is Tuesday and I havent heard back from the
hospital....no worries tho....im still ok with my bakery job....
it was still good to go experience another interview.....
Im sure my HP has my life all planned out for me, so its
no point in worrying.....
I do however like my hours at the bakery,,,,my only concern
would be money....
I will one day be divorced and there will be a settlement
after a 25 yr marriage....that would be my cushion for the
time being....
Im not pressuring my spouse for the money because he
is paying for both of our kids to finish their education....
That in itself is more important than anything right now...
So i will try and watch my spending.
Maybe i will go talk to the boss about extra work or more
money....but i feel akward asking since ive only been
working there since Feb.
Well ill see what happens....
hospital....no worries tho....im still ok with my bakery job....
it was still good to go experience another interview.....
Im sure my HP has my life all planned out for me, so its
no point in worrying.....
I do however like my hours at the bakery,,,,my only concern
would be money....
I will one day be divorced and there will be a settlement
after a 25 yr marriage....that would be my cushion for the
time being....
Im not pressuring my spouse for the money because he
is paying for both of our kids to finish their education....
That in itself is more important than anything right now...
So i will try and watch my spending.
Maybe i will go talk to the boss about extra work or more
money....but i feel akward asking since ive only been
working there since Feb.
Well ill see what happens....
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