Aysha

Hi everyone. I am a crack addict seeking recovery. I am scheduled for admission to treatment for the first time ever next week. I first started smoking pot at 12 years old. Then powder cocaine LSD at 14. And crack at 18. Ever since then it's been all crack all the time. I am now 31. I have never sought help before because I thought it was bull****. I'm getting too tired and old for this insanity and can finally admit I can't do it alone. Someone told me to find a recovery chat site to kill the time while I wait to go to treatment. So here I am. Thank you.

Taking5

Welcome. My DOC was alcohol but like many of us I have tried a bit of everything.

There is great support here, hang in there and don't drink or use.

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

This is a great place to find support and information. I hope you take a look around and feel at home.

gypsytears

Hi chiynita . Good decision you made to get help. This place is full of info ... lots to read. Here's a link to the substance abuse section of the forum :http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/substance-abuse/ But you're fine posting here .

Asking for and getting help isn't BS... it's the beginning of stopping the BS that's causing the insanity.

bee62

Welcome!
I have three weeks today-you can do it too!
This is a great group-hope you might have access to a computer in treatment-keep in touch, there is much wisdom here.
melissa

Squab

Welcome to SR Get comfy and hang around.

ayla zaire

welcome to sr......good luck to you in rehab.....it is a very brave thing you are doing...

hugs
ayla

teej

Welcome to SR chiynita!!!

Aysha

Thank you so much. I see there is alot of support here and I am so glad. I just registered maybe an hour ago and look at all the warm welcomes. Very refreshing. I look forward to posting and sharing my recovery process with you all.

topetah

hello there chiynita. you story sounds like my life. i too started smoking pot at around 13 beer was next powder followed then crack. not to meantion pcp lsd u name it. i was always looking for an excape. i had to move out of california because of my addiction. kansas seemed like a nice step i wanted to quit. i still drank and smoked pot but never touched crack again untill about 6 months ago when i moved into my new place alone. what a mistake that was. i was married had a house and new born son. wife couldnt take my drinking (who would) so we divorced. soon after that i started smoking crack. its a very bad demond. i stayed away from it for about 13 years. but was still using booze and pot. its all the same now i know. if you think u can quit crack and still smoke pot your really kidding yourself. i know i did. we are all addicts here we think like that lol.. im glad you are taking the biggest step of your life. learn from there and use the tools they give you. i hope all the best for you. stay safe... jason

hope3

Welcome, you have found a very supportive

site here at soberrecovery.

There is a lot of wonderful people here.

Post an read all you want, hugs, hope3

Rusty Zipper

chiy garbage head here...

that line was what it took for me to surender... Hands Up zip!

chiy... please dont cop out... the addiction will try to talk you out of it... dont give in...

wish'n you all the best...

plan B... have a recovery plan when you get out... they should and will suggest it...

dont give in to that too... remember.. we cant do it alone... many have tried... result... not too good...

xxoo, rz

parentrecovers

hello chiy and welcome! i admire you for seeking help and planning treatment, that's great! blessings, k

Aysha

Thank you..I can't believe how much support there is . My family is very supportive also. I use to always be scared that admitting I had a problem and seeking help made me weak. But it was weak of me to think otherwise.

CTown

Welcome and good luck!

Can't wait to hear treatment goes.

hope3

Hi Chi, actually not admitting to the problem

is partly because of the old myths of alcoholism.

The majority of people still view alcoholics as weak,

psychological msfits, and hey, who wants to admit

to that, not me...but we do know now that alcoholism is

a physiolocigal, and neuralogical addiction usually passed on

genectically..

Glad you are doing well, hope3

Aysha

Thank you. I have a question tho. My grandfather was a big time alcoholic. He started drinking as kid and ever since I can remember he drank all day everyday. I mean he use to keep a case of beer next to his chair. Get up in the middle of the night and drink. You couldnt tell he was even drinking most of the time.
Anyway..He is dead now...rest his soul..But I remember he went a whole day without any alcohol and he got so sick. He was white as a ghost and puking. It was bad. It was like if he did stop drinking he would die. Funny tho when he died not one thing wrong with him physically or health wise from drinking.


Oh and Rusty if you see this. I am sorry lol..but I really need to know what exactly that is behind that zipper.

bee62

Chiy
You ain't the first to ask THAT question :scratchch
M

Rusty Zipper

chiynita well, i could make up a wopper of a lie...(old behavior)... lol

truth of the matter... i boozed it up so much, was pee'n all the time... my zipper got rusty... lol...


my grandsponser gave me a book early on in recovery... "The Dark Night of Recovery".. the story of a sponser, and his sponsee... a real good read... not about gloom like the title might seam...

there was a recovery group called... you guessed it... The Rusty Zipper Club... Bingo!... i was home... lol my site name...

and there ya have it...

xxoo, rusty 'o zipper...