User_Name

So I spent 2 nights in the psych ward after another suicide attempt (BAC .24 and very cut wrists). I've been staying at my parents house for about a week, and even had 7 days sober. Relapsed twice already where I drank about 12 beers each day. My parents know whats up, and my Dad gave me an ultimatum: stop drinking and he will do whatever is necessary to help, or give up and he's done with me. At this point my addict mind is saying just give up and get your fix (and die, which doesn't sound so bad at this juncture), but another part of me wants to get better. Not sure exactly why I relapsed but I do know I planned it out from the morning. I guess I'm just hoping for words of advice or people who have been in my shoes before and got BETTER. As far as I'm concerned this disease has got me by the balls and I'm seriously ready to just give up and die at my own hands. What say you??

gypsytears

I haven't been in your shoes user_name, and I am certainly not better, but I think the fact that you are here asking for help is HUGE .

cubbie

User_Name,

Please don't give up. Ask your Dad to get rid of the alcohol in the house. If that doesn't work, go to the doctor/hospital and tell someone about your situation. Once you get all the chemicals out of your system, you will likely have a clear mind, and the nihilistic thoughts may subside. The important thing right now is to get away from alcohol.

Cubbie

cooljelly

hi there
the pain youre in comes through loud and clear, like someone else said the fact that youre asking for help is a hage step forward in the right direction
ive tried to commit suicide may times but for the last two years since ive been on the correct medication for me ive been fine. I would even say thatim better mentally apart from my addiction problem
give yourself a break
have you been to any AA meetings
if not please go you will make many friends who wi;l have your best interests at heart
you are not alone
also how do you stand on the faith issue
maybe going to church would lift your spirits a bit
please dont hurt yourself anymore your a good person and you are probably much harder on yourself than you would be on anyone else
with love
penny

Lollipop

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The choice is yours.... I have been there, it sucks ass. The part of you that says Fk it is NOT you, its the disease and guess what...right now, its kickin ur a$$....please dont let it, your better then that!!! You just gotta stay strong right now hun, you gotta think about life and what it CAN be for you if you let it.....please dont give up!!! God if I had a dime for the times that I have been there....and trust me, this time of year, with my own crap, Im close again, but I wont let the disease beat me...dont you either!!!!!!
PM me ANYTIME!!!!
Love Liss

Smyle

my addiction does that to me sometimes ...it is called planning and once I start it I am convincing myself...I am done...just use/drink...

I have 6 months in a week and let me say ...IT SUCKS....but I want to live I want to be in this world..I wanna see who the president will be in 2008..since i am on probation i will not be running this year......

I am still very bitter at my disease........it trys to trick me daily...just get some pills and forget about it...drink up it says ...but I will not give in to it anymore....

you have this choice...so be a warrior...fight for you......we are here for you...

I posted like crazy when I first quit.... I did not do the meeting thing but I see an addiction specialist....

I hope you can get some answers...read and keep posting
good luck ----peace and love--

~B