Day #1 is over....
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Day #1 is over....
hi all.....my DAY#1s get progressively worse.......the last 24 hours,i feel like i got hit by a truck....my bones ache....chills...headache.....upset stomach and i didn't get any sleep last night.......dreading going to work this morning......why do i do this to myself? went tot he doc yesterday morning,he was less than sympathetic.....told him i was on Day #1,and he says,"so how many day#1s have to had THIS month?"....i got a months worth of effexor out of him.....yes, my depression got better when i was sober for a month...but on my 30th day,it felt like someone flipped a switch,and for 5 days i struggled with it,the tears,dreading another day....on the 5th day,i got tired of fighting it...alone....my hands are trembling now....you all say to do it for myself......but i don't feel i am worth it at this point.......but i know i am not in the right frame of mind at this moment...going to the therapist today.....ugh....i just want to crawl back in bed....why do we punish oursleves like this? thanks for all the good thoughts you guys,and i am sending out good thoughts to all of you......have a good day.......and Lise......."ENOUGH"........
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why do we punish oursleves like this?
It sounds like maybe a new doctor would help your motivation. I'm glad you're still here trying to help yourself. You're never alone in this fight. By the way, have you considered talking to anyone in AA? Despite any philosophy of whether "it works" or "it doesn't work" the rooms are full of people trying to do exactly what you're doing - trying to get and stay sober. Just a thought.
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be careful on the effexor, paxil has been the better choice for some of the people i know. take a nice hot bath tonight go to bed early and remember my friend 'ALL YOU GET FROM LOOKING BACK IS A SORE NECK' let's move forward...
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Originally Posted by liiise 
and remember my friend 'ALL YOU GET FROM LOOKING BACK IS A SORE NECK' let's move forward...
The only time I look back is if I get too complacent and I need a boot in the butt to help me remember where I've been. I don't want to go back there...
Hang tough karrotop . Better days can be yours...
One day at a time.
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Karrotop,
Hang in there!
I am not sure if you were on antidepressants while you sober for the month or not. If not, maybe you should talk to your dr about staying on antidepressants. If you were taking meds, it could be that it isn't the right one for you. Antidepressants work differently for different people.
Hang in there!
I am not sure if you were on antidepressants while you sober for the month or not. If not, maybe you should talk to your dr about staying on antidepressants. If you were taking meds, it could be that it isn't the right one for you. Antidepressants work differently for different people.
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my wish for you karottop
"My Wish For You Karottop
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
This is my wish
I hope you that many people loves you
May all your dreams stay big
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
This is my wish
I hope you that many people loves you
May all your dreams stay big
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Fun, isn't it ? (Just kidding)
Been there done that, with a lot of others here I'm sure. And I agree, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy (Well, maybe my ex-wifes boyfriend). I really thought I was going to die the last time I went through withdrawls.
Hang on. Depending how far along you are with the disease, it may take up to a week for the major symptoms to subside.
(Just kidding)Been there done that, with a lot of others here I'm sure. And I agree, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy (Well, maybe my ex-wifes boyfriend). I really thought I was going to die the last time I went through withdrawls.
Hang on. Depending how far along you are with the disease, it may take up to a week for the major symptoms to subside.
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