I cannot do this anymore!!!
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Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: Arizona USA
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Misses.. I have been reading your posts with quite an interest..
My ex (and father of my son) is from Fall River.. use to live on Palmer street - and the Braga bridge is named after their family..
NO NO NO.. YOU do not give up.. If he can do it.. so can you..
and.. i'm two decades later getting their myself..
YOU can do this.. and if you need personal support - I will give you his name and phone number. He is a hometown kid.. and actually you probably know him..
I live on the west coast - but that is something that I admire so much about "back east".. is the family..
do not give up.. you are strong.. I know this- just from knowing where you are from
k
My ex (and father of my son) is from Fall River.. use to live on Palmer street - and the Braga bridge is named after their family..
NO NO NO.. YOU do not give up.. If he can do it.. so can you..
and.. i'm two decades later getting their myself..
YOU can do this.. and if you need personal support - I will give you his name and phone number. He is a hometown kid.. and actually you probably know him..
I live on the west coast - but that is something that I admire so much about "back east".. is the family..
do not give up.. you are strong.. I know this- just from knowing where you are from
k
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: in a better place
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missy, I hope you wake up feeling mentally better and realize that you felt so bad BECAUSE you drink. That alcohol is a demon that makes us feel worse than we would have naturally. You may have felt sad, but that would have passed. Feelings are OK. That's a scary thing to realize. It took some time for me to realize that what I was feeling was actually normal emotions and that they swing from good to bad. In time, and with patience, you can learn to float through those down periods without reaching for alcohol. Soon you're on your way back up again without the burden of being drunk or groggy.
Please let us know how you're feeling today. Don't ever feel like we'll give up on you.
Please let us know how you're feeling today. Don't ever feel like we'll give up on you.
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
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Hi missy, I slipped the other day too. I feel pretty rough now but I am not going to beat myself up about it as that would make it harder to not drink today. Forgive yourself and start again today. I drank because of the pain too and like you it just made me feel worse, maybe we needed reminding of that. All that matters is we both just get back on the wagon!
(((Missy)))
(((Missy)))
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Update
To all of you, I say thank you,
You didn't give up on me. I gave up on myself when I took that first drink. Yesterday I lived with guilt and a massive hangover.
Today, I am back here and grateful to be here! Starting over is not going to be easy, but I know I am not ready to give up.
Thanks again.
You didn't give up on me. I gave up on myself when I took that first drink. Yesterday I lived with guilt and a massive hangover.
Today, I am back here and grateful to be here! Starting over is not going to be easy, but I know I am not ready to give up.
Thanks again.
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Join Date: Aug 2006
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missy.....i hope you are doing ok today.....we all go through what you are going through.....i'm proud of you for coming here, being honest, and trying.....i know it's scary, especially after what you've been through with your family.....but you will never find rejection here, just love and support.....keep trying.....you'll make it...
hugs
ayla
hugs
ayla
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Hi TJ,
I am fine. I am back here and grateful that I am.
To all those that have relapsed,
It takes great courage to come back to your support system. Starting over is difficult, but at least you have that opportunity. Recovery is possible, you just need to want it.
A good day to all.
I am fine. I am back here and grateful that I am.
To all those that have relapsed,
It takes great courage to come back to your support system. Starting over is difficult, but at least you have that opportunity. Recovery is possible, you just need to want it.
A good day to all.
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Join Date: Nov 2003
Location: Boston MA
Posts: 666
Hey Missymae,
I just noticed this thread and wanted to send a shout out from a fellow Bay-Stater. Your thumbs up to one of my posts cheered me up and helped a fellow alcoholic. It's a bright and sunny day here in Boston, so it's probably nice in Fall River today, too. Try to enjoy the sun, enjoy the warm weather, and keep posting. We all need you. Glad you are back, and I'll wager - better than ever!!
Mike in Boston
Go Red Sox!!
I just noticed this thread and wanted to send a shout out from a fellow Bay-Stater. Your thumbs up to one of my posts cheered me up and helped a fellow alcoholic. It's a bright and sunny day here in Boston, so it's probably nice in Fall River today, too. Try to enjoy the sun, enjoy the warm weather, and keep posting. We all need you. Glad you are back, and I'll wager - better than ever!!
Mike in Boston
Go Red Sox!!
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Join Date: Dec 2006
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Missy, I truly admire your honesty. It's good to rid yourself of all that toxic thinking. Truth be told, if I were within walking distance of a package store I'd have done the same thing today. Thank God I'm not. Thanks for your post. I'm going to confess my sin of temptation to my sponsor right now.
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Join Date: Nov 2006
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Missy I am glad you made it back, the only advice I can give is look at what got you to where you were at, if it was SR support ae then you may want to think about some addition face to face support of a long term recovery program, AA worked for this old drunk with a 40 year career.
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