i've totally relapsed
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Good morning TJ. Hope your having a good day. I was on methotrexate for psoriatic arthritis which has thankfully cleared up. I remember my doctor at the time telling me I could drink a couple of beers on a Sat. night but no more. Of course a couple of beers was never the case. Have a good day & I will update
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omg
Oh my mr.. I am so sorry I was away when this happened.. I had the blood clot thing going on - and my leg was a bit like the baby elephant..
OH GOODNESS.. I did not see this post until i had my own relapse.. and you were so important to me in the past.. Yesh.. for the past two weeks i have been here..
ohhhhhh boy.. so what's up? how can I help??
Please let me know..
k
OH GOODNESS.. I did not see this post until i had my own relapse.. and you were so important to me in the past.. Yesh.. for the past two weeks i have been here..
ohhhhhh boy.. so what's up? how can I help??
Please let me know..
k
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WTF.. Mr.
I actually just read that post .. this thing is a maze.. and is much in needs of "go daddys" help.. my brother could make this happen..
Alexa related is a big spyware gig..
ANYWAY,, WTF.. Are you okay?? Where are you at right now w/in your recovery????
I am so sorry I was away - I told you before .. i had a big ugly blood cloot in my leg.. but that is not really an excuse..
OK .. so - you relapsed.. and you are young and hot.. from what i can tell.
I guess my first question is - why do you think that you have a problem.?? as opposed to the rest of us that are dumb?? I am not being sarcastic .. i just would like to know
I actually just read that post .. this thing is a maze.. and is much in needs of "go daddys" help.. my brother could make this happen..
Alexa related is a big spyware gig..
ANYWAY,, WTF.. Are you okay?? Where are you at right now w/in your recovery????
I am so sorry I was away - I told you before .. i had a big ugly blood cloot in my leg.. but that is not really an excuse..
OK .. so - you relapsed.. and you are young and hot.. from what i can tell.
I guess my first question is - why do you think that you have a problem.?? as opposed to the rest of us that are dumb?? I am not being sarcastic .. i just would like to know
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Originally Posted by mercurial me
after a week of sobriety I had a tough day at work and hit the liquor store Thurs.
My landlord was rude to me. My boss, in a round about way, told me I wasn't trusted -- that I had to leave work when my supervisor did. I was gonna stay late to finish things up. But when I heard that, I decided to leave at the usual time. Why should I go out of my way when I'm not even trusted? And why do I have a key card that allows me 24 hour access if I'm not trusted? I've been employed at the same place for over ten years. It's insulting.
I know I'm probably reading too much into everything, but... that's the way I feel.
Originally Posted by mercurial me
i hate myself enough but my girlfriend is let down enough for the both of us.
Originally Posted by mercurial me
i know this is negative talk, but what the f**k is the point of staying sober for a week only to slip once and have all expectations come crashing down to earth 10x harder than ever before?
Originally Posted by mercurial me
i can't tell if that's a sign that she just cares a lot or that she's given up hope on me or that she was just waiting for the inevitable. anywayz, just a pissed off & confused drunk writing here. i am totally on the verge of cutting my losses and giving up on my relationship with her. i realize it's not comparing apples to apples, but it seem like everything i've done doesn't mean **** as long as i can't achieve total sobriety. being an alcoholic is pure hell
This may sound harsh, but what your g/f thinks doesn't matter. This is about you -- about your life. Don't let her disappointment affect you.
Originally Posted by mercurial me
God bless all the strong sober people here and all of the strong willed people struggling to stay sober tonight.
Gomez
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Originally Posted by mercurial me
after a week of sobriety I had a tough day at work and hit the liquor store Thurs.
My landlord was rude to me. My boss, in a round about way, told me I wasn't trusted -- that I had to leave work when my supervisor did. I was gonna stay late to finish things up. But when I heard that, I decided to leave at the usual time. Why should I go out of my way when I'm not even trusted? And why do I have a key card that allows me 24 hour access if I'm not trusted? I've been employed at the same place for over ten years. It's insulting.
I know I'm probably reading too much into everything, but... that's the way I feel.
Originally Posted by mercurial me
i hate myself enough but my girlfriend is let down enough for the both of us.
Originally Posted by mercurial me
i know this is negative talk, but what the f**k is the point of staying sober for a week only to slip once and have all expectations come crashing down to earth 10x harder than ever before?
Originally Posted by mercurial me
i can't tell if that's a sign that she just cares a lot or that she's given up hope on me or that she was just waiting for the inevitable. anywayz, just a pissed off & confused drunk writing here. i am totally on the verge of cutting my losses and giving up on my relationship with her. i realize it's not comparing apples to apples, but it seem like everything i've done doesn't mean **** as long as i can't achieve total sobriety. being an alcoholic is pure hell
This may sound harsh, but what your g/f thinks doesn't matter. This is about you -- about your life. Don't let her disappointment affect you.
Originally Posted by mercurial me
God bless all the strong sober people here and all of the strong willed people struggling to stay sober tonight.
I know it's hard,
Gomez
I has been my experience, it's my MIND & my PERCEPTION (which you noted) that is warped.
As an alcoholic, my mind is disatisfied, I'm irritable and discontent.
Alcohol is but a symptom.
When I no longer drink, I am not "treating" the disease of alcoholism.
I must build a whole new character.
Make any sense?
As an alcoholic, my mind is disatisfied, I'm irritable and discontent.
Alcohol is but a symptom.
When I no longer drink, I am not "treating" the disease of alcoholism.
I must build a whole new character.
Make any sense?
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Hi Merc,
A human being! This site gets very quiet after all the girls go to sleep.
When do you find out about the biopsy? I will pray tonight as I go sleep that it will turn out fine.
Day 4! That's so good. I love hearing good news like that.
Future? No one here knows either. Remember just to try to get through today.
A human being! This site gets very quiet after all the girls go to sleep.
When do you find out about the biopsy? I will pray tonight as I go sleep that it will turn out fine.
Day 4! That's so good. I love hearing good news like that.
Future? No one here knows either. Remember just to try to get through today.
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